Daily headaches and OCD thinking

Hello all,

For the past 7 years I have been treated for anxiety and depression. I all started with a blow to the back of my head during boxing. All scans (CT and MRI) of my brain showed no concussion but I started having panic attacks constantly. I began treatment for the anxiety but it would always morph. It turned into panic attacks with depersonalization and I would try to treat that and then it was depersonalization with constant health anxiety and I would change meds to treat that. Then anxiety with headaches and I would change meds to treat that. And so on. One staple of my treatment was use of Xanax and over the years I worked up to 4mg a day. Recently I was weaned off that and now I feel naked without it because my anxiety is bad. I deal with OCD thoughts of suicide when I don't want suicide.

I am on Nortryptaline as of two weeks ago and have been off the Xanax for about a month or so. They used Clonazapam to get me off of that and I have weaned down on the Clonazapam where I am taking 1mg in the morning and 1mg in the evening but it does nothing noticeable. I am still anxious/stressed every morning and depressed with the OCD thoughts about death and suicide. Unfortunately I have daily headaches now too and I don't know what to attribute them to. The Nortryptaline? Stress and Anxiety? Or being off of the Xanax. I can take OTC meds and they do nothing for the headache. I was prescribed 800mg Ibuprofen and a muscle relaxer a few nights ago and that combo still doesn't touch the headache. It's miserable and this morning I woke up first thing in the morning in a bad mood. After a full nights sleep waking up in a foul mood to start your Saturday just sucks. I have tried so many meds and I just don't tolerate things well. One might make my suicidal thoughts worse so I get off of it and take another, which then makes my anxiety worse so I get off of that one and...you get the idea. If I could just figure out what is causing these headaches now, at least that would remove one agitator from the mix.

Thank you,
Chad

I'm sorry I don't have anything to offer with regard to your headaches. But I noticed no one else had yet replied to your post. So I thought I would. I know you mentioned having had CT scans & MRI's of the brain. Have you ever had yourself checked out neurologically for such things as the possibility of damage to your cervical spine? I would guess a blow to the back of the head could do some damage there as well.

You mentioned struggling with suicidal thoughts. Here's a link to an article, from Psych Central's archives, that offers suggestions for surviving suicidal thoughts:

How to Survive Suicidal Thoughts

My best wishes to you...

I'm sending kind thoughts