[MatBell]

I want to get away from here

[will19]

Fairly busy day today at work and it was an OK day there emotionally. Later on after I got home, my mood sunk. I did a small workout, since I'm not able to do the workouts I had been doing before. I feel bad about that. At dinner, the guy next door was making a lot of noise coming in and being with his girlfriend. He then had his stereo on very loud with awful music. Later on I went to the pool area. There was a couple there that I was not crazy about. But I made some small talk, such as how long they have lived at the place. The woman told me that she wants to buy a condo unit at the complex. Well, I told her about mine and that I'm wanting to sell. She said that she was not going to buy real soon but she might be interested in my place.

today an old friend came to visit me which was nice. she baught me some more lipstick (red lipstick). I also got a delivery from my friend sophie. she ordered me an amazon alexa, because she knows how much I like music. I've been having a lot of fun this afternoon exploring it's many features (I still have to email her and thank her for the gift)

[Deilla]

It's still early afternoon but I'm getting tired and sad. It means my bed time is fast approaching. I may just go to bed now before the depression really hits me.

[PsychNitrous]

I haven't been around much, I feel like things are falling apart around me. I recently moved in with my boyfriend's grandma, and while visiting his mother's fiancee passed away. I've been extremely stressed and anxious, which has made my pancreatitis flair up for the last month. I keep getting hormone-related depressive episodes.

Possible trigger:

I relapsed on opiates last weekend and overdosed.

I'm just tired, and all I want to do is sleep.

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

today an old friend came to visit me which was nice. she baught me some more lipstick (red lipstick). I also got a delivery from my friend sophie. she ordered me an amazon alexa, because she knows how much I like music. I've been having a lot of fun this afternoon exploring it's many features (I still have to email her and thank her for the gift)

That's awesome that you got an Amazon Alexa as a gift. I hope you have great fun with it. There's so much you can do.

[Deilla]

I have physical therapy tomorrow. I don't want to go. The last session hurt me for a few days. I'm concerned about this next session. I prefer not to do soft tissue work. I don't think they know what they're doing. They're just stirring the hornet's nest. That's my opinion about my case. I don't see any improvement. I just see me getting worse. I just want a steroid injection. I know I will feel so much better.

I will try to be positive. I'll tell them I'm worse and ask not to do the soft tissue work.

[will19]

It was a slow day at work. Not much eventful things going on today. Tonight, as I was heading back to my place from the pool area, I got talking to the woman downstairs from me. She was telling me that the people in the pool area around 9:30 at night are really bad. They are very noisy with loud music. It seems like that persuades me into leaving my place all the more. Fortunately it hasn't been that bad for me, but I go around 8, so it must really be bad after I leave. But I think it's going to be bad when it starts to warm up. The pool area and the area where my unit is.

[will19]

Another day and it was a slow one. I was disappointed when I got a message saying that a place I was going to look at next Saturday is taken. So I wonder if I'll ever get out of my place that I live at now?

[Deilla]

I'm stressed over physical therapy. I have better things to do with my time than worrying about someone manipulating me and putting pressure on me. I turned off my phone so I don't have to hear from anyone tomorrow. I'm not going anywhere tomorrow but to run errands. It's my day.

[LifelongLoner]

I don't enjoy the company of people anymore. I just want to be alone. Alone. Leave me alone.

most of my time's been taken up exploring my new amazon alexa (which can also explain why I've not been here as much). I love it, my friend sophie sent it to me and so far I'm really enjoying it

I also got some new red lipstick this week. it's a really brite red and looks really nice on me.

I've had a low appetite this week because.. well, I don't know. I just have. maybe it's just because my days are so dull and depressing, or maybe it's because my cooking is just geting worse (I actually vote the latter)

I've also not been sleeping, but that's not really news

[Sunflower123]

Feeling sad, depressed and all alone in the world right now.

[Deilla]

Sad, lonely and tired.

[will19]

I felt like the I.T. guy at work was irritating to me today. He seems (or thinks) that he's the boss of the place. He isn't. He's just the I.T. guy. And he gets involved in stuff that I do that's not a concern to him.

Been feeling down because I got looking at places online at where I would want to live. Made some phone calls and it was going no where. Perhaps I should try another site. And then I feel stuck at my place. But things haven't been too bad lately. That's because it's cold and very wet outside. That's when it's pretty nice. All Hell will break loose once it gets warm and nice outside.

today it has been snowing all day- and it's been really nice (I love the snow)

I've been having some greif with my alexa and that's been making a little depressed/ angry (actually I want some stuff I can't have because I don't have a phone that supports the alexa app).
I struggle with that, because for me when it comes to owning something, it's using it for all it's intended purposes, or nothing at all
I had takeout pizza today which was nice (even though it was filling, too filling for me)

no sleep last night. partly because of the imsomnia but also it was too hot. heating was turned up way too loud.

seems this weather has 1 drawback

you either are too cold or too hot

their's no in between

[Deilla]

Hopeful, grateful, a little less tired than usual.

[will19]

It was a fairly busy day. I got little "shots in the arm" of encouragement today. When I got home I felt depressed. Tried to take a nap but it was noisy at my place. I got a message on my home phone from a guy who was interested in buying a house. I don't know how he got my phone number?

Tonight has been OK so far. Nothing exciting for the weekend. It's supposed to rain from late tonight until Wednesday. Going to be a very dull and lonely weekend.

I feel mainly blah.

so I ate, so what. I came on the forum so what, I listened to music, so what

everything is just "so what"

I don't really care about anything today

[Deilla]

Got a new FitBit. Lost 10 lbs since the last time I logged in. Doing a step challenge. Enjoying my weekend so far. Nice weather today.