[SlumberKitty]

I'm depressed and anxious today. Dad was having chest pains this morning, and he went to the ER. Mom went with him. They did a bunch of tests, it wasn't a heart attack but they are going to admit him for observation. I hope he is okay. I don't know what I would do without him. So I'm pretty stressed out. Want to leave work early but it's not a good time, business wise, with the owner here. But I really want to be with my Dad.

Slumberkitty I hope you are ok and your dad is going to be ok.

I'm down but I'm still ok... deep down I know whatever happens I'm going to do the best I can in the moments to come. I'm angry and grieving. I know the process from some bit of therapy. Denial, bargaining, anger, grief, ACCEPTANCE. I hope I sleep I'm sore.

[will19]

Very slow at work today. Seemed like no one was at work. Nothing much to talk about. I have been feeling OK lately. The weekend is just starting. I feel pretty good when it just starts, but usually I feel depressed the most on Saturday afternoon after the shopping ends. And then that depressed feeling lingers on Sunday. It's usually very bad on Sunday morning. I hope that it gets better this weekend but I don't see anything really great that's going to happen.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling sort of Okay this morning. Been eating comfort food. I haven't used food to cope in ages. My stomach is a little upset. Will try to eat better for the rest of the day.

I'm doing so little with my day it should be thought of as a crime

very, very depressed

and in a lot of pain

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

I'm doing so little with my day it should be thought of as a crime

very, very depressed

and in a lot of pain

It's Okay if you take it easy today. Be kind and gentle with yourself. Hope you feel better soon.

[3rd rock]

I want to leave this city so much. I had another dream last night about becoming a successful author, which I think is an expression of my desire for freedom. I want to move away and build a new life.

[bpcyclist]

Physically exhausted from a giant workout early this morning. Seems like the bigger the workout, the better I feel afterward. Some sort of connection between my mood stuff and exercise. I dunno. Whatever, I'm gonna go with it. If it works, I'm doing it.

[will19]

Another Saturday has just passed by. Busy but not exciting. I went to the bank in the early afternoon and felt tense. The bank I go to used to be nice, but not anymore. It has changed. It seems like it's a long time to see a teller because the people with the tellers seem to have complex issues; and it takes about ten minutes. It didn't used to be like that. My impression is that you just go to the window, make a deposit and/or withdraw, and then leave. It should only take 2-3 minutes at the most. Also, while waiting in line, there was a cubicle area to the side of me where the managers are. There was a couple there with loud and screaming kids. It really got on my nerves.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling disappointed. I've been let down. Not sure if there is something wrong with me or what it is. But things aren't working out like I had hoped for. I'm tired of it. I'm going to quit asking for help. Why bother? I'm pretty much invisible anyway.

terrible fibro pain bringing down my all ready low mood.

urg. why are weekends so hard

[Rose76]

My S.O. is back in the hospital. Since leaving the hospital last night, I have felt very unwell. I've been in bed all day today. I feel unwell mentally and physically, but I think it's all mental and a result of feeling like I can't cope.

[Deilla]

I feel Okay today. I reached out to some friends I hadn't talked to in a while. It was nice.

I feel like there are no intelligent people to have conversations with. Podcasts help. But I feel lonely in my life experiences.

[will19]

Today was a better day than yesterday. I got a call from my sister and we had a good talk. It doesn't happen all of the time. And then my friend called me this afternoon and I had not heard from him in a while. However, as of now, I got a little set back on the medical news for me. But it's happened before.

Yesterday was not a great day. Very alone. I watched a movie last night and it wasn't very good.

[Rose76]

Slept about 2 hours total. I don't know how I'm going to get through this day . . . . . but time will pass regardless . . . . and the day will become part of the past.

[will19]

A slow and draggy day at work today. Other than that I've been feeling alright emotionally. Last night I called me friend to give him the news of my medical result that was not great for me. Apparently, I guess, I roused him from his sleep. It seemed like he was struggling to talk and that got me very depressed.

I haven't got a clue how to handle how I feel.

[bpcyclist]

Slept just a wee bit more last night. SI is a bit better today, which is great.

[Deilla]

I feel good today. I actually got out a couple of times. Once to pick up meds and another time to shop at Publix. I haven't been inside a grocery store in 3 years. I was able to shop for 15 minutes with minimal pain. I got myself some really nice stuff.