Nothing is helping.. What to do?

Hi..

I have been extremely depression for 1.5 yrs now.. Just getting out of bed seems like a mountain... I am pursuing PhD and lagging behind badly... At the very beginning i went to this psychiatrist. He prescribed SSRI and it didn work. Next appointment was after 2 months. He changed and prescribed another SSRI which didn't work either. Now i had some experience with this SSRI coz in 2015 i was severely depressed while going through a breakup and this helped. But this time, it didn't
. So i thought i should seek therapy instead, and went for therapy for like 8 months very sincerely (not missing sessions) but that didn't help at all. At this time i felt i might be having ADHD and that might be contributing to depression , since i have always had difficulty remembering / organising etc. So again i went back to the doctor, he gave retalin but that didn't help either. At next appointment, after 2 months again i went back he gave another SSRI which didn't work either. Only the modafinil he gave sometime in between is helping me get outta bed and still goto work (else i would have lost the phd position by now). But the depression is just the same and going bad each day. I have almost stopped eating solid food, and only relying on (flavoured) milk whole day. I can't sleep most nights before 4am. And i can get outta bed. On weekends when there's no work, i sleep like 18 hrs a day to avoid facing the world..

What should i do? I feel totally lost. I don't have anyone to support me or help me out.

Forgot to mention,

During my last visit, the psychiatrist gave some blood test. So I find I have hypothyroidism, Severe Vitamin D deficiency, low hemoglobin and low iron...All of which contributes to depression...So i am taking thyroid medicine, some iron tabs and some Vit D tabs....Been almost 2 months since then....no change in mood....still very depressed..

Hugs. I’m sorry that I suck at advice sometimes.. so I’m sending hugs and I hope things get better soon for you.

Thank you... I really am struggling a lot and desperately hope to feel a little better somehow

Maybe hanging out a bit more here with us on pc might help

Many of us feel your pain, or have similar struggles

Feel free to reply to any threads, even “just” with hugs

Many find knowing someone is listening helps, even if only a little..

I find that replying to others helps me get out of my head a bit sometimes

There are many kind, supportive people here, and some are also good at thinking outside the “box” etc... (knowledge I have found helpful.. I don’t find all “knowledge” helpful )