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#741
im miserable.
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#742
I have no idea how to start a new thread. My brain is not wanting to focus. I haven't been on here in a while. I was diagnosed bp1 in 2006. But my main symptoms is depression which since 2015 I've been unmedicated except for lamictal which I want to stop taking but just haven't. I've been on every medication made it seems and they all have very negative side effects so I decided to just quit. I would rather face the frequent depression as bad as it is than the negative symptoms of medication. Anyway why I came here tonight is I'm hyped up, irritated, quick tempered with my family, saying things I shouldn't, no patience with my 83 year old mother who is my best friend. I even made her cry the other day, which I have never done . I never have been comfortable saying or believing that I am bp. Maybe I just don't get it, or in denial. I have MI in my family.. what is this? Is feeling like you've had way too much caffeine, irritability and all the other things I listed bp? I hate when I get like this. Depression just hurts me, but this hurts my loved ones
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#744
After a year of working at this place and now leaving, I have no friendships. No one I will stay in contact with.
What is wrong with me? I am breaking apart |
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#745
I think I need to return to therapy but I'm afraid my therapist might reject me because the last time we tried Skype therapy sessions, it did not end well and he said he didn't want to do it again.
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#747
Today had to be the best day of this week. Except I had something happen to make me feel bad about myself. It was a little thing that happened at work. It was really nothing, but it was a big deal to me emotionally. I had been feeling like I'm losing my mind and can't do anything right like I used to.
One thing that happened at work today that lifted my spirits was that a woman co-worker just came in my room and gave me a packet of dried fruit & brown sugar (I use brown sugar for oatmeal) that was high-quality. It was very thoughtful of her! I really needed that more than anything else with the way this week had been going for me (needed the kindness more than the packets!). On Tuesday, my friend came over in the late afternoon and spent the night with me. He was able to come over because his wife and daughter were going to a show near where I live. I really had a very nice time when he stayed with me. |
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#748
No, but I was so close...
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#750
I know why nobody buys my books, it's because I'm an awful writer. Poorly written, incoherent crap.
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#752
I am doing Okay this afternoon. I've been busy with my art. Need a break now. I feel fine. Calm and relaxed. I did spend some time journaling. I might do some more.
__________________ ‘Live for now,’ ‘This too shall pass,’ ‘Everything is happening for my good.’ |
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#754
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This is the only thing I really have any hope for. It's literally the only thing I've ever been good at, and I'm no good at it. It takes a huge toll to work so hard on something for so many years and to not get anywhere. |
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#756
Feeling a bit depressed. Can't sleep, but really need to as I have a long day at work tomorrow.
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#758
Woke up feeling depressed. Right now I'm just taking a coffee break from cleaning. I'm making good timing. The weather here is nice, but I don't feel all that great.
My friend is going away for a couple of weeks. He and his wife are leaving today. They are going on a Mississippi River cruise. He'll call me but it's not the same as at home. At least today can be a better day than a week ago today with my neighborhood that got taken over |
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#759
I've got to remember to chuck the past. I keep thinking, if only or what if.... it doesn't help. Got to work with what I have now. That's all we ever have. But I sure would be best to plan for a future where I don't depend on someone else for anything. Seems an impossiblity now.
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#760
A little bit of a tough day. Just tired and sort of grumpy. I don't think I got enough sleep last night. Trying to relax now. After all, it's the weekend.
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