[will19]

Originally Posted by LifelongLoner

Did I get a flu shot? Yes. Did I still get the flu? Yes. That's 2 years in a row now. They say that is in such cases, you will not get it as bad and that appears to be true as it seems to be mostly over by the third day. But the 2 days that I had it were awful. And I seem to have pulled a chest (diaphragm) muscle from all the coughing and hiccups. My stomach is still not settled but at least I can taste food again and have resumed eating. Should I go to work tomorrow or should I take a sick day to make sure I get over it?

Sorry to hear about all of this. I would definitely take a sick day if I were you. I prefer someone to be sick to stay home rather than being at work with me.

[LifelongLoner]

Originally Posted by will19

Sorry to hear about all of this. I would definitely take a sick day if I were you. I prefer someone to be sick to stay home rather than being at work with me.

Thanks. I called in sick. I do not want a relapse and do not want to spread it to my co-workers. (Though, I think I got it from the guy in the next cubicle.)

The only place I could safely complain. What an end to this year. Cracked a tooth, son caused an extreme ruckus, things are just beyond my understanding right now, how someone is expected to go through these things. I know others suffer too, but that doesn't make me feel better at all.

Happy New year, I hope someone gets a good one out there.

I don't know if I've ever had such a down ending to a year. I feel I need to vent, even more. I have health concerns. The doctor called today and confirmed some things but I'm not sure about others. I'm actually a bit hopeful for an ending to my health, my life, a diagnosis of something terminal. I don't think God will let me off that easy. It sure would solve this, I no longer think I fear death. I am almost welcoming it, except I'd be concerned for my younger. I don't know how to help him anymore. Thanks to anyone who reads and cares. All of us humans suffer in some way or another, I may be feeling lots of pity for myself which is wrong, but I'm so tired of trying and ending up in the same place. Everyone seems out for themselves only. I know it's not true though.

[will19]

Went to work today. I wished that I had taken the day off. The day went alright, but not many people there. A couple of things at the end of the day didn't make it happy for me. A copier at work needed ink and I didn't have it on hand. So the copier may not work for a while. People are going to be upset. It's my responsibility to have the ink on hand. And I forgot to call a carrier to tell him that there were no packages to go out. I was upset with myself when I forgot to call him.

I worked out after work. It's a cold, windy, and rainy night tonight. I hope it rains hard around midnight tonight so that there wouldn't be any noise.

[T4bbyCat]

It's a bit frosty here, strangely enough for this land of dreary gray, rain and fog. Nonetheless, I wish a happy New Year to all seeking solutions and answers. I need something at this point to keep me going, and I'm reasonably certain many others are in this boat.

[will19]

A cold and windy day here, but it's sunny and not a cloud in the sky. It's going to be very cold tonight. Did the laundry this morning. It was very nice that no one else was in the laundry room. After I finished doing the laundry, I called my friend and there was no answer. I find that strange. He called me about an hour ago. I told him that I would call him after folding the laundry and we'd get together. He never mentioned going anywhere this morning. I hope he's alright. He's very old. Sometimes he doesn't hear the phone. It would be nice to have him visit me, but that seems to be out of the question. I'm not crazy about going to visit his place. At least he's not alone.

[will19]

Yesterday, it turned out that my friend had just did some small shopping. He didn't tell me that he was going out. At noon yesterday I went to see him. We had lunch, it was my birthday. He and his wife went to the store earlier to give me a small gift and a cake. That was nice of them.

I didn't sleep well last night. My neighbors were making a lot of noise when I wanted to sleep. I woke up this morning not feeling like going to work. But I did. It was busy today. I'm feeling like my anxiety and depression that I had struggled with has come back. I guess I always feel that way about a week or so after New Years Day.

I'm feeling sad

today my chest of drawers got crushed- because they are broken, so it's like the natural thing to happen, but bleh....

I can't stand losing things or getting rid of things

I'm the type of person who would keep out of date crisps in the house just because the packaet is still full

I don't know... I'll be fine, just sad

I think today I'll concoct a scheme to mentally destroy someone, just for the heck of it. I'll solicit his friends, colleagues, family, strangers, everyone I can persuade with my CHARM and fantastic CHARISMA to join me. I will prove how great a human being I am by destroying someone else. I will prove how powerful I am, and everyone will worship me and bow down to me. These are the words of a coward and sick individual.

