The Shadow World

In the light of recent events I decided to change the title of Death Magick Thread as the title could be perceived wrongly.
It was a reference to DMT (called the spirit molecule by some) + traumatic experiences.
It continues here.
Depression, paranoia, anxiety, dark spirituality, dark art, dark experiences...

keywords: persecuted art, Behemoth, black metal, witch-hunt, H.R. Giger

https://youtu.be/6eq2wgakP5Y

Ok. I rarely get replies in this thread but this really got me going today. The reason why I changed the thread.

Freedom of speech or bullies? This may sound insane for me to contemplate. My instinct yells at me dont insult anyone (ok maybe if I insult myself as the same idiot) but dont you think people have the right to insult other. Do they?

Compulsion and nasty intention? Everyone lost their temper in life and said/did something stupid. Was this the case with that girl today?

Shifting responsibilities? Is the victim also responsible in this case? He did kill himself. Its tragic. The girl deserves punishment without question. But he did kill himself.

Police state where you can not open your mouth anymore? Is this where this is heading?

Or lunatics talking whatever they want? The opposite side of the story.

I am just speculating here. Honestly I dont have the answer.

That is some serious bizarre crappola , we have juries setting free murderers like the cop today and then we have this sad case of suicide , no the girl was it exactly rocket science brilliant to be challenging this kid to go through with it , but there is a bigger issue here I feel , the boys mother works in psychiatric hospital but never "thought her son had this level of potential" lady you must not do patient care at frighin all , because every person big or small thats miserable has it ,but like a good mother she hid her hesd in the freakin sand well her son killed himself in a parking lot , this family should not be pointing criminal fingers at other teenegers not acting appropriately until you look in the friggin mirror and find out why you as family were so dysfunctional and out of touch with your child that you could take him to psychiatrists and pour anti depressants down his throat , but could not see his completed suicide as a potential and your psychiatrist apparently never mentioned anything about young people and anti depressants making them extremely vulnerable to suicidal impulses. There was a lot of ball dropping in this unfortunate situation and instead of looking at where they all went wrong in keeping this kid safe , they are ducking this issue entirely and pointing fingers of blame at other people when focusing on how you contributed to the death still apparently escapes everybody , it saddens me that the boy lost his life ,but it saddens me more to see a family not learning a damn thing out of it ,I'd also be intretsed to see how many patients of the facility this woman works at have died , could thid be a systemic dysfunction of the mental health in that area , I tend to be the wet diaper sometimes and think too deeply about things , and what i am observing is everyone is putting blame on a young woman and potentially destroying her ( mentaly she could have used some help before , but going forward after this trial and the reprecusions of this verdict have removed the potenial of helping her and have probably condemed her to die by her own hand ) unfortunately I have way to much knowledge rattling around in my head about things , and this situation screams a crime occurred but it doesn't start or stop with a second young life destroyed , everyone is foisting there issues and mental work to come to terms with what happened onto this girl and calling it done , I hate to be the bearer of bad news to all involved , IT'S NOT THAT SIMPLE ! I have inadvertently witnessed a suicide as a child ,also as a child found out that someone I new comit suicide and carried that cross for thirty years before I could resolve it , thinking about the man's children blaming me for there father doing it , this was long before the internet and I really had very little to do with it ,the guy was a class a screwup who couldn't handle losing a court case that he brought agaist my birth parents on behalf of my elementary school that resulted in me being expelled from school on the first day when I got off the bus to 1st grade sent home and spent 5 years tangled up in the court system , my family prevailed and when the verdict came down we all left , he went back to his office and shot himself , I was kid ,didn't really know the guy other then seeing him in court, wasn't there when or where he died had no control of it , yet it tore me up inside with guilt , so i know suicide has ripples that may be felt forever , for me it was 30 years before I could make my peace with it ,sooner or later these people are going to have to deal with this,it's not settled by scapegoating this girl , that's for damn sure .so that's the answer posted on your thread I apologize for being long winded .

