[puzzclar]

I've been rather bored lately... I need to get habits going, but it's hard.

I still need to do what Elsa suggested, to go into the unknown, (Elsa from Frozen, the movie)

But how?

[bpcyclist]

I am doing okay, just really tired from the new meds.

[will19]

Not too exciting of a day today. I didn't clean my place this morning because I had already done it last Thursday when the weather was bad. Instead I did laundry in the morning and went shopping before lunch.

Nothing much after that. I just came back from a one-hour bike ride. Just going to watch a movie tonight. I hope it will be good. The movies I had been watching lately haven't been good. I all I do is just watch a movie every Saturday night by myself. Life should be better than that.

[zapatoes]

Need to exercise more as this does make me feel better physically and mentally. Sometimes lately feel as though I’m eating similar to when I was 10 to 15 years younger and jogging 2-4 miles a few days per week. Need to make an effort to exercise inside since the weather is cold and often rainy now.

Had a nice time visiting family for Thanksgiving and now back home, glad to see my dog. Just feeling lonely and sad now that the Thanksgiving is over.

[will19]

So far not a great morning. I felt very depressed this morning when I got up. I felt better after I ate. I went to a church and didn't like it right away - like it's always been. I guess I won't be going for the next few weeks because of the Christmas season. I never liked going to church in December.

Called my sister after I got home but she couldn't talk because she was taking a nap. I don't know if we'll talk later. I feel bad for disturbing her nap. On the hand, I should have known better not to call her since it's never a good time to call when I feel like it.

[WastingAsparagus]

Just not sure I am on the right meds still. I wish I could have a magic elixir to get rid of all my problems. I wish there was a pill to help with obsessive-compulsive behavior though. Dang. I thought it was Xanax that helped with that but the problem is that the Xanax makes me extremely depressed and not feel like doing anything.

So I took an extra 5 mg Zyprexa today because my pdoc said I could if I was feeling depressed.

[Mountaindewed]

My SAD is awful today. I want it to be summer so badly. These next few months are going to be brutal. It’s like that book by Laura Ingals Wilder “The Long Winter” I’m not even really feeling the holiday spirit the way I used to.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 2daffodils

Slumberkitty I hope you are ok and your dad is going to be ok.

I'm down but I'm still ok... deep down I know whatever happens I'm going to do the best I can in the moments to come. I'm angry and grieving. I know the process from some bit of therapy. Denial, bargaining, anger, grief, ACCEPTANCE. I hope I sleep I'm sore.

That true about grief

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Very slow at work today. Seemed like no one was at work. Nothing much to talk about. I have been feeling OK lately. The weekend is just starting. I feel pretty good when it just starts, but usually I feel depressed the most on Saturday afternoon after the shopping ends. And then that depressed feeling lingers on Sunday. It's usually very bad on Sunday morning. I hope that it gets better this weekend but I don't see anything really great that's going to happen.

I'm sorry that you are feeling depressed on weekends.

[Fuzzybear]

Grrrrrrrrrrrr

[3rd rock]

Done current rewrite of current project. Only minor tweaks left before release. But I have no idea what I'm going to do after this one's out.

[3rd rock]

One of my budgies is probably going to die very soon. She's suffered from what looks like a prolapsed cloaca associated with difficulty in laying eggs. She's laid a couple of eggs recently and was working on another. I hope she'll make it through the night but it doesn't look likely.

[Fuzzybear]

Grrrrrrrrrrrr

[Yzen]

In pain this morning. Having to work through it.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling Okay. Just taking it one step at a time.

[3rd rock]

She made it through the night but isn't eating much. I'm going to the store to buy a syringe (w/o needle) and some baby food to feed her to keep her strength up.

[3rd rock]

Well, she died in my hands, less than 24 hours after first displaying signs of illness. She was listless and hardly moving, but then just before the moment of death she had a burst of activity like she was frantically trying to get away from death. Then she died. I'm so sad right now.

[Spirit of Trees]

I don't feel terrible personally, but my country's issues weigh heavily on me.

[will19]

Another slow day at work. However, the reason it's so slow is because so many people now are working at home. So that is hurting my job a great deal. I think it stinks. Not having people at the office is creating isolation. I know that I like having alone times, but I'm not crazy about ultimate isolation.

Also I have been thinking about some people in my life that seem selfish. I feel like I have to put myself out for them to cultivate the relationship. They refuse to put themselves out for me.

[sky457]

....depressed and alone....I feel alone....it hasnt been a great start to the holidays....want to call out of work tomorrow....but I won't have anything to do out of work....theres just so much that has happened in the past few months....chaos...drama....harassment...it has weighed on me so much....