Looking for accountability partners to motivate to get things done while depressed #3

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Thanks. A little better.

I have the new cat litter box set up now. I have to get rid of the one he quit using. I opened all my packages. I'm just tearing down boxes now. Today I will do laundry and take out the trash.

Yay!!! Congratulations on your accomplishments.

Plans for Saturday:

1. Take brother to library.
2. Workout.
3. Xmas shop with daughter.
4. Bake cookies with daughter.
5. Movie with daughter.

Warm wishes to all.

No specific plans other then to take it easy. My own decision to be kind to myself and tell myself that it is OK to rest, that is no catastrophe that my home doesn't look like Christmas (I am not going to be home), seems to be helpful.

No pressure to do this or that, makes it more easy for me to feel that this shall pass too; to relate to this condition as if it was a flu or someting like that. Today there is one more second with daylight then yesterday. At New Year Eve there will be about 1 1/2 minutes more daylight. One month later we will have five minutes more daylight (in my area) and two months after New Year Eve the day will be long enough to perhaps feel well again (I mean "normal" chronic depression without the extra backpack of heavy darkness).

I work so hard through the year to do as much as possible living with depression. I even tried to make it after I had the winter-depression on top of the usual depression this year, but had to submit to the circumstances. I refuse to have bad conscience!

Kindness to everyone (remember to be kind to yourself and not do more than you are able to do)!

I did laundry and emptied the trash. I'm going to relax now and do some art work. Tomorrow I will set up my cat's feeders. I've been meaning to do that for a while.

sunday:

hygiene (yes.)

bacon for breakfast (yes).

open door 23 on advent calendar (yes.)

send email to someone who I don't want in my life anymore. (no.)

music (no.)

watch part 1 of watership down (yes.)

reading (no.)

creative writing (no.)

put biscuits in my biscuit tin (no.)

cook roast (no.)

drink something other than fizzy (just fizzy so far.)

I set up both feeders and ordered groceries. I slept a lot too. Tomorrow I plan to take out the trash.

monday:

- open door number 24 on my advent calendar (yes)

- hygiene (yes.)

- bacon for breakfast (yes.)

- music (yes.)

- watch ppart 2 of watership down (can't be bothered.)

- check emails (no.)

- send email I was actually meant to send yesterday (mno.)

- watch something else (which is not watership down)- no

- christmas eve party food (no.)

I took out the trash then slept most of the day. Tomorrow I will sleep all day.

Tomorrow's agenda:

Open presents
Spend time with family
Talk to my friend
Prepare to send mail

This morning I am feeling better. I hope to have a good day. I plan to do:

1. Play online games
2. Paint rocks
3. Play with my cat
4. Read in bed
5. Eat a meat pie

Hope everyone is doing well and has a good holiday.

christmas day:

hygiene (yes.)
breakfast (yes.)

try to be greatful for what I got for christmas, even if it wasn't what I wanted (working on it but it's really hard).

wear new beyonce perfume (not yet, but going to)

check emails (no.)

ttrivia (no.)

tv (no.)

music (yes)

christmas dinner (later)

midnight feast (not sure if I can be bothered yet, we'll see)

I had a good day. I mainly played games and napped. Today I have phone calls to make.

wednesday:

hygiene (yes)

wear mnew beyonce perfume (yes, though it smells of nothing)

breakfast (yes.)

check emails (no.)

trivia (no.)

watch mrs brown's christmas special ( maybe later, I don't know.)

watch part 2 of watership down (I still can't be bothered)

music (no.)

take down christmas decorations (not motivated to do that.)

finish off left over turkey (will do for dinner).

Plans for Thursday:

- Up 8:00
- Breakfast from 8:30 - 9:30
- Hygiene
- Put cloths in the washing machine
- Walk outside for at least 1/2 hour.
- Grocery
- Lunch
- Rest
- Write plan for the rest of the day.

Good and warm wishes to each one of you!

Hoping to get to Costco and back with husband without getting killed.

I got my phone calls out of the way. I haven't felt well. Been sleeping mostly. Tomorrow I will start my car and let it run a while.