Looking for accountability partners, #4

I hope you start feeling better.

I ran more errands today and listened to a webinar by an expert on happiness plus more of The Tapping Summit. The happiness webinar was good and had helpful tips. I should have my errands completed by Tuesday. Thank goodness. I’m doing well today. I’ve relaxed during breaks with a good book and some good movies.

I wish everyone well and send warm regards for a peaceful Sunday.

I'm feeling better this morning. I went to bed early. I've been putting groceries away. And I started cooking my dirty rice. Hope to finish it soon. Later I will open packages then relax for the rest of the day. Hope everyone has a good Sunday!

I have to go out every day next week and I feel like I have a brain cramp from all of the inner work so I’m relaxing today. I went for a walk and sat out in the sun to clear my mind. I think I’ll put the inner work aside for awhile. I plan to paint, watch movies and cook dinner later.

Warm regards to everyone for a peaceful week ahead.

This spring it seems extremely hard to come out of the feeling of hopelessness and to come into a good sleep routine. So here I am. ( I think this is the after effect of the my winter-SAD, not the SAD itself. The weather has been so bad).

My main focus will be on creating good sleeping habits over the next weeks, doing some work in the home every day, may be using an 1/4 of an hour to write down some thoughts for a project I am interested in, walk half an hour after breakfast most of the days and make healthy meals.

For now I will work half an hour on my "methods to use" notes from earlier. Eat and then work half an hour in the home. I will come back and tell when these items are met.

Be well all!

Jennifer, it is of course not of my business how you use your nights, but as far as I know there is no scientific literature that advise people to be active in the night if they cannot sleep. Activity might give rise to more "stay awake" feelings.

I write this in case you don't know. It is not meant as a correction! May be it is something you can use next time you cannot sleep?

I'm working with my own sleep habits. If one cannot sleep, one is to step out of bed and focus, not on being active, but on things that make one stay calm like reading a book or similar and after that go to bed again.

If it interests you, you can do a search on Internet to find out!

Best greetings from a friend who wish you well!

I have used my notes and repeated some strategies from the book "Breaking the patterns of depression". I have had a meal, but am too tired to go on with the work in the home (and I even feel hungry - my diabetes speaking?).

I think what I just wrote is an illustration of why I don't reach my goals. The tiredness is too strong and it is difficult to select tools/topics to use on my way forward. I used too much energy on reading my notes, the book and on eating (self comfort is needed ).

I will need to not see this as not reaching goals, but as needing to change coping strategy with regard to the home work when less energy available. I WILL NOT GIVE IN!

Hoping everyone feels good!

I have done three separated 10 minutes work in the home. A lot more is needed.

- I will go to bed this evening between 23:00 and 23:30, but first I will eat a porridge.

- I will lie in bed at least one hour if I cannot sleep.

- In case I have to get up, I will read slow, boring stuff before I go to bed again.

- UP next morning at 08:00 even if I feel for more sleeping - Wash hand and face

- Breakfast

- GO OUT WALKING FOR 30 MINUTES

- Decide what is best to do for the nearest hours.

(Here I have focused on my goals for the time being; sleep, physical activity and healthy eating).

I send good thoughts your way!

I'm having a difficult day today. I slept until noon. And that was because I felt sad. I did manage a few chores around the house and I cut up a tomato today. I also did some art work and I read for a while. Since I slept so much, I'm trying to stay awake this evening. Maybe I will play a game for a while. Hope everyone is well today.

I took one relative for lab work then helped another relative for most of the day. I also listened to a masterclass. It’s been a pretty relaxing day aside from one panic attack and I’m happy with what I’ve accomplished.

Tomorrow I have three engagements: the dentist, a single ladies supper club and a movie. In between those times I will work some on my household project.

Warm regards to all for a peaceful Tuesday.

Yesterday, on Sunday, had a much better day than Saturday since accomplished some of my goals I had for the weekend, do my taxes, apply for one job, and grocery shopped. Also did laundry and cleaned some. Unfortunately managed to strain my back when doing some housework and it’s gradually getting better, but ouch. Now need to meet my goals of studying for a certification/registration test and didn’t do it this weekend since relaxeD Saturday and did other things Sunday. Sometimes it’s just a lot and almost overwhelming. Happy Monday to everyone.

I'm feeling better this morning. It's early. I've been getting ready for my day. And I've been playing a game. Later I will clean litter boxes and open packages. I also plan to read and play more games. Today should be a light day for me. I might make myself some sausage and biscuits for breakfast. Hope all of you have a wonderful Tuesday!

As you can see I managed to go to bed early and to do my "morning-rituals". It was sunny when I walked and the temperature was 39,2 F (04 C), no wind. Since I was dressed for the temperature I sat outside reading in the sun for a little while. My low blood glucose, however, forced me inside to eat and rest on the sofa. I felt down when I rested, but after a while the blood glucose was on it's way up again. That gave me hope.

For the moment I have to accept that I have to live with lots of tiredness, but that when rested there may be energy left for the work in the home.

After lunch I will work in the cycles 10 minutes on and 10 minutes off.

