All I Know

I am done trying to talk. Done trying to feel anything but how I think. Nobody truly cares anyway. I say "I want to die" is answered back with "join the club" or "me too". Those answers would be concerning- except these are things I hear even for mundane things like "I'm tired" .. and others, it's almost anything I say concerning me gets those replies.

Examples of what I may say to elicit those responses:
- I'm hungry
- I'm bored
- I had a bad childhood
- Sometimes I feel I cannot breathe
- I want to die
- I want to kill myself
- I'm tired
- I've been busy all day

And that's just a few. So those responses to my statement "I want to die" is not concerning to me anymore.

I am just tired of being a nobody. So - I am done trying.

Crypts_Of_The_Mind

You are not alone.
We are both still here.

Crypts.

i hear ya, i really do. i'm like a ghost (invisible) .....

Hugs to you Crypts and all that feel like no one cares.
Self love. If you feel tired--don't feel guilty about resting (hugs if you can't rest because you are tired at work); If you are hungry because of lack of funds--I am sorry about this (I remember that you are struggling financially ); I am glad you are talking about the bad childhood but feel it/acknowledge it but try not to think about it constantly because thinking about it too much hinders your progress.

Hope things get better. Hope you can find hope somehow.

Those were just examples of things I may say. I do not live in constant hunger, for instance. M y childhood was bad, yes - but it does not often come to surface much. These statements in this post have nothing really to do with my childhood, but rather my adult life in the present.

I understand and appreciate you are caring and trying to be helpful so please do not see my response as being negative on any way. It is simply me clearing yo p any confusion. Much love to you n all.

But, crypt you are not a nobody. I've felt the same recently. Hugs

You exist my dear.I do feel I am nobody,invisible.That is the feeling others have programmed in me.But I still exist like you.We need to increase our own vaule,nobody else will do it for us.We need to validate ourselves.Hugs.

Your feelings are COMPLETELY valid, @Crypts_Of_The_Mind! I COMPLETELY AGREE WITH WHAT ALL THE OTHER WISE, WONDERFUL POSTERS HAVE ALREADY WISELY SAID BETTER THAN I EVER COULD! I am SO SORRY for what you're going through! I am here for you if that helps. You know you can always reach out to me. Please do that if you wish to do so and need help and advice! Please be kind to yourself! You know you are important, you matter, you're worth it, you're wise and you're wonderful! Don't let ANYONE tell you that is NOT true because IT IS! Remember that your feeling are ALWAYS valid BECAUSE THEY ARE! Feel free to PM me ANYTIME as usual if you need advice and support! Don't be afraid to reach out to me or ANYONE HERE! I am SURE plenty of people will also GLADLY AND WONDERFULLY HELP YOU OUT IF YOU JUST ASK! Sending many safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Crypts_Of_The_Mind, your family, your friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Please do keep fighting and do keep rocking as much as you possibly can like you're already WONDERFULLY doing ALL and ENTIRELY by YOURSELF and ALL and ENTIRELY ON YOUR OWN! KEEP FIGHTING AND KEEP ROCKING!

Honestly - this is not a consistent feeling like it used to be - but if I do not vent it out when it's there, I get sucked in by it. I went 35yrs with constant depression. Now, it comes n goes- mostly when a new "traumatic event" happens (death if a loved one/pet, end of relationship, etc)

If you've helped one person, just one, do you feel a bit useful? I know my username changed, and I'm also trying to leave the past alone, but honest to god your life has helped mine just by your sharing your life a bit. You asked me questions I could not answer on a public forum in great detail. But you got the ball rolling, you guided me to question my thinking. For that I am truly grateful.

I am glad I was able to help guide you, but don't give me too much credit - you are the one who did what needed done in your life. And yes, helping others allows me to feel useful .. this particular day I was feeling invalidated and ignored and it frustrated me beyond belief. Helping others is always a goal for me. Sometimes it helps me feel better about my life.

Hope things are looking up for you. *hugs*

I can tell you I've felt invalidated and ignored today too but that won't help. Being useful does help. Yes I do have to do the work to get in a better place. Still trying.
Sorry I talk about myself. Don't know what to say except I hope you have better days and someone irl can stop ignoring and make you feel validated crypts. You DO matter.

Relating to others with similar personal experiences is the best way to help sometimes. No need to apologize for that. Thank you for your kindness. I hope you will not feel invalidated or ignored either.

Sorry I missed this. I hope you do not still believe yourself to be a ghost. That's a terrible feeling and I don't feel anyone should be treated in such a manner to bring that feeling. I hope you are doing better now. ❤❤

hugs and love to you