Looking for accountability partners, #4

WOW, hope the gong therapy gave you some relief.

My blood glucose is still too high, but lower than yesterday. Feel tired. Have a lot of things to do in the home (because I didn't have the energy to do them during the worst SAD and now with the tiredness because of the high level of my blood glucose).

I have decided to not to start to self blame because of how it looks here. I have to do it slowly today, during next week and perhaps the week after there.

One needs a really good mental health to be able to stay in all this mess. At least it demands patience...

After writing this I will do a short bible-study to get myself more connected to God. After that a quick hygiene, walk to the cash dispenser and then grocery and pharmacy. I will rest for a while when home again and then 10 minutes on and ten minutes off to start to get order out of all the mess here.

May everybody feel well (enough)!

Kept busy today. I cleaned litter boxes, emptied the trash, did self-care, pet care, went through my mail and opened boxes/packages. I slept a lot too. I guess I was tired. I also played some games.

Hope everyone is well!

Am tired! Will try to, at least, work one hour with ten minutes on and off. I have to start somewhere. Was too tired to do anything after visiting the grocery shop yesterday. So here I am in my try to fight my messy home while at the same time trying to be calm, relaxed and encouraging.

Be well (enough) all!

I did a lot of chores today. I feel good about that. I even did some art. I am tired now. Will try to meditate. Hope everyone is well today!

My plan was to organize and paint for fun today but my mother and brother required attention. Tomorrow I plan see my therapist, grocery shop, clean house, run errands and read a book for a Friday meet up. I’d rather get some stuff out of the way Monday since I have events and appointments every day through Sunday and I’ll have to take is easy to make those happen.

I hope everyone has a wonderful week ahead. Warm regards to all.

I am satisfied with my start to get order in my home yesterday (3 working periods 10 minutes each). I ate healthy, according to my Diabetes and I visited the Church and did my TMD exercises.

Today I shall continue with the ten minutes on an off work in the home and do almost the same as yesterday to take good care of my health. (I will skip the gym because I think that using time on the de-cluttering is better for my health). My blood glucose is still too high, but better. I will do my TMD exercises and eat healthy. Try to make a good balance between rest and activity. (Am glad because I have been given the order to rest after making a meal. To be able to feel good enough with the energy that is at my disposal is important to me).

Hope everybody will have a good Monday!

Started self-care and pet care early this morning. Also started working on my kitchen. I'll order groceries again today and will try to paint. I'm playing a game at the moment. It's a nice break in the action. Will mainly relax for the remainder of the day. I hope everyone is well. Happy Monday, all!

Will try to leave my house twice this week. Wish me luck. Tomorrow I'm dropping my male cat off at the vet. I think he has a urinary tract infection. And then Friday I see my med provider. Doesn't seem too bad to do at the moment. I will try to think positive thoughts about it. Friday will be quick and easy. And tomorrow will be simple. I don't have to be there for an appointment. They will take him early so they can get a urine sample. And then they'll examine him later. I just go in the afternoon and pick him up. Hope I can get him in the carrier.

Wish all of you well today!

I'm trying to move around more and eat more healthfully. So far this morning, I'm doing both. After hanging out here at PsychCentral for awhile, I plan on doing some yoga.

This day I have felt happy! My blood glucose has become better during the day. I will eat a porrige of oat before I go to bed and see if that has an impact on the morning blood glucose. (I don't know if it is of interest, but diabetes isn't done with medication alone. The same rules go here as for depression. Healthy food and physical activity is just as important as medication).

I have got a lot done this day and feel proud. Tomorrow after breakfast, I will make the plan for the day!

A good afternoon and evening to all!

Doing well today. I visited my therapist, ran some errands, cleaned my car and am about to tackle dinner and the ice maker. Going to talk to my daughter later tonight. It’s been a good day.

Warm regards to all

Tomorrow I plan on having a relaxing day. I will exercise in the morning, meet mom for lunch and spa pedicures and finish it off with a $5 movie. This came about because I realized I’m hyper focused on my to do list and need to build in more fun and self care. This is a good start.

I hope everybody has a peaceful Tuesday.