I am mortified thanks to all the willing participants. Don't ask me how I'm doing.

[will19]

I worked out yesterday and it went well. Just before the workout, I was feeling depressed and thinking, "why should I workout? What good will it do me?". But I did the workout and was glad that I did.

I went to the pool area last night and it was awful. There was a girl around 18 with her phone and on Skype (I guess). The talking and the noise was very annoying. Also I can see that guy she was talking to on the screen and he looked like a thug. I think that he even asked her who I was. I think that he could see me entering in the hot tub. It seems like the more the days go by, the more jerks I meet at where I live.

I called my friend at a time when he would call me. He didn't call because he was tired. I cut the phone call short because he sounded out of it. So I went to bed upset.

Today started off weird. At work my on-line account got disconnected. I found out it was because of a miscommunication between my contracting company and the main company. So that made me feel like I'm on a roll with one bad thing happening after another. Later in the afternoon it got resolved and it was a nice feeling for me. Today at work, it ended up being nice.

[TerryL]

my new co-worker asked about my background today. she is so nice i felt comfortable in telling her that i had been depressed for 18 yrs but have finally found peace and happiness. she was flabbergasted. she probably has never been depressed. i am kind of embarrassed i told her what i told her because now she will always see me in that framework but it was the truth.

Another messed up day. Never had sleep problems until people CHOSE to screw me. You can either choose to be nice or choose to screw someone else. Guess they had nothing better to do. Now I have LESS, much LESS, than I did before. The villains have MORE because they TOOK what I had on top of their already full basket.

I am trying to hold it together.

someone who I've known for... maybe 6 months now has suddenly decided she wants something diffrent in her life.

this means I don't get to see her and we were really close

I found out this morning and was devistated (I even cried)

[Deilla]

After 8 or 9 months of anxiety over getting out to get a hair cut, I finally get one today. But I'm so upset. It's not what I had hoped for. I keep going over and over what did I say wrong to the stylist. Why didn't she cut the sides? Why is it still so long? I'm crying over a hair cut. It meant a lot to me cause it was such a mess. At least it's a little bit better.

Originally Posted by Deilla

After 8 or 9 months of anxiety over getting out to get a hair cut, I finally get one today. But I'm so upset. It's not what I had hoped for. I keep going over and over what did I say wrong to the stylist. Why didn't she cut the sides? Why is it still so long? I'm crying over a hair cut. It meant a lot to me cause it was such a mess. At least it's a little bit better.

I want to reply to this because what a coincidence to me. I was supposed to get my hair cut and bailed out for the second time. I have a really hard time letting someone do my hair since the last one fried, yes FRIED it with highlights. I'm a stylist myself, but cant do my own long hair without difficulty. I understand. I've shed a tear or two, it's part of being a woman and our hair is kind of important to some of us. My suggestion, if you'd like, be very very clear with the stylist, although that doesn't always work. Pictures, point to where you want it cut, show by picking up your hair how much length you want cut off to them... but even then that last one really messed mine up.

I'm down and up part of the days. Feeling down tonight. Still not sleeping and wondering if cutting down my anxiety pills and depression pills is really worth this battle with little sleep.

[Deilla]

Feeling better this morning. I'm up early doing things around the house and playing my online game. I have a few more chores I want to work on and then I think I will relax for the rest of the day. I may try to cook. I'm really not sure.

got most things done I was going to do (with the acception of the reading and the creative writing)

feel okay.. just voices are a bit strong today and it isn't really helping me

[will19]

Pretty busy in the morning. It seems like I'm getting faster with my housecleaning. This may be a very long afternoon and evening. It's raining outside and I don't know what to do with myself. I normally would take a bike ride pretty soon. Not today.

Also my email is down. They have me to enter in a numeric code and I have to go to another email to do that. It's at work and I'm not there today and tomorrow. So I guess I'll have to wait until Monday to get my personal emails. May not be much of a big deal since I don't get much in my email anyway.

[88Butterfly88]

Felt numb today