Moving out but still feeling like garbage

It's a little over 2 AM, but I just feel like I'm suffocating from a dark cloud (as usual) from recent events.

Wednesday, I got into a huge fight (as usual again, I mean, this is a lifestyle...) with my family because I either forgot to inform them or didn't bother caring to tell them earlier that I was going to move into my apartment with my friend. I have a small feeling that it's because I'm just not that close to them as most kids would be with their parents. Sucks that I've delayed moving in with her for two days because, deep inside, I desperately want to get out of my house ASAP. As much as I "love" my parents, I just needed to get away from the fights, mental, & emotional abuse that I've grown up with for basically my entire life.

And to top it all off, my brother and I got into a heated argument last night just because I plainly pointed out that he tends to peek into my private stuff and make fun of me for it, and he got so furious that he exploded, telling everyone (my parents were in the car) all about my rants that were very, very crucial between us, calling me "pathetic" and a "loser who can't turn her life around". Like... I'm trying by moving out of this hellhole, first of all... He's young, he doesn't understand completely what depression is, but it just... hurts...

All this garbage in my life makes me not want to live anywhere past 30 years old, like... I'm trying, but these people aren't making my life easier. I swear, if I ended up dead, my parents would be crying, wondering how they could have ChAnGeD or be like, "OMG, like, if only we done blah blah differently..."

I am DEEPLY SORRY, @MaroonAbalone! It does seem like a REALLY difficult situation. Yes, unfortunately people who don't have depression have an hard time fully understanding it. Moving in with your friends seems like the wisest choice to me. Hopefully that will give you some Peace and you'll start feeling better soon. Please NEVER give up Hope! Your Life is important and you know that. I'm also DEEPLY SORRY for what happened with your brother. I'm so sorry things are being so hard in general. Definitely get away from them as soon as you can. You're doing the right thing for yourself and for your own Mental Health. Please be kind to yourself. Feel free to PM me ANYTIME whenever you wish to talk about this or anything that is on your Mind. I'm SURE PLENTY of others will gladly help you and listen to you as well. Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH You, @MaroonAbalone, and ALL Of Your Friends and Loved Ones! I am SO SORRY that you're hurting SO MUCH!

Thank you so much for the love and support, Mickey! <3 I appreciate it a ton, it's just so aggravating to grow up with parents that have a mindset that because I've expressed stupid actions in the past, I'm going to be incapable of living independently. I need to learn and grow, not be ridiculed and shut down every single time! They're so damned stubborn that whenever I'm trying to criticize their actions, I feel like I'm arguing with a stone wall. Nothing goes through their ears!

Just need a break...