Again out

This is the second time out of a job because I took too many sick days and during the trial period the company policy has indicated that they don’t have enough time to evaluate my performance. I wish they extended the date for trial period. And now I am out of a job and have to go through the stress of finding a new job soon, my mother, sister, kids, exwife who I need to support depend on me and my self of course. Gosh it never gets easy mates. And companies can be such dush, specially in Japan they are so cold so focused on productivity KPIs which are meaningless in my opinions.
It has been over a year I don’t see my kids guys, what should I do keep feeling guilty or just accept. I paid a lawyer to help me but she is one of those who wants to earn my ex trust and then negotiate and that is going to take forever, and I missing my kids lives.
I wish the US dropped another bomb close by to make them understand they are not so powerful as they think. I am getting may be ill for that comment but don’t mean if guys is just I’m sad and upset.

What should I do guys?

I'm not sure what you should do, but I'm sorry you're out of a job and missing your kids. I don't have experience in child custody cases, not being a parent myself.

I am deeply sorry that you're going through SO MUCH, captaineo! You don't deserve to suffer Nobody does. You're such a kind person. I'm so sorry that things are being so hard for you right now I know this isn't easy, but have you thought about perhaps moving to another country? I know that may seem very extremem to you and that you likely can't afford it right now. However, if your situation DOES get stable again, perhaps you may want to consider that. From what you wrote it seems like you don't feel very comfortable around there. Correct me if I'm wrong of course! For now just focus on finding a job. I'm sure you'll be able to land another one. I'm so sorry life is being so hard for you. Hopefully your lawyer will be able to make you see your kids. Even if it takes a little bit of time at the very least you'll be able to see them. I'm not sure if that's allowed but perhaps you can write some letters or e-mails to them? Just a thought. Please hang in there. Your suffering won't last forever. Things can still get better. I'm sure of that. Just try to do your best. That's ALL we humans can do after all and it's ALWAYS more than enough. We're here for you when you need support. Feel free to PM me anytime. My inbox is always open for you. Sending many safe, warm hugs to you, captaineo, and to ALL the people you love and who love you back!

Captaineo, as you see or sense it, to what extent does your situation with your ex-wife and children involve an "intercultural" conflict?

In this struggle to see your children, are you going up against your ex-wife as an individual, or is her whole family involved in keeping you out of their lives?