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Post Jan 01, 2019 at 01:20 PM
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I was trying to work, but I go there and mostly stare. I read and nothing. I write and what I write is a mess.
Then I leave it and go do something else, and its like everything is ok. I can't worrie about it.
This is not normal.
People talk to me in person and nothing in my brain tells me to react.

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I am better, feelings came back a little. Being so empty is scary, when literaly don't know who you are and how to react. You are just trying to have some human interation but everything sounds absurd. And you cry and yell and laugh in a matter of instances, and you feel like you are going insane and there is anything you can:t hold to. It's pretty scary.
And you cry and say personal things around people you don't want to say those things to, but you just don't know.
And my brain don't think, it's stucked, it's completly caugh in the moment. And you try to use thoughts and you try to feel and all you get is and headache.
I don't want to be in this place. Total dissociation, lack of focus and concentration. It is so terrible. It is like being blind and with my ears muffed, lost inside a room.
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I already felt like this in the New year eve, but today was worst.
This is my self telling me not to be anyone. It's biological insane how this can happen.

I took two lorazepans am tomorrow I start with escitalopram. One new to the count.
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Hope you are feeling ok today .
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Idk if many here feel “ok”

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Idk if many here feel “ok”
We have lower standards than the general population. Ok implies not horrible and more capable to face the daily motions.

I do feel better than yesterday. Thanks.
Today is just perpetual emptyness and anxiety. Even amazed myself at how clearly I could see some past memories (two months ago). See them clearly today than at the moment. The prove that benzos really healp to reduce the fog (don't worry, its still around, I haven not loose it).
I think I might have loose a jacket, and that is my bad focus working. I am always loosing stuff, big stuff some times. It's annoying.

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It can do...

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I know, should be different.
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