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#401
I feel so ashamed of myself these past few days. It's all too much for me. I'll say it: I am lonely. But I also am off balance and don't know how to be appropriate. I feel like everything I do is off balance, strange, disconnected from people. I feel like I was raised on another planet. And I feel like a robot because I think people think I'm boring, but they don't know me.
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#402
could be loads better
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#403
Today was the usual for me. One nice thing that happened this afternoon was that a woman neighbor of mine told me that she wanted to call me and apologize for not spending more time to talk to me the other day when I told her that I was leaving the complex. I have known her for 18 years. I knew her since she moved in at that time and I had been at my complex for 19 years. I was interested in her but she didn't feel the same about me. We had a nice little talk anyways.
Nothing much for the rest of the day. I got a movie for tonight. I could have gone out tonight to a show but I declined it. I would have had to pick up my friend and take him to the show. He lives further away in the direction of where the show would be. I don't feel like doing a lot of driving tonight. Besides, I think that I would not have liked that show anyways. It wasn't something I would have wanted to see. |
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#404
It's been a busy weekend. Last night I watched a movie that was not good. On top of that, there was a lot of noise around me.
Today I've been busy with doing the laundry and making a batch of spaghetti sauce that should last me a whole month. After lunch I answered questions on the paperwork package I received from the Escrow company. I had to be careful at answering some questions and some went unanswered because I have to make a couple of phone calls tomorrow to get the answers. It was very draining. This morning I received a message from a woman in Eastern Canada. She saw a comment that I had posted on another site from here. At first I didn't like what she said. She said that I am living in the wrong part of the world. |
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#405
Feeling sad. I'm disappointed. My expectations were set too high. They're always set too high. I'm always disappointed. I should expect very little from people. I'm not coming out of my shell. Every time I try, I get bit.
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#407
Today is a much better day. Yesterday was tough and I tend to resist fiercely which compounds the suffering. I got a good night’s sleep and feel better now. Sitting in the sun with my dog enjoying the day.
Warm wishes and hugs to all. |
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#408
feeling ******.
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#409
I'm doing pretty good. I feel hopeful.
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#412
Another very slow day at work today. Also it seems like the attitudes are not very positive. It's almost like becoming an unhappy place to work. But I don't want to quit it. Maybe it will get better.
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#415
A pretty eventful day today, even though it was slow at work. My manager came from out of state. She and I had lunch along with the Maintenance man. The lunch was pretty nice but the time together was kind of awkward. Though I did like the manager a lot. I had never seen her. Just emailed and talked, that's it. After work I went to the Escrow office to go over the paperwork that was handed to me. I did OK in answering questions (which were a lot) and signatures.
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#416
Not proud of myself lately.
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#417
Another slow day at work. It's getting to the point that I can't stand it anymore. I hope it gets better. I would hate to quit now.
Went to the dentist early this morning for cleaning. I was told that it all looks great. I told them about my move and they said that it's a wonderful place where I will be moving to. I sure hope so. Tomorrow night I will make an attempt to go to the pool area. I have not been going lately because of having skin surgery, in which I was instructed to not go for ten days. Well, that time is up! |
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#419
Another slow day at work, but that was to be expected. I did not feel so well emotionally there today. I feel like I have lost the love for the job. Still I would hate to quit. Went to the pool area tonight for the first time in ten days. It was nice.
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#420
Not much of a weekend socially. But, that's the way it always is anyways. Very busy yesterday with the domestic stuff. Last night I went to the pool area and met up with a woman and her family (I guess). It was too crowded and intimidating at first, but I did brave myself to go in. Good thing I did because that woman has sold her unit. She lived at the complex for 37 years (just shy of twice the time I have!). I had a pretty good time with her and her group; they were all nice. I was glad it was her because I wanted to talk to her anyways.
After that I watched movie called "Please Stand By" starring Dakota Fanning. It was a good movie. Parts of it were painful for me to watch because she had autism and I have had that in my past. There are times when I feel like my autism from the past may come back again. Nothing much today, so far. Took it easy and did little odds-and-ends stuff. It's Easter, but I never liked going to church at that time because of the crowds. I don't like crowds that much. Feeling down about going back to work tomorrow. As I've stated before, there are some emotional challenges there lately. Also I feel anxious about the move and the transaction that will happen three weeks from now. |
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