[will19]

It feels like it's going to be another very warm day today. Woke up feeling depressed and tired. I guess it's because of the heat. Around 5AM I heard a ship blowing it's horn. I guess ships do that when it's foggy. It was very foggy this morning, but now it's cleared up. I live near a harbor.

I'm doing the laundry now and plan to go bike riding later. After the bike ride, I plan to take it to the shop because it's not working properly. I feel depressed about having to give up the bike for a few days. My bike is like my companion.

Also I have a doctor's appointment on Tuesday for a little treatment. Not looking forward to it.

[puzzclar]

I learned a new technique for crochet it's below. I liked it so much I bought patterns to make, eventually. The cost was just right. I got my assignment in for the week, and am working on the final paper that is due in one week!

No I'm not freaking out that it's due.. at least not yet. I've got a good start and I can write well. But when I speak things get lost in translation, and I'm not understood, or I can't find the word I want to use fast enough.

I'm doing better than Thursday to Friday. I'm liking the changes. I have a lot to learn with this paper and that I hope doesn't trigger me. But I am pushing forward, and trying to move past the fear of opening the castle doors of my mind.

[Mountaindewed]

Oh yeah the depression was there for sure. I didn’t take a shower or change out of the clothes I was wearing from yesterday. I didn’t brush my teeth or my hair. I did do laundry though.

[Buffy01]

I feel really down. I been in tears 😢 today. I been feeling very sensitive today. I feel depressed. I didn't want to take a shower or get out of bed.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Mountaindewed

Oh yeah the depression was there for sure. I didn’t take a shower or change out of the clothes I was wearing from yesterday. I didn’t brush my teeth or my hair. I did do laundry though.

Wow you got further than me today I didn't do anything today.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by puzzclar

I learned a new technique for crochet it's below. I liked it so much I bought patterns to make, eventually. The cost was just right. I got my assignment in for the week, and am working on the final paper that is due in one week!

No I'm not freaking out that it's due.. at least not yet. I've got a good start and I can write well. But when I speak things get lost in translation, and I'm not understood, or I can't find the word I want to use fast enough.

I'm doing better than Thursday to Friday. I'm liking the changes. I have a lot to learn with this paper and that I hope doesn't trigger me. But I am pushing forward, and trying to move past the fear of opening the castle doors of my mind.

Congratulations on learning something new and feeling better.

[will19]

Today turned out to be a nice day for me. I thought that I was going to just take it easy today. WRONG! I decided to do the laundry today instead of tomorrow. It went well.

I had a very nice talk on the phone with my sister. I'm feeling good that, lately, our talks have been going well. There was a time when I would dread getting a call from her.

Went on a bike ride today. My friend had told me that a certain place where I like to ride to was going to be open. I was excited about it, but when I got there, it was still closed. Drats!

The nicest thing that happened for me today was after the bike ride. I took my bike to the shop close to where I live. I had to wait a while to get in because they were allowing only one at a time.
When I got in, I told them about the problem with my bike. I was having shifting problems. The bike was put on a rack and the mechanic made some minor adjustments. That was all that had to be done and I didn't have to leave my bike there! And no charge to boot! I offered to pay something but they didn't want to take it.

[tigerlily84]

Hello, I haven't been on Psychcentral in quite some time... lol. Sorry for disappearing. My lease is up next month and I was panicking because I am in no position mentally or financially to move right now, much less to look for a new apartment. I finally looked at my lease and realized that once the lease is up it will be month to month, but I'm unclear if it will be more money. Hopefully not otherwise I will have to back to my mom's house. Other than that I have been depressed lately and trying to take it one day at a time.

[puzzclar]

I got up early yesterday and slept in today. I have a lot to do and that stuff is adding to my stress level. I honestly hope I'm not working on Thursday for a t appointment, but I won't know for a little bit. I have too much going on and too much to decide about. I'm a bit depressed. And very grateful that I'm not in a mental hospital. Too much is happening and my body wants me to slow down.