I honestly like the previous name. Does the name changes makes the topic changed too?

In my opinion, yes. However, by doing so you're just opening their right to punch you back. Don't blame them because you're doing it first.

And if what you're talking is on the news, could you give the link? I only read my local news.

No its the same thread. Same topics. Just another name.

I also like DMT name but also in the back of my mind I felt it being a bit triggering for this forum.

https://www.yahoo.com/gma/judge-anno...opstories.html

I have read it along with the other articles which include their text.

I agree that what she texted are mean. She should not do that. The girl tried to save him, through at last she pushed him instead. She's guilty.

However, considering the boy have planned to kill himself and even do extensive research for ways to suicide, I disagree that he is a victim. Really sorry if it offensive, for me the girl is just dragged along.

Not mention that I seen the boy parents are not much better. She just looking for somebody to blame. Not sure if they blaming themselves for not noticing their son condition.

This is my post number 666.

My 665 post was about how I see everything composed of bug parts when Im psychotic.

Coincidence?

Its been a while since I was really really deep in psychosis. I dont keep track of such things but my last more serious episode was 2 months ago I think. It would be great also if I was paranoia free.

As a teenager I lived in psychosis. It was normality. And I didnt even seek professional help. I was certain it was all a part of magick and I can control it and crawl out of it.

That was partly true. I did develop a kind of "magick" coping skills to some degree, but also wrecked my life in the process.

What a strange world this is.

...doctors woud probably see this "magick" coping skills as another manifestation of psychosis, since it really is a disconnection from reality. But I dont see it that way. I see it as alternate reality. When it becomes hostile and paralyzes me, then I can with certainty call it psychosis.

Do magick!

My first serious depression was after a breakup. To cope I would go out in a park/cemetary, lie on the grass, look at the stars and listen to this. I never told this to anyone. I was not even seen by strangers. I would sneak out at night when there was no one in the park. This was before my psychotic era.

https://youtu.be/pfqXDpQRMH0

Paranoia is getting a byte of me today. I feel like people are staring at me on the street and giving me mean looks when I interact. Maybe its the lack of sleep, and a stupid nightmare I had.
And my favorite emoticon is missing from the options here.

Yeah, that missing emoticon is annoying.

Lack of sleep and a bad dream can definitely increase symptoms.

A yellow shining ball hovers above the altar.

Blessed Kthulu Litha, chants...

Fishpriest offers a sandworm sacrifice.

And the fingers had grown hands. Grabbing hands grab all they can.

Did you happen to eavesdrop them?

I still working on Tim. He's little annoying. He want me finished but can't stop invite me to play.

Here have his silhouette, since he's not done yet (around 25% done).


I'm sure I'll be able to finish him by the end of the month. Long holiday on my full time job, but still need to work on my freelance.

You are really talented. That siluethe can stand as finished on its own.

Im not sure what to make of all this Kthulu stuff. My magick self tells me Im being contacted by otherwordly beings. My rational self dismisses it. And my schizophrenic self is paranoid beyond words.

But I cannot stop invoking this. Thats what I know for sure...

Thanks, that means a lot for me.

I said to listen to your rational self. My imaginary friend said that Magick is an entertainment. You can love it but not absorb it. It still up to you.

EDIT TO ADD:
Anyone like archaeology or history stuff?

Not sure if this one real or just some kind of conspiracy, but I'm quite excited! Not because alien (through I believe they're exist), but I just like new historical discovery.

http://www.express.co.uk/news/weird/...u-UFO-Gaia-com

Here he is, I'm too ashamed to show him here, so have a Link
I know you may have trouble seeing him, so here the lighter version.

I have to remove the silhouette picture, since imgur decide to ignore the privacy setting.

I think his cool. Like some kind of ghost hunter.

Oh no, I woke up again. Into a world of politics, capitalism, news media...

The nightmare I had was so much better. I think I will just crawl under the pillow for today.

This is a dreadful hour.