I don't know how I feel, not great, not real horrible. I'm glad its summer even though the humidity has been high. I've been watching youtube videos on stoicism, or whatever I can find to help.

[will19]

Feeling anxious and down today. Last night my friend and I talked and he got into some psychoanalysis or making personal suggestions for me that I didn't appreciate. I told him that I would rather not hear it. Yet when I get critical with him (which is not very often but he needs to hear it a lot), he gets very mad. He also got very mad when I told him I would rather not get those personal suggestions.

Very slow at work today. I went bike riding after work. My sister called me and said that there is a slight delay in being able to pay back the loan to me. I got very down about it.

[3rd rock]

I've been unable to get much work done over the past few days.

[OliverB]

I don't know where I am going to be next week. I have to move but I have no place to go.

I was supposed to move with two friends but now one of them is telling me she probably is not coming. I can't pay the rent if we are only two

Social workers won't help...

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I was supposed to get rental assistance, but since my landlord had something ilegal about the flat I didn't know, I couldn't get the money from the rental assistance....

I'm feeling sad, listening to music that makes me remember things, lost time, things I wish were different. I can't sleep.. I wish I could fix life for my son. I feel like getting this old and time is running out to make a difference in anything..... just destined to live and reap what I sowed.

[3rd rock]

I was supposed to make an appointment to see my GP this week, but I've let it go too late. I can still schedule an appointment, of course, but it's too late to get in to see her this week as it's now Thursday and she doesn't work Fridays anymore.

[Randle McMurphy]

I've been feeling ignored by a person I care about ,and this is getting me depressed. also, been a bit depressed about how certain things in my life don't ever seem to improve this reality check got me down.
i've been mostly ok this year but I am very sensitive to this sort of thing lately.

[Deilla]

Feeling tired and nauseous this morning. Not sure why. Maybe I should check my blood sugar. Been drinking plenty of fluids. Trying to rest and relax.

[will19]

I didn't have to go to work today because it's the 4th. I got up at 7 and then after breakfast went to have minor car repairs at a garage. It went OK. It was nice that it could be open today since I didn't have any plans. Car runs better now with no bells going off.

JUST NOW THERE'S A MINOR EARTHQUAKE! I thought I was getting dizzy but I feel swaying back and fourth. Hope it's 's not serious somewhere else. It is an earthquake because the blind on the window is moving and there's no breeze.

Now back to me, some people have been asking "what will I be doing for the 4th". I don't feel comfortable being asked that. It's nothing much I'm going to be doing, of course. And I don't feel comfortable asking others the same question also.

[3rd rock]

In the midst of writing a war/action series, it's important to hit the pause button every now and then to add scenes that properly humanise our heroes and their struggles.

[Rose76]

Two days ago I was doing so good. Well, that went out the window today. I fell into the trough. Pretty demoralized all day. But I see how I bring this on myself. Tuesday I was up and dressed and out if the house. Ran some errands and felt good all day. I'm going to have to get out of the house in the morning and go somewhere. It means leaving my bf alone for a bit, but he'll survive.

[will19]

I felt down the whole day today plus feeling sleepy. I felt very depressed because I'm feeling like my friends and family life is in shambles. I even got thinking about going to a country in Europe that has legal suicide in about a few years. I'm supposed to be so happy with the way things have been going with selling my place and having good amount of money. But I'm not!

After lunch I took a two hour bike ride. Even that didn't cheer me up. Well at least tonight I went to the spa and it was nice and quiet. I thought that it was going to be active with people with BBQs and using the spa. Tonight it was the same as always, so that was good.

Originally Posted by Rose76

Two days ago I was doing so good. Well, that went out the window today. I fell into the trough. Pretty demoralized all day. But I see how I bring this on myself. Tuesday I was up and dressed and out if the house. Ran some errands and felt good all day. I'm going to have to get out of the house in the morning and go somewhere. It means leaving my bf alone for a bit, but he'll survive.

Glad to see you are doing self care! hugs. Let us know if you get him into a home for a while and how you are doing?

I started to get into "high gear" and couldn't sleep for a few nights. I definitely get feeling crazy like that so I took a quetiapine. But I don't want to rely on this stuff. I'm having hand tremors this morning. Like the new bed, finally had some sleep on it. It's nearing the 40's with the humidex, sitting here with a spray bottle to cool off.

[Deilla]

Very upset today. I've been sleeping most of the morning and when I am awake, all I hear is my inner critic. I'm angry at myself.

[will19]

Went to work today, even though many didn't show up. They were figuring that today is a holiday. But they took a one-day PTO. Well, that's a nice way to get a little more time off than a two-day weekend. It was busier today than I thought it would be, so that was helpful to me emotionally. Feeling so-so today. At least I slept much better last night than the night before.

I worked out after work and added more weight for the workout. It still went very well. Hey, I may add some more very soon!

[Deilla]

Feeling a little hopeful this morning. That's much better than yesterday. Will try to do things to help me feel even better today. It's the weekend. I want to enjoy it!

[Rose76]

Hard making myself do anything.

[will19]

Even though Saturday is my favorite day of the week, it wasn't a good day for me today. Well, it could have been worse, but it certainly was not a feel-good day.

I ended up getting two unexpected bills that cost about $215. One was from the IRS because they said I made an error in my calculation in filing my taxes and the other was from the place I live at. Funny thing is that, since I came into some money after selling my place, I have been getting unexpected bills. I think that there's some kind of radar out there on me.

I just sent an email back to my friend from college. He thanked me for calling him last week. I called him last week because I wanted to wish him a happy birthday but couldn't get though to him to leave a message. When we talked last week he mentioned an ex-friend of mine; and that upset me. So when I wrote back to him just now, I told him that I'd rather not hear about that guy.

I had a good day for a change. Forgot about a little lake not far from here, so enjoyed a swim, was up early. My son sounds like he has a home for while so that's a load off my mind, in a way. He sounded better on the phone today.