Sad and confused

I am 19 years old and a college student. I have felt depressed since I was 14, and my doctor suggested going to therapy but my parents shut it down and said it embarrassed them, and I have not been back since. I can feel my depression getting worse almost every day, and it is impossible to do daily tasks and even wake up. I feel hopeless and the only thing that distracts me temporarily is hanging with my friends from college, but they live in different places, and doing work, which is why I have two jobs and two majors (chemistry and engineering) and a minor (math) at school.

My parents say I am lazy, and we have a lot of family issues going on (death in the family, fighting, etc), so I am too scared to try and tell them that I need therapy or antidepressants because I think that my family issues are more important right now.

Because I am technically an adult I could do this on my own but I am not sure how to approach the doctors for antidepressants since I haven't talked to my doctor since the last time my parents were embarrassed. I feel guilty talking to my friends about my mental health because it is summer, who wants to deal with their sad friend.

I really do not know what to do, and I don't know what my future will look like. Please help with any guidance.

Lazy???? With 2 jobs and 2 majors and a minor??? That computes to lazy how????

Right?? My accomplishments are never enough for them so its hard to actually know if I am doing something good.My jobs are only during the summer so they want me to do more during the school year but I'm very stressed out during that time.

Thanks for your reply, it made me feel less useless.

I think you should seek some form of proffessional help. One in which your parents don't need to know, and if that happens to be all forms of proffesional help you can afford, then i'd say do as much as you can to make yourself better.

As for not talking to your friends about your mental health problems, hopefully being able to talk to strangers can serve the same function. The good thing about seeking a mental health community online is that you know most will respond well to you asking for help. If it's a friend, and you haven't confided to them about anything like this, you're never completely sure how they'll react. Granted, if you think your friends are supportive, then im sure they wouldn't mind helping you out.