Thinking between two extremes of views, is something I've done since the past few years. I may have borderline personality disorder. Whatever, meh.

My psychiatrist tells me I can do everything I want - Wrong.
My mind, and that of everyone's else's in the world (might be a few exceptions there), including that of my psychiatrist's, tells me I cannot do anything I want - Wrong.

The truth is somewhere in the middle.

I have a hard time at school. I now enjoy the company of my classmates; nobody teases me, at least to the extent which is noticeable. I struggle in the practical aspect a lot though, in school.

So that means, I will never get into a reputed institute and neither get my PhD on the quantum theory. That's okay.

But that does not mean I cannot enjoy my life. I got a disability. I must not regret the things I cannot do. It's time for finding a middle ground.

There will be no Dr.Chem and no scientist who's so different from the rest of his peers. It's a fact of life. I cannot do anything to change it. It's beyond my power. Unfortunately, I will have to sacrifice my interest in the physical sciences and look for jobs I'd have considered 'mundane' after I complete my BSc.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist

Thinking between two extremes of views, is something I've done since the past few years. I may have borderline personality disorder. Whatever, meh.

My psychiatrist tells me I can do everything I want - Wrong.
My mind, and that of everyone's else's in the world (might be a few exceptions there), including that of my psychiatrist's, tells me I cannot do anything I want - Wrong.

The truth is somewhere in the middle.

I have a hard time at school. I now enjoy the company of my classmates; nobody teases me, at least to the extent which is noticeable. I struggle in the practical aspect a lot though, in school.

So that means, I will never get into a reputed institute and neither get my PhD on the quantum theory. That's okay.

But that does not mean I cannot enjoy my life. I got a disability. I must not regret the things I cannot do. It's time for finding a middle ground.

There will be no Dr.Chem and no scientist who's so different from the rest of his peers. It's a fact of life. I cannot do anything to change it. It's beyond my power. Unfortunately, I will have to sacrifice my interest in the physical sciences and look for jobs I'd have considered 'mundane' after I complete my BSc.

Perhaps you can do a bit more than the "mundane" - but love your optimism! ❤

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind

Perhaps you can do a bit more than the "mundane" - but love your optimism! ❤

Honestly, nobody knows what I can do or not. But I am backing down after struggling a lot in the practical aspect.

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist

Honestly, nobody knows what I can do or not. But I am backing down after struggling a lot in the practical aspect.

True. Nobody knows. No problem backing down. But if its something you truly want - perhaps you can revisit it later. ❤

[HeavyBlanket]

I apologize if I am missing something. I very well might be. However, I think I noticed something that might help you find your middle ground between "you can do anything you want" and "you can't do anything you want."

Maybe you can do everything you want, just not in the way everyone thinks it should be done. It seems that you believe that you can't arrive at a unified theory without being PhD than a Prof. Maybe. Maybe not. Of course there are institutional benefits in the form of money and resources from doing the tried and true path.

But Einstein was a patent clerk when he articulated relativity and did not obtain significant academic recognition until after the theory. Now you don't have to have the intelligence of Einstein to make a meaningful contribution. You just need a different perspective, because new things can only be found where no one else is looking. It sounds like you have a perspective that the other PhD in quantum theory don't have. Perhaps venturing away from the University will give you an advantage because you will be exposed to stimuli that they won't be which will lead to novel experience to shape your thoughts in a way they never could.

Don't focus on the credential, focus on the work that you can do to get you where you want to go. Just a though. Your mileage may vary.

I will do a lot of soul searching before I finish my BSc. So yes, if it's something I truly want, I will get it!

[Crypts_Of_The_Mind]

Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist

I will do a lot of soul searching before I finish my BSc. So yes, if it's something I truly want, I will get it!

Even if you decide not to do it right away - if its something you really want, you can go back later. ❤