advertisement
Reply
Thread Tools Display Modes
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Grand Magnate
 
Crypts_Of_The_Mind's Avatar
Crypts_Of_The_Mind has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2015
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 3,025
8 yr Member
2,609 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Apr 23, 2019 at 06:24 PM
  #1
I understand that now.
As soon as I can grasp my mind around it, it will stop hurting.

Nobody cares.
Nobody cares.
Nobody cares.

Probably nobody cares about this post.
Don't blame you if you don't.
I know I'm not worth caring about.
I just wish I understood why.

Maybe then I could wrap my mind around it easier.

So - even if you don't care about me or this post .. can you just tell me why .. please?

__________________
Life is not measured by the amount of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away
Crypts_Of_The_Mind is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Anonymous40127, Anonymous55879, Fuzzybear, Skeezyks, TishaBuv

advertisement
bpforever1
Magnate
 
bpforever1's Avatar
bpforever1 has no updates.
 
Member Since: Aug 2017
Location: earth
Posts: 2,063
5 yr Member
1,598 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Apr 23, 2019 at 06:43 PM
  #2
Nobody cares? Do you have family near by? I feel the same way when I am psychotic. However, I feel my family cares. I don't feel this way when I have symptoms though. I wish you well. I know how you are feeling and hope your situation improves.
bpforever1 is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Anonymous55879, Crypts_Of_The_Mind, Fuzzybear
 
Thanks for this!
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Skeezyks
Disreputable Old Troll
 
Skeezyks's Avatar
Skeezyks has no updates.
 
Member Since: Oct 2015
Location: The Star of the North
Posts: 32,762 (SuperPoster!)
8 yr Member
17.4k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Smile Apr 23, 2019 at 06:46 PM
  #3
I'm so sorry you are feeling nobody cares. I mostly just greet new members here on PC. So I don't know you. And I don't know why other members would not care about you.

But I do think you are correct in terms of people in real life. My experience, over the years, has been that nobody wants to hear about anyone else's mental health concerns. People will stick with you for a longer time, or a shorter time, depending on how important a person you are to them in their lives. But there's a limit. They don't know what to say or what to do. And, besides, they have their own problems.

In my life, as long as I was willing to play along, & try to be the person other people wanted me to be, they were more than willing to let me. And they didn't really care what it might be doing to me inside. I suspect a lot of us, here on PC, have had similar experiences. That's at least part of why we're all here.

Anyway... (me thinks I digress) I don't know what has caused you to feel no one cares about you or your posts here on PC. It is true, I think, that sometimes members posts get lost in the shuffle so to speak, not intentionally, but just because PC is such a big forum & things tend to move so quickly. Hopefully you will receive lots of caring replies to this post.

__________________
"I may be older but I am not wise / I'm still a child's grown-up disguise / and I never can tell you what you want to know / You will find out as you go." (from: "A Nightengale's Lullaby" - Julie Last)
Skeezyks is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Anonymous55879, Fuzzybear
 
Thanks for this!
TishaBuv
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Grand Magnate
 
Crypts_Of_The_Mind's Avatar
Crypts_Of_The_Mind has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2015
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 3,025
8 yr Member
2,609 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Apr 23, 2019 at 06:48 PM
  #4
Quote:
Originally Posted by bpforever1 View Post
Nobody cares? Do you have family near by? I feel the same way when I am psychotic. However, I feel my family cares. I don't feel this way when I have symptoms though. I wish you well. I know how you are feeling and hope your situation improves.
My family is my husband and chihuahuas. My sister rarely speaks to me , is in another state n is wrapped up in her own family (understandable). My Dad almost never speaks to me. My stepmom n stepsisters never speak to me. My mom passes away over 30yrs ago. So .. yea my family is my husband n chihuahuas. My husband is wrapped up in his own issues atm.

__________________
Life is not measured by the amount of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away
Crypts_Of_The_Mind is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Anonymous40127
Anonymous40127
Guest
Anonymous40127 has no updates. Edit
 
Posts: n/a
Default Apr 24, 2019 at 05:18 AM
  #5
I care! Because you've helped me.
  Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Anonymous55879, Crypts_Of_The_Mind
 
Thanks for this!
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Anonymous55879
Guest
Anonymous55879 has no updates. Edit
 
Posts: n/a
Default Apr 24, 2019 at 05:44 AM
  #6
You posted this in the depression forum and we focus on these kind of feelings more when we are depressed. Plus, many of the people on this forum have few friends IRL. I recall you were married (?) but the relationship was rocky. You both struggled. Did you leave him or are you still with him?

