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Default Jun 01, 2017 at 08:50 AM
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These days I am really psychologically trying to have happy moments but they are so fleeting. Panic and depression sucks.

If you believe in some kind of magic, send me your aetheric e motions to make me heal. This cup below is the link. You can click on it or better visualize it. If you do so, your mind waters will flow to me:
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Default Jun 01, 2017 at 09:19 AM
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I believe in magic, send you mind water. Dear Mother floating around with her favorite red dress after drank the magic water. Dear Father turned stiff following Mother. Wish I was already born that day to see them before they turned like this.
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Default Jun 05, 2017 at 07:09 AM
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stellar gods & horrors, as appeared to me in a vision of the ace of cups:

> Bel-Shamharoth
Also known as the soul eater, soul render, the sender of eight.
Its word is Shemhamforash. Its appearance unseen. Vaguely drawn on the cover of the octavo, the book of souls.

>+ Choronzon
Dweller at the threshold od stellar abyss. Appears as your shattered mental image.

+ Azatoth
The stellar magician. Teaches the secrets of technology, space travel, exoculture...
Its senses are blind to phenomenal universe. Existing as a stringed ball of energy.

<+ Yog-Sothoth
Yog-Sothoth knows the gate. Yog-Sothoth is the gate. Yog-Sothoth is the key and guardian of the gate. Past, present, future, all are one in Yog-Sothoth.
-H. P. Lovecraft

< Dagon
Dweller of the watery abyss, subspace, unconscious and subconscious. A strange fishlike creature.

<- Kthulu
The one who sleeps. Who is dead and cannot die. A mirage. A dream. Horror with a thousand eyes and tentacles.

- Hastur
Hooded invisible priest. The Unspeakable One, Him Who Is Not to be Named, Assatur, Xastur, H'aaztre, or Kaiwan.

>- Shub-Niggurath
Trees of eternity. The Black Goat of the Woods with a Thousand Young. Mother of abominations.

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Default Jun 06, 2017 at 08:08 AM
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What are they saying?

Yesterday when I seek death to play chess, I meet his weird best friend. His name is Tim, he said he's a doormaker. I don't understand because all he done is walking from door through door instead working on the door. He's wearing some weird grotesque mask, but I quite like it. I played chess with him instead. He's easily defeat me, well I'm suck at chess.
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Default Jun 06, 2017 at 08:36 AM
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So far I discerned only gibberish and glossolalia, them speaking.

That must have been Tim Leary. There is a rumor in the abyss that he defeated Death. His brain was preserved and inserted into a monkey body.

Never play chess with Timmy. Never look into his eyes. And never ever smile back.

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I hope thay are not going to curse us. I don't want to go crazy.

No, it's not Tim Leary. He's older than Leary or even Alexander the Great. He's not bad or evil, but annoying even death kick him several times.

Tim said he good at chess because he lonely and keep playing it. Thousand times until he master it. He's good with other board games and rubik cube.

I just got his permission to draw him. In fact he want me to. Only I have lots of past projects that I should finished first.
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I hope thay are not going to curse us. I don't want to go crazy.

No, it's not Tim Leary. He's older than Leary or even Alexander the Great. He's not bad or evil, but annoying even death kick him several times.

Tim said he good at chess because he lonely and keep playing it. Thousand times until he master it. He's good with other board games and rubik cube.

I just got his permission to draw him. In fact he want me to. Only I have lots of past projects that I should finished first.
Id love to see the drawing!

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Id love to see the drawing!
Ooo! Ooo! Me, too! Me, too!

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To stray from the subject a little, this really upsets me:

https://fossbytes.com/man-facing-dea...ments-facebook

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Tourists are beating something outside my window and all I can discern from their talk is "****". Could be just them having innocent rude fun and waking people up in 3 AM. Still my paranoia is high right now. Hope they will be gone till daylight, or hope I sleep it through.
Watching second season of Mr Robot is also not helping. But its so ****ing fascinating.

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Thanks for the news. A good leader in my country faces same issue too, even through it is not death penalty. He's actually clean, but his enemy tried to exploit this issue to get rid of him. Because he is the good guy which always intercept those bad guy plans. It makes everyone really mad.

Those rude tourist. They're think they cool but they're soon regret is as they older.

I've finished my past project, tomorrow I'll start on Tim. He's been waiting so long. Sadly, I have little free time now. Maybe I'll finish it around 25th or so. I can't promise.

Anyway, I'm happy. Because I finally able to return to a world in my head. I was too depressed I can't return. The depression is not all gone, but at least I'm able to back again.
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Thanks for the news. A good leader in my country faces same issue too, even through it is not death penalty. He's actually clean, but his enemy tried to exploit this issue to get rid of him. Because he is the good guy which always intercept those bad guy plans. It makes everyone really mad.

Those rude tourist. They're think they cool but they're soon regret is as they older.

I've finished my past project, tomorrow I'll start on Tim. He's been waiting so long. Sadly, I have little free time now. Maybe I'll finish it around 25th or so. I can't promise.

Anyway, I'm happy. Because I finally able to return to a world in my head. I was too depressed I can't return. The depression is not all gone, but at least I'm able to back again.
Sometimes I can not discern if children outside are playing or screaming. Those tourists were probably just messing around, but there was so much threatening tone in their voice. I saw a lady on the street running to avoid them.

Today was much better view from the window. I saw a neighbour giving food to Kathryn Janeway(a local cat).

I was spaced out in my room the entire day, contemplating and stuff. I didnt even eat much. Maybe its the summer getting to me.

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