[SlumberKitty]

Pretty depressed today.

[3rd rock]

I can't file my taxes for last year because I can't find my slips sent by my employer. I filed for medical/disability benefits with the government, because my union's benefits have run out. I hope they will pay me a sum that's at least equal to the weekly payments given to me by my union. If not, and it probably will be less, then I'll have to return to work soon, even though I'm medically unwell, because I won't be able to afford to keep on living unless I return to work.

In related matters, my income from writing remains at a very low ebb. I've exceeded $100 CAD this month, but not by much. I used to be making almost $500 CAD per month at my peak. It's very depressing to fail so abjectly.

I can't even think or feel. Just constant confusion. I wish I could know how and what I should do. I regret so much right now, but I also feel very used.

[Deilla]

I feel Okay today. I slept a while. I think that is helpful. Normally I have trouble with sleep. But it's been going well these past few days.

[Rose76]

I got through today. Going to sleep now.

[Deilla]

I was really tired this morning. I did have plans to go out to eat but I cancelled. I didn't feel well. Doing better now. I think I need a nap though.

[3rd rock]

I'm afraid of the way things are turning out. I have only two choices: return to work and work as much as possible despite the high stress, hostile work environment and the severe, chronic mental illness that only gets worse all the time, or, well, you know. I can't find another job and I can't increase my pitiful income from writing. I'm being driven to do one of two things I can't do.

[sky457]

sick today....in a long distance relationship....its really great, but it is straining

[Deilla]

I'm stressed this morning. Two things I tried today didn't work out. I'm frustrated. I'm trying not to let it affect my mood.

Not a wink of sleep. I cant continue like this. If I had any idea of how to make things better I'd be ok. But I accept that this is the way it is for now. Hugs to all struggling here

[3rd rock]

So tired. Getting up this early is pointless.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm sort of okay. I am a little more depressed than usual but not depressed enough to do much about it. Having SH thoughts, but that's pretty normal for me. Work is boring today and I am just waiting for the weekend. Finally got around to doing the homework for Pastor T. That was totally lame though. I'm kind of bored at the moment.

I move in a week. I am feeling overwhelmed. idk what to do about my bed. if I buy her bed it is a little cheaper than hiring a mover. on the other hand I. could sweat it out and figure out how to take apart my bed and rent a truck for cheaper. I wish I had friends to help me. but I'm alone. and I am always so tired on the weekend due to my harsh schedule. idk if I'll be up to taking apart the bed. and I have to clean my apartment and I'm just so overwhelmed by that too.

I am nervous about the roommates. I hope it will be a good situation. the more I think about it the less good they seem. I hate my life.

[Rose76]

My Sig. Other is very sick in the hospital. I'm so worried I might lose him.

[SlumberKitty]

HUGS @Rose76 I hope he will be okay.

[jmariah001]

I'm really struggling right now. I am alone and not feeling that good mentally or physically. I lost my cat back in April and I am still missing him like crazy. I held him while he passed away. He was having seizures. He had FIV. I didn't have the money to have him put down. I know I am a bad cat owner. I struggle with the feeling that his suffering was my fault. Now with no choice of my own I now have two kittens. They were living under my trailer. I didn't want them to freeze. I can't give them up. No one wants kittens and the local animal shelter is full. Plus it's a kill shelter. So I would never give them to that shelter. Just having the kittens has brought up feelings of sadness. I don't think I was ready for more cats. But maybe it was meant to be. He might have sent them to me. I don't know. Sorry for the long post. Just really struggling right now.

Work is hard socially.

I always cry easily.

[will19]

It's been slow at work all week. Today was a kind of day that a few little things went wrong; and some of those incidents were humiliating for me. It seemed like it brought back memories for me when I was a child and couldn't do anything right. Well at least things have calmed down and it's the weekend now. Also I am sick of the heat we've been getting here that's unseasonable.

For Rose, I'm sorry what you are going through with your boyfriend. It seemed like over the years as I recall, it was going to be it for him, and then he'd bounce back. I have you in mind for this.

And for JMariah, I'm sorry to hear about your cat passing away. You are, by all means, not a bad cat owner. I'm sure your cat really loved you for all that you did. And now it's very nice of you to take in those cats. I had a real nice cat one time and it was hard when he passed away.

[Rose76]

Thanks for the kind wishes above.

My bf is in ICU now. His nurse got me a recliner and made me welcome to stay here with him. Sometimes somebody does the nicest thing just when you need that. So I'm grateful. My bf seems comfortable. I am too. For tonight we are all right . . . for now. I'm getting better at limiting my worrying to what matters right now.

[will19]

Feeling pretty bad emotionally today. I was very busy but it didn't help my emotions any. My friend and I talked last night. We couldn't come to an agreement on who should visit who. He said that he was going to call me today, but it's late in the day and he hasn't called. Sounds like a split in our relationship may be in order. If so, then it's going to be awfully hard for me.