Sending good thoughts your way!

DONE!

Tomorrow (Wednesday) I hope to get these things done:

- Up at 08:00
- Breakfast
- Shower
- Put the dishwasher to work
- Get my hair cut
- Visit grocery shop
- Decide how to use the rest of the day

When it comes to my main-goals: ("My main focus will be on creating good sleeping habits over the next weeks, doing some work in the home every day, may be using an 1/4 of an hour to write down some thoughts for a project I am interested in, walk half an hour after breakfast most of the days and make healthy meals.")

I am still working on my sleep habits (go to bed between 23:00 and 23:00 tonight). Work in the home (at least put the dishwasher to work). I skip the walk outside tomorrow, not because I want to run away form it, but because I understand that I will not have enough energy to both get my hair cut and to do the walk.

My PRIVATE project HAS not started yet. I ate healthy today and have already planned my dinner for tomorrow. All in all I feel that I have made a good caring plan for myself for tomorrow ( because that is what it is about for me; to make the best out of it; a life that is valuable and joyful in spite of everything ).

Am sending good thoughts your way!

I woke up between 04:00 and 05:00 in the morning. I had a long period without sleep and in the end I overslept. I was so sleepy at the breakfast table, that it was impossible to concentrate. As if that wasn't enough I took a double portion of medication (didn't remember that I already had taken them). Praise God, I didn't swallow my sleeping pills as well. But to have taken a double dose of my diabetes medication can make my blood glucose too low. So that's it ...

I have been sitting here thinking depressive thoughts ("I'm no good", you know).

At one point I come to the conclusion that repeating about global thinking vs detailed thinking, locus of control vs the illusion of control (in Dr Yapco's book) would be a wise "thing" to do. That made me think that the day isn't spoiled. I have to rethink how I will use it with little energy and with the danger of getting too low in the level of my blood glucose.

I cut out the plan of going to get my hair cut. I will wash instead of shower today. Then I will put the dishwasher to work as planned and walk to the nearest grocery (it is very close) and bringing dextose along so I'm not in danger in the grocery shop.

When home again I will decide if I want to do something in the house or if I want to relax today. This doesn't seem like the way I expected it to be, but hopefully it will become a day where I feel that I have the control to decide what to do with this day. (It was not on purpose that this day have to different then decided yesterday).

It is almost funny; Dr. Yapco is an atheist, but his methods, CBT, is in line with the Bible. He is really good at explaining CBT in a way I have never seen elsewhere. CBT is the one psychological method that can be said to be closest to the Christian and Biblical view of us human beings, according to Stanton L. Jones and Richard E. Butman in "Modern Psycho-Therapies" (perhaps along with psychdynamic short time therapy they tell).

It is about choices. The Bible refers to a lot of choices that can either bring us luck or misery. (Examples: Stay in bed and you will feel more tired. Do good and you will feel good ... ).

To me Yapco's "Breaking the patterns of depression" is second after the Bible.

Am sending good thoughts your way!

I had to go to bed. I was so sleepy that it was difficult to sit upright in the sofa. The blood glucose became so low that it could have been dangerous to me. (If one loses consciousness while asleep and nobody finds one, well then ... ) Before I went to bed I ate dextrose (sugar), oranges and food with honey to reduce the risk.

I feel fine now, but will "take the day off", - just relax.

I think that there is no other way then to accept it when extraordinary experiences occurs and then go on with life as best one can afterward.

For tomorrow (Thursday) I will plot down no other plans than go to the Gym for group training. I will do what I find necessary there and then and relax when I feel for it.

May your Thursday be good for you!

I think overall I’m feeling down about some life circumstances. I’ll work on that as I have lots of tools in the toolkit. Today has been relaxed for me. I’ve had a smoothie, supplements and been reading a book. Tonight I’ll go to church for dinner and work on my household project before my meeting tonight. I’ll answer the question “What can I do today?” for Thursday when I wake up tomorrow.

Warm wishes to all for a peaceful Thursday.

I feel much better. Had a great meal at church, made progress with my project and enjoyed my meeting. I intend to have a good day tomorrow.

Warm regards to all.

I had my doctor's appointment yesterday. It went well. Last night I finished one of my books I've been reading. I'm looking forward to the next book. This morning I'm doing laundry, organizing and cleaning my bedroom. Later I will clean liter boxes and play games. I might try to do some art. Wish everyone a good Thursday!

I have used this day to relax. The dishwasher and the washing machine has worked without much help from me ( ). I have read in the book (Breaking the Patterns of Depression) and done physical training.

I feel ready to start a new day tomorrow (that will be the second day in my two-week program, since I lost some days). The focus is a usual at my total health. Sleep, walking, healthy meals ... I will skip the walk tomorrow, not because I don't care, but because I have to use my energy on other topics that has to be done

Plans for Friday:

- Up at 08:00
- Breakfast
- Write a list for the grocery shop and the pharmacy
- Visit hairdresser, grocery shop and pharmacy
- Decide how to use the rest of the day
- Hope to have energy enough to clean the bedroom

May your Friday be very good!