I don't really know how i'm doing, seeing as for a lot of today (and actually for a lot of the week) diffrent alters have been taking over

in this exact moment though I'm feeling sad and like I want to

Possible trigger:

SH

I havont, don't worry, but it's tempting

[OliverB]

These two days have been really bad days.

Restricting food intake makes me feel more in control of my emotions, I don't know if it is because I was eating too much before or if it is an abnormal way of coping. I don't count calories or anything, I just eat as little as I am able to.

[will19]

Feeling down and anxious for the whole day. It seemed like it wasn't busy at work, until the last hour. Also I feel like I had created an enemy at my job. I don't know what came over me to allow that to happen. On the other hand, it was someone I was never that crazy about all along.

I guess I'm having exercising withdrawals. And now since I got that skin cancer surgery, I'm limited to what I could do. I can go bike riding, but I haven't been able to because of a lot of rain that we've been getting.

Lately I have been feeling unhappy about where I live and where I work now. Maybe I'll feel better later on.

[Mountaindewed]

My depression hasn’t been too bad. I can really sense that spring is on its way. I had a lot of anxiety provoking situations taken care of. That all ended up turning out fine. I have definite vacation plans set up. Things are actually going good for the first time since Christmas.

[Monticello]

I feel better today. There are a few things I can do to make my upcoming work change better and it doesn't start until May. Driving to Utah tomorrow with my son for a long weekend.

[mote.of.soul]

I haven't had the hopelessness for a while now so I think I'm progressing. A day at a time.

[OliverB]

I saw my psychiatrist again today.

He told I could try to take a bit of Concerta to boost my mind because I was spending almost all day in bed...

I have done a lot of things I had to (phone calls, emails, college quizzes...)

I still feell like **it, but I have a ton of energy.

Possible trigger:

I won't use that energy to kill myself, I want to get better. I have enough self control.

[Rose76]

Just woke up from a nap. I feel so stressed.

not really felt anything todag

going through the motions I guess

someone's gotta do it

[88Butterfly88]

Only a tad depressed today, can't complain.

[Angela8]

It's like it was several different days today, mood-wise.
I feel ok now, but earlier I was so depressed and really spacing out a lot. Worried about driving when I'm like that.

[will19]

I had some weird dreams last night, and then felt very depressed when I got out of bed. Lately it seems like it takes effort to get out of bed. I used to just spring out of bed. It's a wonder that I have breakfast and get to work on time!

Had a lot of anxiety at work this morning for no real good reason. Well, I guess there was a reason. I had to set up the auditorium for a meeting all week in which over a 100 were going to attend. That's the highest number of people ever in one sitting in the auditorium! And with tables and chairs; which made it a tall order. I did it, but later got a little help because other people in other areas at where I work scrounged up more tables. I really appreciated the help I got, but felt guilty that I couldn't do it all myself. In all of the years in setting up the auditorium that I have done, I have never encountered anything like that.

I felt better in the afternoon. I felt like my depression had been lifted. But I'm still feeling weird.

[Rose76]

I don't feel good. I had a second glass of wine with dinner that didn't agree with me. Friday was a day I just felt bad.

feel like crap and certainly won't be doing much.

I am having takeout tonight though

[OliverB]

Tired of depression

[will19]

A lot to do today. Did my housecleaning and went to visit my friend in the mid morning. His wife was out, so it made it easier for me to be there. I'm feeling like I'm not that crazy about him. I guess I never was, but he is all that I have. That's probably the only reason I like him.

I went to Rental Agency place after seeing him but they were closed. I was surprised because they said that they'd be open until 1PM. I got there at 12:20. Oh well. Went shopping after that and did my laundry. I got so much done today. But feeling very blah emotionally the whole day.

[Monticello]

I had a great day, driving home from Utah through southern Colorado. there was 2 to 3 feet of fresh snow on the ground and blue skies the whole way. It was spectacular. But I am pretty tired now.

[OliverB]

Tired tired tired tired tired...

Even if I have taken my methylphenidate

[OliverB]

I feel awful.

The stimulant is making me stay awake but I don't feel better.

It's easier to feel like **it while staying in bed than being moving around. It's tortuous, at least when I am tired I don't think too much. I don't know if it is a good idea.

Being awake and energetic is making me think more, and those thoughts are not exactly happy ones.

[mountainstream]

Depressed.