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Everything I have, including my limited group of friends, my now-defunct and useless knowledge of computer programming, is not earned by me at all and I am just a worthless person bragging about his non-existant abilities.
I haven't earned anything. I don't deserve to be happy. I Am just a fraud. I am not House. I never will be. If I had been fortunate enough to be healthy, I'd be studying computer engineering and would have left the world to its own fate. Now I cannot save myself neither the world. And you know what? I stopped thinking about the world relatively long ago. Now I just want a high income, secure job. I haven't earned anything. |
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You don't want to be House, lonely chemist. He was an angry, drug addicted sadist and only a character in a TV show. Now it would be fun to be Hugh Laurie, who is a great actor and seems to be a nice guy. All the knowledge you have, you earned. Nobody else put that in your head. And I bet you know a lot more than you think you do. It's OK if you don't save the world. No one person could. I used to want to, also, and it made me frustrated and depressed. It took me decades to break out of my "Mother Theresa Complex" and realize that I could help my own world instead. In my case, it was the people around me. But it could be the local environment, the local animals, or whatever.
I don't mean to be preachy, I hope I don't come off like that. But I remember going through similar stuff when I was younger and it still comes up for me sometimes. So I am thinking about you and sending you good vibes (very 60's stuff). |
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I'd love to help anyone. But unfortunately since I turned 18 I've lost interest in most things. I don't know what to do. I am receiving help but it's not much useful. |
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Do you have to be House? Why?
Don't you want to be the best version of yourself that it is possible to be? Yourself when you were brilliant, again. __________________ Crazy, inside and aside Meds: bye bye meds CPTSD and some sort of depression and weird perceptions "Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a
thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance." I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison- |
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I don't have the answer to your second question.
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TBH House was kind of a jerk. I am glad you are not like him.
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I've changed career types throughout my 20's. But nothing felt more fun than running a company. The classification of manic is "thinking" they can do anything. Well I don't just think but I get it done with the help of everyone below me. To help cheer you up, I went from eating 10 cent packets of ramen soup, rice, and beans during college. All while living with a roommate in a cheap apartment. I drove a car I bought for $400 and It would back fired all the time. Driving in a residential neighborhood and seeing people hit the deck after the massive loud *** boom, made me laugh everytime. I now own my own house in San Diego, have 3 BMWs; 7 series, 3 series, and an i3. I'm working as the Chief Innovation Officer with my company now and one day I will he CEO. I've got my goals set and my 24/7 manic *** will most likely hit that goal. I still struggle with being happy and constantly feel this overwhelming boredom with life in general. Sometimes for no reason at all. But no one is perfect right? |
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He was indeed a self-made jerk. All because of several reasons. One is that in science you learn to not give a damn about anything or anyone. He had a rough childhood and was actually a bastard (acccording to House wiki) so he said 'screw friends and family' and wanted to live a solitary life. But in reality he was saving lives by being a jerk. How wonderful is that?
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