I am sure people generally like you on here but here. You are sweet and kind and have always helped people on here who are in the most distress.

Speaking from the POV of my own struggles--sometimes I am not that reliable because I have a mood disorder. Some days I have the ability to cheer people up and make them feel loved. Other days I am a real downer. I have made the decision to focus my attention on my husband and children. I am also trying to work more. There are so many posts on here and I am trying to only "look" once a day (though I peaked more than once yesterday) because this place became a real distraction. I only have so much time.

You are worth caring about but there are probably many here who care and also feel like no one cares about them (especially in this forum). I have learned that it is best to lean on IRL people. I also remember you are stranded without a car. Perhaps this is effecting your ability to connect with people IRL? I first came to PC in June 2016. My username was Mysterious plus a number and I read enough of your posts to get the feeling that you are a very likable person. Sorry you are in such a funk.
  Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Crypts_Of_The_Mind, TishaBuv
 
Thanks for this!
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Fuzzybear
Wisest Elder Ever
 
Fuzzybear's Avatar
Fuzzybear has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2002
Location: Cave.
Posts: 96,301 (SuperPoster!)
20 yr Member
81.2k hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Apr 24, 2019 at 07:54 AM
  #7
I care about you Crypts

__________________
Fuzzybear is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
 
Thanks for this!
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Grand Magnate
 
Crypts_Of_The_Mind's Avatar
Crypts_Of_The_Mind has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2015
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 3,025
8 yr Member
2,609 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Apr 24, 2019 at 09:53 AM
  #8
Quote:
Originally Posted by Nowinners View Post
You posted this in the depression forum and we focus on these kind of feelings more when we are depressed. Plus, many of the people on this forum have few friends IRL. I recall you were married (?) but the relationship was rocky. You both struggled. Did you leave him or are you still with him?

I am sure people generally like you on here but here. You are sweet and kind and have always helped people on here who are in the most distress.

Speaking from the POV of my own struggles--sometimes I am not that reliable because I have a mood disorder. Some days I have the ability to cheer people up and make them feel loved. Other days I am a real downer. I have made the decision to focus my attention on my husband and children. I am also trying to work more. There are so many posts on here and I am trying to only "look" once a day (though I peaked more than once yesterday) because this place became a real distraction. I only have so much time.

You are worth caring about but there are probably many here who care and also feel like no one cares about them (especially in this forum). I have learned that it is best to lean on IRL people. I also remember you are stranded without a car. Perhaps this is effecting your ability to connect with people IRL? I first came to PC in June 2016. My username was Mysterious plus a number and I read enough of your posts to get the feeling that you are a very likable person. Sorry you are in such a funk.
It sounds like it has been a few years since you read my last post. Back then I was in a situation with 0 real life friends, no family that would speak to me, no car, no finances to speak of, 3 dogs, and a psychologically n emotionally abusive husband ... that was back when I very first joined this site. Shortly thereafter, we got a car. It wasn't too long after that I had a complete breakdown and thus decided to leavd my husband and go to a shelter. About 2mo later - the shelter sent me for a suicide eval, I passed that, but my chest was hurting so they kept me for observation. When they discharged me - the community buses had stopped running. We (shelter residents) were not allowed to take taxis , so I called the shelter. The shelter claimed not to know where the hospital was. So - I called a taxi for the only other place I knew - my ex-husband. The shelter kicked me out. We ended up getting back together. We got remarried. Been remarried about 2yrs.

Now - I was good for a long while. People literally started treating me different. You can check my profile and you will notice huge gaps in posts .. very few are about me, and the amount of time I was here was just a few days. Yes, I did focus on my husband n I - however, sometimes a person needs support. And like I said back then .. these are not the type of people to make friends with - however I noe think its like that everywhere. We have moved twice since then n everywhere we have gone people have proven to be untrustworthy users that like to steal or worse.

Now - of course I posted this in the depression forum. It is depression I am feeling. However this is a type of depression I have not felt in the past. I realise the symptoms and the consequences of it but does that mean I cannot speak on things that are my reality as well as those things that are how I feel .. or am I meant to keep them in? I am sorry I sound angry but so many are shutting me down when I try to talk or correcting me when I say its one thing and they say its another. I just want to be able to express myself ... not feel muted.

