[3rd rock]

I went and asked my neighbour, who is on the first floor and blasting music I can hear clearly and loudly on the third floor, to turn it town. I didn't ask her to turn it off, just turn it down. She said no. I asked the manager to talk to her. She said the bylaw is 11, which it isn't, you can't blast music like that at any hour. I checked the bylaw. Why can't she just be considerate? It's 9 o'clock at night!

[Rose76]

My bf came home from the hospital this eve. He's much improved. Still confused, but not delirious. I'm glad he's here with me.

This covid virus has me scared all the time now. I'm scared of increasing interactions with other humans. You don't know who is carrying death. And soon people will be less careful? Scares me.

[will19]

The day was alright but then things took a bit of a nosedive in the late afternoon. I was on a roll with one little thing going wrong after another.

First, I decided to leave work for about a half hour around 2:30 so that I can go to a bank and cash a check. This is weird, but the company I work for sends me a "residual" check (like around $65) after I receive an electronic deposit. I went to the bank that's printed on the check instead of my bank; and then was told that it's not on their account. So after waiting about 10 minutes, no dice!

And then when I got back to work, there was a problem with a leaking pipe. The security guard asked me where I was. The maintenance man is still out, but it's his last day off. After that experience with the bank, I didn't need that. Well at least that problem with the leaking pipe was taken care of.

I got home and held a bag on one hand and my NuWave Oven on my other arm. When I set the NuWave down to the counter, like I've done many times, it got away and fell on the floor. Part of it cracked. And then in the mail, I got a statement that I owe money to the dentist. I had work done four months ago and I had already paid a balance with the dentist and the insurance.

So that's how it all went today.

[Mountaindewed]

My depression is kind of bad today. It’s not like the lying in bed for hours type that I had before kind. But it’s just the “what is the point” kind.

[3rd rock]

This week has been better. I've gotten two shifts with a different assignment than the one I hate, after I asked the man who writes the schedule. Next week holds some promise. But I'm frequented by bouts of inexplicable and sudden sadness and pain.

[will19]

A slow day at work today but I was able to cope with it. I'm feeling like I'm not liking one of the security guards (there are two working at a time) more as the days go by. She gets on my nerves. She's acts like my boss, which she's not, and sometimes gets into psychoanalysis with me which I hate. I think that she's had a very hard life. She's pretty dense.

One good thing that happened was that I called my dentist about the insurance statement I got. He told me that I will be getting a credit by mail soon. He's such a nice guy and I feel bad for him since he's not able to work because of this crisis. I felt kind of guilty calling him about money. Well, that's the way I am.

[Breaking Dawn]

Not able to accomplish what I wanted to, & feeling frustrated. But I know it's only temporary, so I'm just hanging in there until I get my bearings, so to speak.

[Desoxyn]

I found a reddit post. It said;

"I wish i could have just one single day where i don't feel like
I need to work at being a person. One day where i don't have to apologize for existing, one day where i can just exist instead of vowing to do better, to improve, to work harder, to be worthy. My whole life is a stupid apology."

I feel that.

[SignOfHope]

A slow day at home. Watching movies in my bed.

[Rose76]

Down and discouraged. I feel like having a T shirt made that says "Please Be Nice To Me - Anyone."

On the upside: I found a hair conditioner that is great for my hair.

[WastingAsparagus]

Definitely feel like garbage today... Definitely going to my class tomorrow... Definitely not going to not go to my class tomorrow.

I feel like I am hitting some sort of bottom here.

I kind of hope this is the worst it gets.

[Turtle_Rider]

So, the problem I have had for these days, the ones that made me cry and unable to concentrate a while ago is.... I lose two friends at once.
I don't know what went wrong. The first one is a lady. The last conversation was still nice, but she just stopped responding. I was worried if she catch Corona or something, but later from her social media I found that she was fine. I'm just... being ghosted.

The second was an old friend from uni. We haven't talked so long and our last meeting was nice. But he never reads or replies my text, although he onlines every day. He avoids me.

Oh well, time heals. I'd better look for new friends.

[Sunflower123]

Tomorrow is my birthday and I have the birthday blues. I should be happy. My family is getting together tomorrow (on the lawn - social distancing). We’re celebrating 3 birthdays and Mother’s Day and I’m just depressed. My nephew who is going into Navy boot camp soon will be there and I’ll be glad to see him since I don’t know when I’ll see him again. My sister is making a meal and me my favorite birthday cake. My daughter is coming to spend the night and day with me. I can’t figure out what is wrong with me. Why all the gloom and doom?

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Turtle_Rider

So, the problem I have had for these days, the ones that made me cry and unable to concentrate a while ago is.... I lose two friends at once.
I don't know what went wrong. The first one is a lady. The last conversation was still nice, but she just stopped responding. I was worried if she catch Corona or something, but later from her social media I found that she was fine. I'm just... being ghosted.

The second was an old friend from uni. We haven't talked so long and our last meeting was nice. But he never reads or replies my text, although he onlines every day. He avoids me.

Oh well, time heals. I'd better look for new friends.

I’m sorry that happened to you.

[will19]

Typical Saturday for me. I did so much and seemed to have completed my tasks in shorter time now. So it left me with a whole afternoon with not knowing what to do. I guess it's hard for people to just hang in alone and relax, at least for me.

Early in the morning I had an unpleasant encounter with a neighbor. The guy had a dog and it wasn't on a leash. I recall getting an email from the apartment manager saying that dogs should not run loose in the complex. I don't have a dog, so that rules me out. The guy got nasty with me when I told him about it. No surprise since he's a jerk. One time his dog approached me when I was in the laundry room and sniffed my "private parts". I don't like strange dogs doing that to me. Also I have a fear of dogs.

I'll go on a bike ride later. Nothing lined up for the rest of the day and night, except to watch a movie.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Tomorrow is my birthday and I have the birthday blues. I should be happy. My family is getting together tomorrow (on the lawn - social distancing). We’re celebrating 3 birthdays and Mother’s Day and I’m just depressed. My nephew who is going into Navy boot camp soon will be there and I’ll be glad to see him since I don’t know when I’ll see him again. My sister is making a meal and me my favorite birthday cake. My daughter is coming to spend the night and day with me. I can’t figure out what is wrong with me. Why all the gloom and doom?

Happy Birthday Jennifer 1967!

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by MimiBhaduri0

Happy Birthday Jennifer 1967!

Thank you!

[Rose76]

Losing interest in doing anything that I should be doing.

My s.o. got admitted to the hospital last night - 4rth time so far just in 2020. It feels like playing Russian roulette. Each time, he might die . . . and then he doesn't.

I'm so grateful that he doesn't. But to be threatened with such loss over and over and over and over, waiting for the gun to finally fire. How many empty chambers are left?

[DechanDawa]

Have established a new schedule, lined up work projects, cleaning and organizing. Feel great. My stay-at-home time lacked structure. Finally put structure in place.

My birthday is coming up. I am alone so purchased birthday gifts for myself online. (I told others not to bother with cards or gifts.) I don't feel badly about being alone. I have learned to treat myself well on my birthday even when alone. I give myself good gifts. It is what it is. I will probably go hiking.

I am busy and feel great.

[Rose76]

An uncle I loved very much died today. I live far from him, but was hoping this would be the summer I'ld get to be with him. I've been devastated.

But my s.o. came home from the hospital this eve. He's sleeping quietly.