Back five years ago there came a turning point in my life. Many things happened at once and a heathy person would struggle. My grandfather passed away, i left fiance, had to quit a good ish job and with all the stress and pressure i had been taking a lower dose of my medication to reduce the drowsiness so i could figure out what to do.
I moved in with my Gran whose health had been failing for a long time as my parents had no room. I was all set to move away and start afresh. So finding i had no friends left, didnt hit me as hard so my social life was all online. I spoke to men and women on dating sites. And i joined the gym.
I began to notice that doing mundane things time seemed to slow down or i was performing slow. I was acutely aware of every miniture detail wether it was which way to twist a lid on a hot water bottle. Lefty loosy right tight.
I knew i had a condition, a chemical imbalance but on top of that i was know feeling the brunt of clinical depression. In hospital i slept a heck of a lot...

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you had such a tough time. Are you still struggling?

Im in better shape and have reconnected with some old pals and made some new.
I was just remembering how much trouble i was in when i went on a dating site. I was so pre occupied with getting ahead in my career i forgot what was important. My life was turned upside down.

[Fuzzybear]

[ajengdiyannovita]

Big hug ❤❤❤

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by SapphireRed

I began to notice that doing mundane things time seemed to slow down or i was performing slow.

This is also a persistent aspect of my experience of depression.

[Tyrant616]

Sorry to hear you're going through such a rough time. Have you seen someone professionally? Like a therapist?

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Rohag

This is also a persistent aspect of my experience of depression.

Originally Posted by Tyrant616

Sorry to hear you're going through such a rough time. Have you seen someone professionally? Like a therapist?

I am fine now I can safely say. I saw a counsellor for a while and it was worthwhile and at right time. I have access to health team like a nurse and a psyche. I was doing psychotherapy a few years back but I was hesitant in a file on me being kept for many others to access plus one left and replaced another and I didn't want to be left "High and dry"
I think I would benefit from group therapy but the closest one is miles away in another city. So looks unlikely.
I have spoke about the most significant things in my life on here and I am happy to try and internalise for a while so I can move on with life. Just check my threads
Can't be the walking wounded forever eh, I am still healing by all means but I can only do so by keeping busy and distracting myself, and start to live again.
I understand what it is liked to be couped up in the house, not knowing how you will feel from one day to the next. I seem to have surpassed that now. I am quietly confident