I went to work and might go to a church thing tonight if I feel up to it.

I'm very stressed about tomorrow. I have to go the the vet twice. Once to drop off my cat and then later to pick him up. I also have an important phone call I have to make. I don't feel well tonight. I'm just very anxious. The best I can hope for is short trips to the vet and lots of meditating/sleep. None of my hobbies interest me anymore. I'll do the best I can. Hope everyone has a good day tomorrow!

I’m thinking of you and wishing you well on dropping off and picking up your cat and on your phone call. Sending safe hugs and supportive vibes.

Thank you so much. I think I will reschedule the vet appointment. My cat seems to be doing fine. He was fine yesterday too. So maybe next week when I don't have anything going on I can go to the vet. Plus it will give me time to get him used to his carrier.

I appreciate the support. I think my phone call today is about all I can handle. Hope you and everyone are doing well.

I am so happy because you have realized that!

I am not focused at doing as much as possible, but I have got the impression that you are. To use schedules has a special function to me. It helps me to focus on something else than depressive thoughts. Without a schedule it is difficult for me to keep my focus on to direct my energy on manageable activities like doing necessary things in my house that will overwhelm me if I let them pile up. Nobody will do it for me if I let it pile up. It is a way to keep focus away from overthinking about the past or worry about the future as well.

I have four physical diseases that I need to take care of. I would have been very happy if they disappeared, but they never will be and at least one of them will become worse as time goes. My aim is to live in the here and now and live a life that is as good as it is possible. It is my life and I want the most out of it. The best way I can do that is to make the borders between this time and that time of the day. The depression I had after a very terrible experience became chronic because I didn't get proper help at the right time. There will always be a rest depression to cope with, so by staying in the here and now (with my time disposed in a balanced way) I hope to not be too much touched by it).

It is not the schedule in itself that helps. The schedule is a frame around all the tools (methods) I have learned myself as years has passed. A schedule without well learned other methods would be without meaning for me (and probably for most people).

I don't like doing cleaning and other things in the home!!! But they have to be done. If I had had the money to pay somebody to do the work my home, I would have done it, be sure. But I don't have that money. I cannot understand that it is something to compete about. May be you don't feel that it is competing. May be you don't feel good enough when others do much and have to do more and more to be acceptable to yourself? It is not for me to answer that question. Only you and your therapist can find out of that together. A diagnosis is only a categorising of some symtoms, but behind the diagonoses are unique persons that might be very, very different. Find your own way Jennifer! You are a valuable person! (We all are as created in the immage of God).


Let me try to say it this way about me making schedules: If I am invited out to a party, I am happy for the invitation, but I know that I will need to portion out my energy wisely. Get my cloth done some days before. Get enough rest before I go and do relaxation exercises to fall into sleep after the party. All these things will be scheduled according to their importance to my general health.

I think this is what Dr. Yapco meant while he talked about not let any time being out of a schedule. He is very much for fun and doing things that one likes (and so am I). But it is important to have a frame around everything to not become exhausted or to fall into depressed thinking.

If you need fun, give a da** in the housework, schedule five hours where you are not allowed to do anything, but schedule what to do when the five hours have passed as well.

This is a thread about how to be able to do the necessary things that has to be done when people are low in energy (feel depressed). It is not a competing thread or a thread to get done as much as possible.


Take your time to enjoy life, Jennifer, as much as you can, and please don't tell me that I have hurt your feelings again. I felt like I got a slap in my face last time. I don't want to feel that again! (It took me some time to get over it).

Hope the movie is good. Enjoy the time with your mother!

May your day be very good!

I'm sorry to hear that! Hope your energy to have interests come back to you soon!

The oat porridge yesterday did not help my level of blood glucose.

I was very tired when I woke up this morning. So there will not be much energy to do much. I need to buy something in the grocery store. I will go there and at the same time buy a can of soup to heat. I don't feel for making dinner today. I will only put the washing machine to work while I use Net-Flix. That's how I will take care of myself today, according to the energy that is to my disposition.

I look forward to the summer when it is possible to use a lot of time outside and feel happy only because of the good weather!


May each one of you feel happy with being yourselves!