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Everyday is just a little more stagnate. I'm tired of doing things and seeing no results. It doesn't get much better. I've tried medications and all it did was make me feel rather blah. I never felt good and I didn't feel bad. I just existed. I'm tired of existing. I want to be someone but I can't seem to summon the energy to even try. Why try? I don't think I'll ever be better. I don't want to die. I'm just so tired of getting nowhere. I'm lost. I'm drowning. There is no escape. I want to go somewhere and be someone else. I want to forget about my past. I want to shed my skin like a snake and be new. I want to to die and be reborn and be like the phoenix all fire and freedom. But, here I am just an ugly rock being ground down by the winds of time.
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Location: North Carolina, USA. Originally New York
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I have been where you are, and I absolutely empathize. I don't preach to people, but praying has helped me more than I ever thought possible. If you are just spiritual, and want to be reborn and shed that skin, write down all the things that cause you to feel stagnate and rip it up or burn it in a fireplace.
The best thing is to forgive yourself, and stop punishing yourself for being stagnate. You may need to dig really hard to find something to bring you joy - a show, a song to play over and over again, or a game to just get lost in. I struggled for almost 12 years with this so I know how hard it can be. Finding silly things to distract myself while I figure out the serious stuff has always been good balance for me too. Hugs! __________________ Tales of Love, Motivation, and An Interesting Journey - Please Subscribe to my Website on WordPress: Inspired Odyssey's Path to Wellness and Love |
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wish I knew what to tell you.
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