My venting post...

Back again and of course I am just sick of everything. I am done with my job, I'm nearly ready to quit and I don't care I don't have another job lined up. Several things happened this week that have put me right to the edge.

First I showed my boss how busy we are getting on sundays with the nicer weather coming. I also wanted to show him how much more work I am doing on sundays than the tow idiots I work with. The two of them combined had less ring outs than I had and I nearly doubled their sales. Mind you this is the two of them combined. I don't think he understood what I was showing him, because the next day I get told I will be working this sunday (I was originally had off). Mind you there will be the two idiots and their is another even worse person that is working that day. Someone who can not do any less than he does. He will hardly ever be around to help customers, I already know I am going to blow up on him within the first hour.

Then yesterday I get asked to come in early today and I would get thurs off. I made the mistake of being happy and went on my lunch. I come back and I'm told not to come in early and I need to come in thurs. Which thurs has become hell day for me. It's the day I dispatch. I hate it but it's the only day I get out kind of early, I only ever close.

Today was our store meeting for the month. I hate the store meetings, it's just the bosses saying sell more and work harder. I was already pissed off from how the night was going. Then the meeting started, it's nice they provide food but it's never anything I eat. They start to tell us how if we sell more we can earn more. Where I not so quietly said "we don't get more for selling more, you bosses make more when we sell more". Of course I get pulled to the side by a district manager. He asks me what the comment I made meant. I told him I said what I meant. Our bonuses are a set amount regardless of how much we beat our sales goal. I get told I have to watch what I say and how I say it. I told him don't lie to us and I won't make any comments. I am then told to get back to the meeting and we'll discuss the issue at a later date.

When it comes to meeting days, I can't avoid them, I always close and it's on a night I work. I am also reminded of the one meeting the company was treating us to a sit down restaurant that I really liked. It happened on a day we got a new close out system. Of course there was nothing but issues with the close out that night and I never made to that dinner because of it. I wasn't even offered a lunch or anything for missing the dinner because of the system. This has stuck with me since and I get angrier the more I think about it.

So there I was standing there waiting for the meeting to start and finish so I could leave. But of course everyone is going crazy over the food they ordered in. I got so fed up I yelled my annoyance. "You people act like you never had food before, shut up it's just food".

I did some reading up on the laws where I live, I don't need a will or anything for my "estate". The few things that I own that is worth anything will go to whomever wants it. So that worry is over.

I’m sending hugs

It finally came around. An accident I was in 2 years ago is finally here to haunt me. Got a call yesterday that I'm being sued for the accident, 25k. I'm going to flip out soon once it sinks in, it literally will be my breaking point.

It's a recurring theme. Things go bad for me especially at the worst time. I am constantly feeling sick and it gets to the point I'm in bed for a couple of days. I no longer really have friends or family.

So my brother about a couple of years ago moved nearly 2 hours away. I've done what I could to go visit him and his family but it's literally at least a 2 day excursion for me. They do not come to visit me, really not much going on here and they have pets and stuff to worry about and really can't be away for more than a few/several hours. Two of my friends (who are married) are too busy traveling around the country and world that I don't see them anymore. Another friend lives an hour or so away and has crazy hours with his job/career. My other friend has a girlfriend, it's a combination of things, he likes to forget he has friends, I will always be single, she more than likely does not like me and I can't really go anywhere with being sick all the time and not having any money. His last girlfriend he dropped off the face of the planet. Didn't hear or see him for 3 years, didn't even though they had gotten engaged until he mysteriously appeared and said they had broken up and weren't getting married.

So now I do nothing but work, come home stare at a phone screen for a few hours and go to bed so I can get up do the same thing. What kind of existence is that? I'm done... This will be one of my if not my last post here. Thanks for letting me vent...