[will19]

I've been feeling alright for most of the day today, so I guess that's good. Early this morning I felt kind of weird. As I got into my car to go to work, I bumped into that man who lives below me as he was walking his dog. He's that same guy who told me a few weeks ago (right around the same time and same spot) to stop working out because it was bothering him. At that time he seemed upset and was about to cry. This morning he was the nicest to me in a long time. That's good except that I feel like he's very nice to me because he got his way. It's been a sacrifice for me to stop working out.

The pool area is now working, so that makes me feel better. I think that the word hasn't gotten out about it working; which is probably why people haven't been coming. That's great, but it's sad to feel happy that people don't come in simply because I haven't met anyone nice.

On Sunday I plan to look at an opening for an apartment. It doesn't sound like what I had really hoped for, but maybe it might do me some good to practice looking for a place.

[Rose76]

I'm not depressed. That's good. I am having trouble keeping up with things. My bf has been sicker. My left heel is hard to walk on at times.

[Deilla]

I might have to surrender my cat. He's been aggressive for a few months now. Just recently attacked me for no reason. I wasn't even petting him. It's a hard decision but I've been to the vet twice and I've tried to work with him. I don't know why he has a mean streak. I feel like I must have been a bad cat mom or something. I tried my best.

[will19]

Typical Saturday for me. Busy early in the day and not much after that. Another dull Saturday. I feel anticipation that there's going to be some excitement today, but it never happens. Nothing much for tonight, except to watch a movie that I hope I will like.

I am ashamed to be alive

litirally doing nothing with my day- I don't really deserve it

The past few weeks have been really hard.

[will19]

Woke up feeling dreadful like I always do on Sunday mornings. I don't know why it's like that. And I felt tired getting up. We had the time change last night. I have always hated that time to set the clocks ahead one hour.

Later in the morning I went to look at a place. It was nice, clean, and had been newly remodeled. Though I thought that the designs were kind of homely. Yet it makes, in comparison, my place put to shame. I felt like I wasn't connecting well with the RE Agent, who was renting the place out. Plus the agent didn't know where the rec/exercise room was at the apartment complex. That's weird. The complex is small. So I think that it's not a possibility for me to move there, it looks like. I felt down and defeated, but I'll try to lift my chin up for future possibilities. Also, he's not the same agent that I'm dealing with in potentially selling my place.

[Rose76]

The oncologist said my bf could live another year and a half. I don't believe that. He hardly has the strength to hold his mug of coffee in the morning. I've lately been giving him a spoon to eat with, as he's having trouble using a fork. The cancer treatment is starting to make him sick. I'm losing interest in my life.

[will19]

Originally Posted by will19

Woke up feeling dreadful like I always do on Sunday mornings. I don't know why it's like that. And I felt tired getting up. We had the time change last night. I have always hated that time to set the clocks ahead one hour.

Later in the morning I went to look at a place. It was nice, clean, and had been newly remodeled. Though I thought that the designs were kind of homely. Yet it makes, in comparison, my place put to shame. I felt like I wasn't connecting well with the RE Agent, who was renting the place out. Plus the agent didn't know where the rec/exercise room was at the apartment complex. That's weird. The complex is small. So I think that it's not a possibility for me to move there, it looks like. I felt down and defeated, but I'll try to lift my chin up for future possibilities. Also, he's not the same agent that I'm dealing with in potentially selling my place.

I got a message from the agent saying that I didn't appear interested in that place. It seemed like that time being there appeared to be weird. I was told that I needed to sell my place first before going out to rent. Well, where am I going to stay if I have to leave my place when it's sold? Anyways, I'm brand new at this game. Perhaps I have stuff to learn on this. There's a woman at my job who was a Realtor. I could talk to her about this. She is trying to help me though this process. I'm feeling very down to have gotten a rejection. But I wasn't too crazy about that place anyways.

[zapatoes]

Sunday is a difficult day always, something about Monday lurking around the corner and sometimes dread the new week. Losing 1 hour does not help, it’s not a big deal, but it is somehow. Another ok weekend, not super motivated, but getting some things done anyway. Can be so productive when properly motivated. This weekend managed to accomplish the necessities with grocery shopping, run errands, laundry, walk the dog, and ate lunch out, watched my favorite shows.

[Deilla]

Feeling Okay this morning. Hopeful, rested and content. I'm being patient with my cat and hoping for the best. I'm mindful of his triggers and careful about what I do.

[Rose76]

I got very down today. So I did next to nothing all day.

Tomorrow, if I make myself do things, I will start to feel better. I must make myself.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I got very down today. So I did next to nothing all day.

Tomorrow, if I make myself do things, I will start to feel better. I must make myself.

I may have already mentioned this but I’m the same way. If I don’t achieve things I get depressed and vice versa. Good luck getting things done.

[PsychNitrous]

I hate myself today. I need to seek help for my problems, but I'm not. It's only 3pm here, and I'm drunk already. I feel like a waste, I wish I could just give up on everything.

[will19]

Practically everybody at work today were complaining about feeling tired because of the time change. I felt the same way. I got up for work this morning and it was very dark outside. I really hated it.

It was an OK day at work. Nothing much to report about. Felt disappointed when I got home because I wanted to go for a bike ride and can't because of rain.

[PsychNitrous]

I wish I was unsafe.

[Sunflower123]

Upset and sad today. I had a friend die unexpectedly from unknown causes March 10. Shocked and speechless.

[Deilla]

Feeling sad today. I hope it gets better after a nap. I'm still bothered by what's going on with my cat. And I felt like my mom wasn't supportive today. She really didn't need to say what she said. Something told me not to call her today.

[PsychNitrous]

I feel like my depression keeps getting worse, and I'm not sure why. I'm having some passive suicidal thoughts. I really don't know what to do about it, maybe I should call my therapist? But what can she do? I just want to go home and hide out.

[will19]

This morning, before work, I went to the dermatologist for a check up. It turns out that I have a "suspect" for a Basel cell skin cancer (it's not serious). I just had surgery and now I may have another one. That got me down today.

Fairly good day at work today, at least emotionally. Did the laundry after work and got a take out for dinner that was not spectacular and kind of costly. But at least it was healthy compared to fast food. Went to the pool area tonight and it was nice. Still cold outside but it's supposed to warm up by the weekend.