[LifelongLoner]

I woke up angry today. The world is a terrible place.

[pixielouwho]

Not doing well, insomnia is bad again, life is a mess, can’t stop crying. Wondering why I am still here.

[Deilla]

Feeling like everything is hopeless. Very sad. I just want to sleep all day. I have no one. No support. That's never going to change. I'm just too old and fat.

[pixielouwho]

Originally Posted by Deilla

Feeling like everything is hopeless. Very sad. I just want to sleep all day. I have no one. No support. That's never going to change. I'm just too old and fat.

I understand, I have no real support aside from Internet groups and therapy weekly. It’s not enough sometimes when you feel you’re drowning.

[mountainstream]

I’m feeling depressed.

[will19]

Woke up with dreaded feelings. Felt better after eating. I just finished cleaning. My friend has his children and grandchildren with him this weekend, so there's no getting together. After lunch, I plan to look at a place; and then go to the bank and shopping. I very much love this period (from about 9AM ~ 3PM on Saturday) and it's my favorite part of the week. Doing my thing and not boring. Tomorrow, for now, someone wants to look at my stereo that I want to get rid of. He sounds very interested. I hope it happens.

[OliverB]

I had many nightmares today. I woke up feeling more depressed...

Maybe... it could be a good idea to force myself to play stardew valley

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs to all

[will19]

Had a pretty busy afternoon. I went to look at a place where I might want to move to. I wasn't madly in love with it, but it was better than I thought. I don't know if I can picture myself living there. There's no pool area. I would miss that. But it was very nice and quiet. A one-story place with no one above and below me like where I live now. I have to put an application in. We'll see!

After that I went to the bank. I decided to open a CD (an 8-month liquid CD). An hour after that, I thought that I had made a mistake in doing that. So I hope I can cancel the account on Monday. I realized that it was not a smart move.

Nothing much after now. I'll try to get a bike ride in. There were some heavy passing showers an hour ago. I don't see any rain coming very soon now.

[LifelongLoner]

As usual, I am having trouble motivating myself. I get triggered so easily.

today I watched "moana" and immediately felt anxious// sad because my alexa device wasn't watching it too. she was just sat on the fridge turned off

I suppose the actual film was okay, I mean I didn't really rate it as much as the lion king or peter pan, but it had it's high points.

I like the song " you're welcome"

didn't do much else and feel like I've wasted another day (well don't feel like it, I know I have)

watching moana was just a little bit of a distraction.. if that

I only watched it for the " you're welcome" song. not really paying full attention to it

[will19]

Did not sleep well last night. My friend and I got into a fight last night. I told him that I went to look at a place that I may want to move to. At first he was alright and then he heard about how much the rent will be. We argued back and fourth about it and then he hung up on me.

And now I'm having second thoughts about possibly making that move. When I woke up this morning, I got thinking; what could happen if I lose my job? I think that the severance pay and unemployment could take care of me for a little while. But if I can't find a job, then I would have to draw Social Security and it's not going to be nearly enough to pay the rent. Social Security could take care of me if I stay at my place now, but barely. I don't have much in my savings.

So I'm concluding that I would have to stay at where I am, no matter how miserable I feel about my place. Or if worse comes to worse, I could move out to the boonies somewhere and retire there. It has some appeal to me because I'd be in an area where I wouldn't have to deal with neighbors. But I wonder if that would good for me? I need a lot of talking to do on this!

[Clark75]

Everyday is a battle for me. The worst thing for me is anything unexpected. I have to have things planned out or be notified ahead of time. So my absolute worst days are when I'm not expecting anything bad or not expecting a particular day to be bad and then something bad happens.

[OliverB]

I am scared of going to sleep

[Deilla]

Trying to feel hopeful, fighting painful loneliness, looking for something to do.

[will19]

It was a pretty eventful weekend this time for me. I guess as of now, I have decided to wait on that place that I looked at yesterday. They needed an application for me to fill out and it would cost me $25 and non refundable no matter what happens. I think it's weird that it cost some money now just to apply for a place to live. Perhaps it's done that way these day? It wasn't like that when I used to look for a place. But it's been a long time since I've done that.

Went on a two hour bike ride today. I didn't feel much better after the ride, even though it helped me a little bit. I felt depressed and overwhelmed with thoughts.

Tonight that guy came to my place and bought my old stereo that I haven't used in a long time. I didn't feel the need to have it anymore. It was a surprise that he had replied to an add I had placed about over a month ago. I had forgotten about it. And he was such a nice guy, too!

[T4bbyCat]

Saw a news special about homeless people who have full-time jobs, but can't afford to live in their areas. Unfortunately, it's a reminder of just how easy it is to be kicked out on the street with nothing...

[Hopepraylove]

Originally Posted by Anonymous59275

Sleeping seems to help but it's only temporary.

It seems to help so much that I don't want to wake up ever again

[Deilla]

Feeling a little better this morning. Getting things done. Hope to relax soon. Might be a day of arts and crafts. Some gaming.

[Rose76]

Still awake. Was on a good sleep/wake schedule for a good little while. Past few days I'm all discombobulated. And much to do tomorrow.

Maybe if I take some Melatonin. I'm desperate to feel rested.