[Fuzzybear]

I have a good friend I’ve known for many years..
She often has spoken of a feeling of being “never understood”
And “never belonging”
It’s a hard lonely feeling.
I love learning
I love many beautiful things and people
My brain is active
My pain won’t stop
Where is my off switch to stop my pain

[Rohag]

To a large but not absolute extent I've "not belonged" all my life.
Based on my reading of your posts, dear Fuzzybear, your sense of "not belonging" is far more pervasive and agonising than mine.

((((((( Fuzzybear )))))))

[Thirty shades]

I have often felt like I do not belong.....

People sense something....

I am not sure what...

The feeling is a vicious circle...
Exclusion leads to more pain...

The world would be a better place if everyone could be accepted AS IS...

[guilloche]

I feel like this too... I can't seem to find my place, my people.

I don't know the answer, FuzzyBear, regarding switching off the pain... I do know about distraction from the pain. That helps a little.

Have you ever seen the show "Crazy Ex-Girlfriend"? I was watching the beginning of the final season last night, and they played this song ("No one else is singing my song... No one knows the rhythm... enough to sing along...")

No One Else is Singing My Song

I think it's supposed to be somewhat ironic (they end up having 11-12 people all singing it together, showing that we're not as alone with the feeling as we think we are).

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Fuzzybear! I agree with what all the other great, wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said better than I ever could! You've been given lots of great, wise, wonderful advice and support on this thread! I'd suggest to follow it as much as you can! Please remember that you'll ALWAYS belong here! We're all here to support each other after all! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! We ALL care about you! We ALL love you here! Feel free to vent and write as much as you need to and want to! You KNOWE we'll NEVER judge you! I PROMISE YOU that I'll NEVER judge you no matter what! Please NEVER give up hope! Try to HANG ON as much as you possibly CAN! You'll ALWAYS be accepted here among ALL of us on PC! PLEASE REMEMBER THAT! I hope you'll be able to be accepted IRL as well, although I understand that it's not easy and that there are many mean, nasty people out there! I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Fuzzybear! Sending many gentle, positive, warm and wonderful hugs and many gentle, happy, positive, warm and wonderful thoughts to you