__________________
Life is not measured by the amount of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away
Crypts_Of_The_Mind is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Grand Magnate
 
Crypts_Of_The_Mind's Avatar
Crypts_Of_The_Mind has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2015
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 3,025
8 yr Member
2,609 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Apr 24, 2019 at 09:56 AM
  #9
I stopped bc that was a long post - but I also want to say I remember you and you have come a long way. You should be proud of that. I hope you are.

I also want to thank you for the nice words n saying people care ...

I realize there are many on here that need people to care about them. I am sorry to be a burden.

Take care.

__________________
Life is not measured by the amount of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away
Crypts_Of_The_Mind is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Grand Magnate
 
Crypts_Of_The_Mind's Avatar
Crypts_Of_The_Mind has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2015
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 3,025
8 yr Member
2,609 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Apr 24, 2019 at 09:57 AM
  #10
Quote:
Originally Posted by Fuzzybear View Post
I care about you Crypts
Thank you Fuzzy. I care about you too, my friend.

__________________
Life is not measured by the amount of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away
Crypts_Of_The_Mind is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Fuzzybear
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Grand Magnate
 
Crypts_Of_The_Mind's Avatar
Crypts_Of_The_Mind has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2015
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 3,025
8 yr Member
2,609 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Apr 24, 2019 at 09:58 AM
  #11
Quote:
Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist View Post
I care! Because you've helped me.
Thank you .. I care about you too, my friend. Glad I've been able to help you.

__________________
Life is not measured by the amount of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away
Crypts_Of_The_Mind is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Anonymous40127
Anonymous55879
Guest
Anonymous55879 has no updates. Edit
 
Posts: n/a
Smile Apr 24, 2019 at 11:11 AM
  #12
Quote:
Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind View Post
We have moved twice since then n everywhere we have gone people have proven to be untrustworthy users that like to steal or worse.
Quote:
Originally Posted by Crypts_Of_The_Mind View Post
I am sorry to be a burden.

Take care.
Thanks for the update. Wow you got remarried. That is really romantic and that you were able to trust him enough to remarry shows growth and love in your relationship.

I've noticed you are a giving person. When you are like this, you just have to be super aware of people's behavior. I hope you have better luck with this in the future. That they used you is a discredit to them not you. There is nothing wrong with being giving; I bet that is why your husband wanted to remarry you.

You are not a burden. I don't have to reply to anything here unless I feel like it. That is the reality of the online world.

Thanks for your kind words. I am progressing more that regressing. Yea!
  Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
 
Thanks for this!
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Crypts_Of_The_Mind
Grand Magnate
 
Crypts_Of_The_Mind's Avatar
Crypts_Of_The_Mind has no updates.
 
Member Since: Nov 2015
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 3,025
8 yr Member
2,609 hugs
given
PC PoohBah!
Default Apr 24, 2019 at 11:25 AM
  #13
Quote:
Originally Posted by Nowinners View Post
Thanks for the update. Wow you got remarried. That is really romantic and that you were able to trust him enough to remarry shows growth and love in your relationship.

I've noticed you are a giving person. When you are like this, you just have to be super aware of people's behavior. I hope you have better luck with this in the future. That they used you is a discredit to them not you. There is nothing wrong with being giving; I bet that is why your husband wanted to remarry you.

You are not a burden. I don't have to reply to anything here unless I feel like it. That is the reality of the online world.

Thanks for your kind words. I am progressing more that regressing. Yea!
Yes, we remarried after we both regained a bit of trust in one another (I had turned to online affairs when he was abusing me). He showed he was not interested in abusing me anymore. I showed him I was not interested in online affairs anymore. I made sure to ask him many times over if he really wanted to remarry bc he used to say I trapped him into marriage (the first time) - now when we argue, he blames it on God telling him to marry me.

So .. things are better - they are not perfect n I don't expect them to be. I just want my mh problems back under the control I had them for a couple years.

__________________
Life is not measured by the amount of breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away
Crypts_Of_The_Mind is offline   Reply With QuoteReply With Quote
 
Hugs from:
Anonymous55879, Fuzzybear
All times are GMT -5. The time now is 05:42 AM.
Powered by vBulletin® — Copyright © 2000 - 2024, Jelsoft Enterprises Ltd.



 

My Support Forums

My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.

 

Helplines and Lifelines

The material on this site is for informational purposes only, and is not a substitute for medical advice, diagnosis or treatment provided by a qualified health care provider.

Always consult your doctor or mental health professional before trying anything you read here.