After finishing my graduation I aim to get an MSc in genetics and later a doctorate and research on neurological conditions. I myself come from a family where mental illness and neurological conditions both (although I haven't noticed major health defects aside from disorders of the nervous system in my family.) And also guess what? I am the only one receiving help. Mainly I guess because I allow myself to get help, I believe that there's no shame to seek help for a more or (argueably) less biological disease.

It doesn't mean I am not struggling, although. In fact I believe I am the most struggling student in my entire class. Just like everyone, I've my strengths and weaknesses. All I can try to do is improve both the areas -- my strengths and weaknesses. All I can try to do is think positively and learn new skills. Which will help me to become a better scientist.

I try to help people because I feel that's my purpose and I know, I am the only one that can define my purpose. Thank you all.

[Ohseedee]

I am glad to hear you are persevering and working hard. Mental illness is indeed a challenge, but it doesn't have to be a crutch. Unfortunately, some people (including myself in the past) get stuck with identifying themselves as their illness and nothing more. This type of victim self-identification can prevent growth and change. The fact that you are not indulging in this at such a young age is fantastic and shows real maturity.

I would caution you about identifying yourself as the "most struggling student" though, simply because everyone has struggles that we don't know about. I thought I was facing the most challenges in my class, and it turns out one individual had lost their father very recently. We never know what is going on in people's lives.

I enjoy reading your posts. You're doing a great job!

Originally Posted by Ohseedee

I am glad to hear you are persevering and working hard. Mental illness is indeed a challenge, but it doesn't have to be a crutch. Unfortunately, some people (including myself in the past) get stuck with identifying themselves as their illness and nothing more. This type of victim self-identification can prevent growth and change. The fact that you are not indulging in this at such a young age is fantastic and shows real maturity.

I would caution you about identifying yourself as the "most struggling student" though, simply because everyone has struggles that we don't know about. I thought I was facing the most challenges in my class, and it turns out one individual had lost their father very recently. We never know what is going on in people's lives.

I enjoy reading your posts. You're doing a great job!

That's very true. My psychiatrist always tells me "Think positively" and he always tells me I have hyper perception of threat. Unfortunately it seems a common problem among us.

Yes, now that I think about it, I am not the most struggling one but I am the most "different" one, as far as my observation goes. It's hard to explain, but I am different. And that's not necessarily a bad thing. Even a helpful one, partially in the academics too. Everyone struggles, I understand.

I am applying for an institute where only 10-15 people are selected for the PhD program. But what makes it special, is the fact it's one of the best (if not the best) institute in our country and it's very close from where I live too. I just cannot wait to be called for interview and tell them how I am ill but I would have gone to the extent of having passion for researching on the very diseases that plague me.

That'd certainly make me a candidate they will never forget.

I am sad people suffer due to our lack of knowledge. There have been great people, like Dr.Stephen Hawking, who were not spared out of the clutches of the unknown... What's the answer? Dissect it and study it and make everyone's lives better. It breaks my heart that a man who was a brilliant physicist, had to live in pain for more than five decades.

I have a friend who looks like him when he was a PhD student as shown in the Theory of Everything. I am in love romantically with the friend. That's why I thought about Dr.Hawking critically in first place. The Universe is a wonderful place. I am sorry if I put this in the wrong way, I am a male but I am in love with him. And love knows no boundaries.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sure you'll make it, TheLonelyChemist! You're a strong, wonderful person. Just try to do your best. That's more than enough. Trust me when I say that. Don't let Depression bring you down! Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Sending many hugs to you

[mikimostar]

Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist

After finishing my graduation I aim to get an MSc in genetics and later a doctorate and research on neurological conditions. I myself come from a family where mental illness and neurological conditions both (although I haven't noticed major health defects aside from disorders of the nervous system in my family.) And also guess what? I am the only one receiving help. Mainly I guess because I allow myself to get help, I believe that there's no shame to seek help for a more or (argueably) less biological disease.

It doesn't mean I am not struggling, although. In fact I believe I am the most struggling student in my entire class. Just like everyone, I've my strengths and weaknesses. All I can try to do is improve both the areas -- my strengths and weaknesses. All I can try to do is think positively and learn new skills. Which will help me to become a better scientist.

I try to help people because I feel that's my purpose and I know, I am the only one that can define my purpose. Thank you all.

The only lost person is the one who have not found a purpose.

If you have time to read a book "Man's Search for Meaning" by Viktor E. Frankl.

This writer psychiatrist survived Nazi camps and he is telling his story. The ultimate goal is what motivates us to stay alive. Just find that goal and you will be fine. The book is short but good to read.

I wish you all the best with your goal.. Keep going my friend..

[mikimostar]

Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist

That's very true. My psychiatrist always tells me "Think positively" and he always tells me I have hyper perception of threat. Unfortunately it seems a common problem among us.

Yes, now that I think about it, I am not the most struggling one but I am the most "different" one, as far as my observation goes. It's hard to explain, but I am different. And that's not necessarily a bad thing. Even a helpful one, partially in the academics too. Everyone struggles, I understand.

I am applying for an institute where only 10-15 people are selected for the PhD program. But what makes it special, is the fact it's one of the best (if not the best) institute in our country and it's very close from where I live too. I just cannot wait to be called for interview and tell them how I am ill but I would have gone to the extent of having passion for researching on the very diseases that plague me.

That'd certainly make me a candidate they will never forget.

I am sad people suffer due to our lack of knowledge. There have been great people, like Dr.Stephen Hawking, who were not spared out of the clutches of the unknown... What's the answer? Dissect it and study it and make everyone's lives better. It breaks my heart that a man who was a brilliant physicist, had to live in pain for more than five decades.

I have a friend who looks like him when he was a PhD student as shown in the Theory of Everything. I am in love romantically with the friend. That's why I thought about Dr.Hawking critically in first place. The Universe is a wonderful place. I am sorry if I put this in the wrong way, I am a male but I am in love with him. And love knows no boundaries.

Love gives you wings of angel .. keep flying.. I hope you will find your soul mate (regardless of gender) and have happy and productive life.

When it comes to great minds they all have some kind of deficit that made them great. Nikola Tesla was OCD and germophob, Albert Abstain had autism and so on..
Do not give your illness so great power after all you are genius, make it just another obstacle that you overcome.

Originally Posted by mikimostar

The only lost person is the one who have not found a purpose.

If you have time to read a book "Man's Search for Meaning" by Viktor E. Frankl.

This writer psychiatrist survived Nazi camps and he is telling his story. The ultimate goal is what motivates us to stay alive. Just find that goal and you will be fine. The book is short but good to read.

I wish you all the best with your goal.. Keep going my friend..

Thank you Mikimostar. I agree, work gives life meaning. But with that, one should always aim to have a good circle of friends and enjoy life in general.

[mikimostar]

Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist

Thank you Mikimostar. I agree, work gives life meaning. But with that, one should always aim to have a good circle of friends and enjoy life in general.

Friends are coming in all different shapes and sizes.. just keep your eyes and heart open and they will recognize you as wonderful missing part of their life..