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After I started to recover from a massive psychotic breakdown (which was partly my fault), I started thinking about medicine. I'd write key words on my biology textbook's cover's blank side ( if I had worked hard enough on both chemistry as well as physics too, applying the same technique over and over again, I would have been in medical school right now.), because one of my voices told me I have amnesia (the voice was of my psychiatrist) and I really started losing memory.
Science tells, when you really become psychotic, not just your brain but your whole body is affected too. So I did became ACTUALLY very forgetful and started showing symptoms of attention deficiency. That year, I passed with a bit more than 50%. That was nowhere near acceptable as I wanted to get into medical college, which was just a year after, if I could make it. So I did the worst mistake of my life - I joined a coaching class. As a recovering psychiatric patient, they... they just... broke me in every way possible. Both my classmates and my teachers there. It's not that they never supported me, but now that I think about it, it was only so their business would not be affected. They beat me, they humilated me, they punished me. Now I hate my parents for not raising me right. I even once ran away. Why? Because I am different! You get it? I affected their business and so they took revenge on me by breaking me psychologically in every possible way. Now after going through a year of trauma, and a life time before that due to my parents' mental illness, I have almost zero chances of living a normal life. It's all over. **** it. I won't be a productive citizen. |
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Now I would rather kill myself rather than trying to do something productive. Nothing's worth it? You got it. You killed a productive, independent citizen.
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Can't believe how much I forgot to write.
Here's what I was doing in between the time I passed eleventh grade and before I joined the class. - Watch videos on all types of surgeries on YouTube and observe the techniques. - Read books on psychopharmacology - Read news on medicine - Write about twenty pages of notes on organic chemistry every day in my notebook. By the time I finished (around a month), I had filled four A4 sized notebooks. - Listen to Doctor Strange soundtrack. - Think how I can effectively study for physics and inorganic and physical chemistry. - Makes **** ton of notes on biology for practice. I could have been a doctor, but the forces of the universe gave a preference to those who'd rather do it for the salary. Now what will a Mr.Nobody do? Nothing. Just like how he is. |
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