[mulan]

I am not saying this is the truth, but from time to time I have this hurting deep feeling I have been abandoned.
One time I came with the theory I felt abandoned by my mother, that I felt my mother abandoned me and that was the root for or my problems, and also that I was abandoned twice when I moved at the age of three and had to leave my nany that was just very caring (emotionally).
I told that once to my sister, she told me to shut up, that this theory was just stupid and it was just me trying to make sense of my present making up things of my past.
But from time to time this feeling comes to me and it just feels right. Besides my nany I am never had a caring comforting figure in my life.

[Skeezyks]

My personal experience has been that trying to make sense of the past is a near impossible task, at least for me. Of course, in my case, I'm old & the past is fading farther-&-farther into the rear-view mirror, so to speak. I think about it pretty regularly though. But every time I begin to think, perhaps, I have begun to develop some understanding of it, something else occurs to me that causes me to decide what I had concluded was simply a chimera. Then I'm right back where I started from.

[Fuzzybear]

((((((( hugs )))))))