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#101
will19, sorry you feel like there is nothing to look forward to. I have that feeling at times. I hope it passes for you like it does for me.
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#102
Possible trigger:
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#103
I call it lost days, a lost weekend, but also, it was the time that depression found and claimed me. A "found time" seems strange when it feels so bad.
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Grand Poohbah
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#104
On the verge of tears a lot lately, for no apparent reason. May have to reconsider the benefits vs. side-effects of medications.
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#105
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#106
Did not want to get out of bed this weekend. Spent at least 4 hours both afternoons this weekend, just laying in bed. Not sleeping, just not wanting to be anywhere, do anything, just wanting to zone out and not feel this crushing sadness all the time. Talked myself into going to work today. Really want to be at home in bed.
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#107
Struggling this Monday at work. Someone asked me how I feel. I can't answer that question because there is no answer...no words fit what I an struggling with. I said "OK".
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#108
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#109
mostly an okay day (well, nothing really situational to make depression worse)
struggled with shopping this morning, and also a bit of what I like to call food depression (over a bottle of jamaican sauce), just, don't ask... thought the day was okay but when it came time for my mood diary, I found myself writing down all negative stuff- and scoring my mood a 2/10 so it just goes to show |
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#110
I told T that I was dead inside. Nothing makes me feel differently. I asked him why I should keep fighting.
__________________ Once you are real, you can't become unreal again. It lasts for always.... |
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Legendary
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#111
I'm tired.
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#112
I keep noticing Freudian slips in everything that I say. Now that I look back at the past, I can see that there are certain reasons why people might think certain things and why things turned out the way they did when I didn't intentionally say or do something that was in a way "the wrong way" to get something done... D*** myself.
I say a lot of things that might be uncouth, but way back when, I was a mess. (Still am) |
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Grand Magnate
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#113
Was a fairly busy day today at work. For some reason I have been feeling the blues all day. I didn't work on contacting that person at the HOA about my check today because I was very busy at work. Also I had some hassles in returning the wrong item I got. I finally have the solution to where I can go to return it. I plan on doing that tomorrow.
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#114
I feel sick. Mildly nauseated. My left foot hurts whenever I get on it. I wish my life was a job. I'ld like to call in sick.
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Grand Poohbah
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#115
Thank you...I have been on a handful (or more) of different medications (one at a time), and each had their benefits, but each also came with a package of side-effects that were not very tolerable. I find the anxiety that emerges from most anti-depressants, for me, to be one of the worst side-effects. So, I'm still in the "reconsideration" phase...Thanks for your kind words.
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#116
Moderately depressed today. Had a good meeting with my care manager so things are looking up so I'm trying to stay hopeful.
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#117
Another day in these ceaseless ramblings of all days. Nothing great. Nothing good. Nothing even to make me smile. Why has this gotten to a point where it I just am instead of striving to be something? I should have dreams, and none appear.
I had a birthday not too long ago and am now 26. I really don't think I'm evolving as a human either. Things are just getting to the point now where if I'm not changing, I don't think I'm ever going to have a better life. And that is what I want the most. No one is inviting me in, and I'm not inviting anybody in, and it has been that way all my life. |
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#118
Fairly busy day today at work. I emailed that woman at HOA letting her know that I have not received the check yet for the reimbursement. I have not heard anything back yet. I sent the email early in the morning. I'll have to call tomorrow. God, I hate having to do that! They are just like politicians. Making promises and not delivering.
I worked out today since I got my weight-lifting waistband. It seemed like my performance went better this time. Went to the pool area tonight. Much to my surprise no one was there until the last five minutes being there. There was a couple that I wasn't too crazy about. Well, at least they came in when I was about to leave. |
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Grand Poohbah
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#119
It all feels so pointless, and I feel like such an abject failure. While I know both to be untrue, intellectually, emotionally this is the pits.
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#120
Feeling awful.
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