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I have been diagnosed with major depression, anxiety, PTSD. I have been dealing with major guilt and regret a lot. I just can't seem to get over it. I am seeing a counselor on medications, etc. I had a decent job, got stressed out because working with severe disabled people and lack of cooperation at the job. Well I had an opportunity to move to work with others, just quit that job. Got another with a construction company, and was doing good washing trucks til I worked on job sites and was treated by crap by others. I got another job after that, and was going to be a commuting job and I did not want to commute, etc This is when things definitely spiraled down. I tried to overdose on my clonazepam not knowing it wouldn't do anything. My father had to take me to ER and was sent home. I was then taken to my regular doctor who put me back on an antidepressant I was on before and took me off clonazipam. I felt really guilty for putting my dad in that position to have to deal with my decisions. Yeah I know your dad cared to do that. It doesn't clear the guilt exactly. Well, I moved forward got another job. Well, the feeling low and getting a new job was too much for me. I worked for a week. I just felt confident, I was telling myself I can't do this too much to deal with. I told work I can't come in, dealing with emotional issues. Then I didn't go in the next day. This is the same day that I felt so overwhelmed with myself feelings, not thinking I could cope anymore.
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Hello & Welcome, WantPeaceofMind. These repeated unpleasant work experiences and tension with your parent(s) are not helpful. Can you and your dog get away from things for a few days? Would you be safe? Could you relax and clear your mind? Can you relax? __________________ My dog mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it. |
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I'm sorry to hear you're feeling this bad, WantPeaceofMind
Maybe you feel you're being dragging down into a dark spyral also because you've been into a lot of stressful experience You seem strong but you're still a human... It's ok to feel low It would be great to find a better support in this moment to help you to take care of yourself... because you seem nice and caring It's just you're having a difficult time Please don't feel so guilty |
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Thank you for your reply. I am trying to make goals of going to my apartment to stay a night here and there. I want to feel confident to stay their on my own and tell myself to go to work if I am going to continue getting past what I am fearful of I guess.
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Thank you for saying I'm strong. I guess I am still here and moving on some how.
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