I feel OK. Somebody made a big deal out of a misunderstanding. Sad when such a thing happens, but I think I feel more angry than sad, but so is life. It does not always go on rails.

I feel that I have control over my SAD so far. Use a special lamp in the mornings. If that continues I can let my shoulders down and enjoy life and look forward to gatherings now in November and December (enjoy the good and cope with the bad)! I have behind me a long and hard time working with my depression. With exception of my SAD I feel I have overcome my Depression. It was a hard fight, but it was worth it. I am glad I never gave in when it felt as worst. I even feel that I can use tools I learned to use on depression on my physical disorders. I hope that to hear from somebody who have beaten the beast of depression, may instill hope in others who now struggles.

[Rose76]

I'm doing pretty okay, not depressed.

I get tired much easier than I used to, and it takes days of tackling a project in bits to get finished with anything. That discourages me a little. But best to just keep doing what I manage to do each day, little though it may seem. It might add up to something eventually.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm doing pretty okay, not depressed.

I get tired much easier than I used to, and it takes days of tackling a project in bits to get finished with anything. That discourages me a little. But best to just keep doing what I manage to do each day, little though it may seem. It might add up to something eventually.

That’s a good mindset to have. Forward is forward no matter what the pace.

[Deilla]

I am tired this morning. I don't feel like going out to eat today. I don't want to get dressed. I don't have the energy. I just want to sleep.

[will19]

This morning was pretty eventful for me and different from other Saturdays. I went to the dentist and it turned out that I need a little work to be done. It's the first time in almost ten years that I have to have work done. And then I sold my workout bench just as I got home from the dentist. I didn't do any cleaning today.

In the afternoon and into the evening has been very dull and depressing. I went to a convenience store to get something to eat when I watch a movie that I got for tonight. I hope that movie will be good. At the store it looked like a woman was asking the clerk for something and the clerk told her to leave. After that I got thinking that maybe I should move out of the area where I am living. I feel lonely and alone and the people are becoming more weird. It's too bad because it used to be pretty good here.

I'm feeling very alone and negative. I do my best but it's like it's worth crap.

[Deilla]

I feel fairly content at the moment. I just did some art. That always helps me to feel better. And my kitties came to visit me this morning.

[Sunflower123]

I was very tired yesterday and a bit down. I’m feeling more enervated and positive today. Hallelujah!

[will19]

Feeling down this morning. Sunday mornings are the worst for me for some reason. I was going to do some cleaning this morning but some unexpected things came up. So I have decided to put off cleaning until next Saturday. I didn't feel like it anyways.

I've spoken to my friend about getting together but I doubt very much that he will come to my place. He's expecting me to always go to his place or do what he wants to do and never coming to my place or do what I want to do. I feel like it's not fair! He says that he has limits physically but yet he can take trips to Europe no problem. There's a pretty good transportation systems at where I live. I'm getting disgusted. He depresses me a lot but I hate to lose him because he's all that I have.

[3rd rock]

This next book will be my third novel to feature some form of depression. This time, it's a new mother, one of the two main characters, who experiences profound post-partum depression. I need to try and move away from this theme beginning with the next novel, in order to expand the emotional and psychological range of my characters.

[Breaking Dawn]

Like the title says, ups & downs. Much of the time I'm doing really well. Hugs to all of you!!

[will19]

Another weekend of not much. Just took a 3 hour bike ride today. Went by my old place where I used to live. My friend wrote to me saying, "someday I will come over to your place". I don't know what that means exactly. I wish I had another friend.

My sister called this morning and we had a nice talk. She was sick last week, which was why she didn't call. She sounded a bit under the weather today. She mentioned to me about possibly moving to where she is. I told her that I prefer not to hear about it because I have no interest in moving to that area.

Feeling down now. I feel like I don't like where I live. I don't know where I could move to. I'd rather not move to a strange area and not know anybody and be alone. But I feel like I am alone where I am now. So it probably wouldn't make any difference if I relocated somewhere else and not know anybody.

[puzzclar]

Originally Posted by will19

Another weekend of not much. Just took a 3 hour bike ride today. Went by my old place where I used to live. My friend wrote to me saying, "someday I will come over to your place". I don't know what that means exactly. I wish I had another friend.

My sister called this morning and we had a nice talk. She was sick last week, which was why she didn't call. She sounded a bit under the weather today. She mentioned to me about possibly moving to where she is. I told her that I prefer not to hear about it because I have no interest in moving to that area.

Feeling down now. I feel like I don't like where I live. I don't know where I could move to. I'd rather not move to a strange area and not know anybody and be alone. But I feel like I am alone where I am now. So it probably wouldn't make any difference if I relocated somewhere else and not know anybody.

Sometimes you have to make an effort to find friends. I know it's tough, I don't have too many friends myself. There are groups online to join that meet in real life.

I finished the body of my superhero that I am crocheting. It's a doll, just in case superhero didn't make sense. I've had an up day which is better than where I was a week ago. I need to go to activities more and get less lonely but it's hard.

I need to do more but I only have so much time and money. But I waste time anyway on negative things. I need to change.

[Deilla]

I'm having trouble sleeping. And I feel a little sick. I accidentally ate some cheese that had mold on part of it. I'm really grossed out. I'm trying to think of other things, but it's difficult. Maybe my coffee will help.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Deilla

I'm having trouble sleeping. And I feel a little sick. I accidentally ate some cheese that had mold on part of it. I'm really grossed out. I'm trying to think of other things, but it's difficult. Maybe my coffee will help.

How are you feeling?

[Deilla]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

How are you feeling?

My stomach feels good. My coffee and reading helped re-center me. My evening is a little lonely but not too bad. Thanks for asking! I hope you are doing well tonight.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Deilla

My stomach feels good. My coffee and reading helped re-center me. My evening is a little lonely but not too bad. Thanks for asking! I hope you are doing well tonight.

I am. Thank you!

[will19]

It was pretty busy during the morning at work today. In the afternoon it died down. Feeling a bit depressed today. After work I did the laundry and it went well. Not a single hitch this time like other times. And then I got a bit of good news as I don't have to pay for the electric bill this month.

[3rd rock]

It's the only hope I have for life, and there's no hope for it at all. I can't tell what to do.

[Sunflower123]

Doing well today. Beautiful, sunny weather always helps.