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Unhappy Sep 22, 2019 at 03:06 PM
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Default Sep 22, 2019 at 03:27 PM
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Your post touched a note with me. From the time I was very small, I was often warned specifically not to tell 'strangers' (that is, anyone not in the immediate family) anything about 'what we're like.' Sometimes the purpose was, I think, to shield them from something truly hair-raising that I might reveal; but often it was about any small detail of home life. Guess they figured, if I didn't dare talk about my home at all, I wouldn't blow their cover. It reminded me of the no-talk rules mentioned in dysfunctional families analysis. . . . It doesn't do much for your ability to know your own feelings--and often you don't tend to trust others easily, do you?
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Your post touched a note with me. From the time I was very small, I was often warned specifically not to tell 'strangers' (that is, anyone not in the immediate family) anything about 'what we're like.' Sometimes the purpose was, I think, to shield them from something truly hair-raising that I might reveal; but often it was about any small detail of home life. Guess they figured, if I didn't dare talk about my home at all, I wouldn't blow their cover. It reminded me of the no-talk rules mentioned in dysfunctional families analysis. . . . It doesn't do much for your ability to know your own feelings--and often you don't tend to trust others easily, do you?
Thanks for sharing your experience.
Thanks for sharing. I can relate.

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I was always told as a cub, "that children should be seen and not heard..."

Victorian proverb's used to excuse neglect....
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I'm sorry you continue to struggle with all of this Fuzzy. I wish you great peace in your life. I've written before, here on PC, that had I been a normal child I think I might have had pretty good parents, at least in terms of how parenting was done at the time. Unfortunately I was far from a normal child. Somehow, I don't know how, I learned there were things about myself I must never tell anyone. And so I didn't. And, over time, this "not talking" spread to many other things as well that I could have talked about had I known how. Some of what I hid I've never divulged to this day. I'll take all with me to the crematorium...

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I'm sorry that some of you were taught that emotions are shameful. Hiding them becomes very painful.
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It was very much that way with me for as long as I was with my parents. I was not supposed to talk about any problems about my family to anyone else. Also my parents were very much into lying a lot, especially my father. If I had confronted them about lying, they would say that "I'm talking foolish". On the other hand, I got a good scolding if they found out I lied to them.

I can very much relate to "keeping the emotions in". Whenever I got yelling at them, they would tell me that they will put me into an institution. Because expressing myself being mad was not normal and it was considered a mental case.
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I think both my parents did the best they could with what they knew. From their perspective I can understand a bit, but not all of it.

I relate to the shame, blame, and I was also told I'd be shamed for something, never really understanding what they meant. But that feeling of "hide", I get you on that. Hide the emotion or you'll be told your stupid, or weak. Hide, from their chaos.

I hope you do get peace from this.
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When I was young I was torn between urges to speak up and hide.
Perhaps poorly socialized, I too often spoke up in ways that marked me as odd.
Through the years - and it required many years - I have become much more careful with when, where, and how I speak.
Now I am mostly a recluse.


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When I was young I was torn between urges to speak up and hide.
Perhaps poorly socialized, I too often spoke up in ways that marked me as odd.
Through the years - and it required many years - I have become much more careful with when, where, and how I speak.
Now I am mostly a recluse.

I've been called odd too

I think I am much more careful now where, when, how and with whom I speak

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Odd? I think I have been called this... Certainly treated that way

Why do they judge us? Why can we not be accepted AS IS? Grrrrr

I prefer to be a recluse too....

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Default Sep 26, 2019 at 02:30 PM
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That sounds familiar, Rohag, that oscillation between the inclination to speak up and hide. The periodic assumptions of oddness by others and a tendency to be a recluse feel familiar too. I know how difficult this can be. My dogs help with the recluse part . . . wonder if yours do too.
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there is also some oscillation here.

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Odd? I think I have been called this... Certainly treated that way

Why do they judge us? Why can we not be accepted AS IS? Grrrrr

I prefer to be a recluse too....

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Why do they judge us? It really does get very boring.

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I was always told as a cub, "that children should be seen and not heard..."

Victorian proverb's used to excuse neglect....
There is no excuse for neglect. I was always told this too


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Why do they judge us? It really does get very boring.

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Maybe they judge us to raise their own self esteem and ego's???

Putting us down make them feel higher up

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