[Yzen]

I'm ok today, but I feel invisible. I guess that isn't the worst feeling.

[will19]

It has been a while since I've posted on here. I have been very busy. At work, it's picking up. It's getting busier at work lately and it's a nice thing for me. Also there's been a lot going on in the home front.

I have sold my place and will be moving in 13 days from now. At the same time, my sister sold her house. She and live at the opposite coasts. I'm getting excited about the move.

[Sam Vimes]

Doing a bit better than a few weeks ago when I first signed up here. My church is helping me to find a therapist at a local clinic, and I have done intake and go in for an assessment next week. I have admitted to everyone that I think I am going through depression, and people have been kind and sympathetic about it. I also have been to two NAMI meetings now.

My boss came down on me hard this week, so I am not sure if I am about to lose my job or not, but at least the pressure is easing on me.

I have a long way to go, but I think I have seen the bottom of my depression. Let's hope.

[will19]

Things are picking up at work now. Perhaps this is a season for making a lot of orders, so that keeps me busy and off thinking about myself.

It slowed down this afternoon, but it was a good time to catch up on things. For an hour I did some "telemarketing" - making calls for utility, phone, internet, and waste management to set a date to disconnect where I am now and get new service to where I'm going. It was very draining but at least the customer services were nice.

Went bike riding after work and went to the pool area after dinner. For the first time in a while there were not anybody there, which was nice.

[WishfulThinker66]

Feeling emotionally challenged. A lot of "Should" thinking is entering my head and voice. I feel like I have been letting everyone down because I should have done, this I should have done that, I could have said this and so on. I feel overwhelmed particularly with thoughts I am worthless. I am not being very compassionate and gentle to myself. I know I don't have to do it all and be it all but I feel I should and consequently feel like I may not passing muster and am failing a lot.

I am also dreading things to come - even those that ought to be providing me some joyful anticipation. An upcoming camping road trip which I've mentioned before is causing distress and sadness. I fear it being a disasterous let down. A concert is coming up and I feel no sense of anything about it. I should be looking forward to that too but I sense no excitement or joy. Additional events I would normally look forward to for the spring and summer are now being publicised. No excitement has been generated. As I sign up for these things or tell my boyfriend they would be nice I guess to go to I am feeling instead that I am just going through the motions and saying what I ought to say.

This sadness is taking a grip. I fear this a great deal. I don't want to spend another summer watching it unfold through a psych ward window.

[will19]

This is my favorite day of the week, or favorite period - Saturday morning. I woke up feeling a bit depressed and anxious. It's all about, mostly, the move coming up.

Last night I got woken up around 11:15 with the couple downstairs yelling at each other. It doesn't happen very often. With the way things are going at my place now, I'm not going to miss it, but it's too bad that I'm leaving because I don't like it here.

My friend called me last night saying that he will come to visit me today. Last week I had invited him over and he just didn't come. I told him that he should come very soon because it will be the last time he will be at my place. He's all against the move, so I hope that we won't argue about it.

I don't have a single plan this weekend.

how depressing is that.. everyone else I know does, but not me

feeling okay mood wise just in a lot of physical pain and urg it hurts

[will19]

My friend did come over this morning, no problem. So many times I felt like I had to "pull teeth" to get him to come over. I didn't say a word about moving. It's still a bit of a ways away.

It's been a nice morning with doing the housework, having him at my place, going to the bank, and shopping. Now I feel a sense of a let-down. I'm feeling kind of sad about leaving my place, even though I can't stand it at times and there had been nothing valuable about where I am. Also I'm having anxiety about moving into the new place. And lately, there had been some financial surprises like more money for me to pay out than I expected.

[Rose76]

Woken up for the second time tonight by my bf. It's getting to be too much.

[will19]

This had been a pretty eventful weekend for me. Today my sister called but nothing too new since selling her house. I did a little shopping this morning. I was disappointed that I couldn't go to the hair salon this morning. I didn't make an appointment and they had no openings.

I took a three hour bike ride this afternoon. I called for my old college friend after the ride but didn't get through. I wanted to wish him a happy birthday.

Next week I will be off from work and be working on moving. So there's been some excitement lately.

[Rose76]

I'm doing pretty good this morning.

[Sunflower123]

Taking mom to the doctor today to get her cast off. I really hope her foot has healed. I don’t know where we go after this if it’s not. This whole situation starting NYE has been most stressful from the fall to her foot that is not healing. I think the thing that alarms me most is her decline since she’s been recuperating. Not good.

It’s a sunny, breezy day here so I’ll probably spend some time outside. Doing good. My thought processes are continuing to improve which is great. I see my therapist again Thursday.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

[88Butterfly88]

Moderately depressed today.

[will19]

Today was a pretty good day at work. Was busy again, so that made it nice. After work, things went downhill. I didn't go on a bike ride because it rained. And then went to the pool area. I had it to myself for just a minute and then a bunch of young girls came in to ruin it for me. Well, at least I'm seeing what I'm leaving behind very soon.

[Rose76]

I feel sore today. I'll vegetate, if I don't push myself. Mornings are the worst time for me.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by mountainstream

Very sad and tired.

I feel like this all the time!

[Buffy01]

I feel really down..

[Yzen]

Sad. Feeling disconnected.

[Rose76]

I feel sick.