I don't want to take a leave of absence!! From school that is. But I'm not giving up my dream, I'm delaying it a few months. Yet I'm scared that I can't do it because of my body.

It's really hard for me. I took two days off last week from work, I want to relax but find myself unable too. Grrr

[Mountaindewed]

I’m honestly not sure how to claw myself out of this. I’m running the couple people I do have ragged. I’m taking benzos like they are candy. I’m spending more then half the day in bed. Things just suck.

[WastingAsparagus]

I feel depressed today. And have been for a few weeks now. I never thought I'd get depressed again after my last episode. Heh. I guess that's false.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by will19

Today turned out to be a nice day for me. I thought that I was going to just take it easy today. WRONG! I decided to do the laundry today instead of tomorrow. It went well.

I had a very nice talk on the phone with my sister. I'm feeling good that, lately, our talks have been going well. There was a time when I would dread getting a call from her.

Went on a bike ride today. My friend had told me that a certain place where I like to ride to was going to be open. I was excited about it, but when I got there, it was still closed. Drats!

The nicest thing that happened for me today was after the bike ride. I took my bike to the shop close to where I live. I had to wait a while to get in because they were allowing only one at a time.
When I got in, I told them about the problem with my bike. I was having shifting problems. The bike was put on a rack and the mechanic made some minor adjustments. That was all that had to be done and I didn't have to leave my bike there! And no charge to boot! I offered to pay something but they didn't want to take it.

Wow you got further than I did today.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by WastingAsparagus

I feel depressed today. And have been for a few weeks now. I never thought I'd get depressed again after my last episode. Heh. I guess that's false.

I understand! I been feeling really depressed myself.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by tigerlily84

Hello, I haven't been on Psychcentral in quite some time... lol. Sorry for disappearing. My lease is up next month and I was panicking because I am in no position mentally or financially to move right now, much less to look for a new apartment. I finally looked at my lease and realized that once the lease is up it will be month to month, but I'm unclear if it will be more money. Hopefully not otherwise I will have to back to my mom's house. Other than that I have been depressed lately and trying to take it one day at a time.

Welcome back to PC. Moving is very stressful doing this stressful time.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by tigerlily84

Hello, I haven't been on Psychcentral in quite some time... lol. Sorry for disappearing. My lease is up next month and I was panicking because I am in no position mentally or financially to move right now, much less to look for a new apartment. I finally looked at my lease and realized that once the lease is up it will be month to month, but I'm unclear if it will be more money. Hopefully not otherwise I will have to back to my mom's house. Other than that I have been depressed lately and trying to take it one day at a time.

I don't know what the law is like where you live, but in most areas it doesn't increase unless they notify you formally. So if your lease is going from month to month and the landlord doesn't actually tell you then your rent won't go up.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by Buffy01

I understand! I been feeling really depressed myself.

I can relate. I have been feeling depressed too. Anxious as well with panic attacks. It sucks!
Hugs.

[Mountaindewed]

My depression has been its lowest in awhile. My doctor said the Wellbutrin would take 6 weeks to work but my therapist said yesterday it might work sooner. I did take a 3 hour nap, but I actually slept the full 3 hours instead of just lying there. I woke up early this morning and I’m cutting back on caffeine so I didn’t have any coffee today.

[will19]

An OK kind of day for me and fairly busy. I left work early for a doctor's appointment. I was dreading it all day. I went and was surprised that the doctor's assistant (that's whom I was expected to see) was a different person. I received a shot for treatment. This time I got it on the thigh instead of the rear end. It feels sore now because the needle penetrated though the muscle. It could take two days to have that soreness go away.

After that I went bike riding. The bike worked well since I had taken it to the shop briefly last Sunday. It was a very nice day for a ride.

[3rd rock]

I hate myself.

[Spirit of Trees]

I've been feeling awful and wretchedly lonely this week.