[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by the walls

Things have been out of control. Need to remember to control myself. I don’t really know how to deal with it except the usual issue, self injury. I think things have been really bad lately. I need to remember that I cannot pull it all off without some serious control. Ive been overemotional, made big mistakes, and feel disgusting about my overall self and have no idea what others see. Probably an unkempt angry person who is too arrogant for where they’re at. I don’t know what’s going on with my body, it’s never been great. I wish I were still prepubescent. I feel disgusting.

I completely understand how you feel! Don't be to hard on yourself!

I’m so tired.

[3rd rock]

My current project will be finished by the end of November. My next project will be started on at that time.

[Turtle_Rider]

It's been awful for the last couple week. I failed to get a bigger job. Next, our division got into a big trouble because one member carelessly responded to a spam email. It seems like we're going to lose everything and have to start all over again. And now, I just heard that a good coworker will be fired soon.

Home is worse. I got into more arguments with my parents, from a very small matter to big one. The fight worsens every day.

I wish I could run away somewhere.

[SlumberKitty]

Some feelings of depression and dissociation. Some feelings of not wanting to be here. Mostly just trying to get distracted and not be hard on myself. Kind of bored today too. Tomorrow should be a busy day at work though.

[puzzclar]

DO I ask for an incomplete?? I don't know what will get me out of this funk. I'm trying but nothing is working.

[Buffy01]

My emotions are going up and down today.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by the walls

I’m so tired.

I feel tired all the time!

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by puzzclar

DO I ask for an incomplete?? I don't know what will get me out of this funk. I'm trying but nothing is working.

I understand! I feel the same way!

[3rd rock]

I'm really starting to like this current book I'm writing. I think it will be worth reading. I will have it done by the end of the year, as I'm deliberately writing it much shorter than my previous works.

[Deilla]

Feeling pretty good this morning. I didn't sleep much. I stayed up and played games mostly. I'll go to bed fairly soon here. Maybe I will sleep until 9 am.

[SlumberKitty]

Feeling sort of okay. Kind of feeling depressed and anxious. Tried to give myself enough time to get things done at work today by coming in early. I'm hoping that it works out okay. I have T tonight and I am kind of stressed about that. HUGS to all, Kit

[puzzclar]

I'm in the ER still. I wish someone would tell me something for what will happen. But at least I have music and time to relax. Just wish I had stuff foe my hands. Maybe when I am transfered.

I feel awful.

Wow this will sound like dark sarcastic humor but I hope my plane crashes on my way home. I am more than ready for it all to end.

[Deilla]

I'm tired but I don't want to sleep. I don't like sleeping. I would rather be up and do things. I guess if I'm really exhausted, then sleep is good. Maybe I should try to rest.

[3rd rock]

I wonder if the small indeterminate mass in my brain will turn out to be something serious.

[Turtle_Rider]

It doesn't get any better. In the morning, I had a new argument with mother. Then when I was going to work, I snapped at a pervert stranger (he verbally harassed me). Work is awful like yesterday. On the way home, I have to wait for the bus for more than 30 mins. Lastly, the internet was down right when I arrived at home.

The only good thing is my coworker agreed to join my charity project.

[SlumberKitty]

Feeling halfway okay today. I had T last night. I feel a bit nervous today. Or maybe it is anxiety. I slept well though and I ate breakfast. Came into work early. Trying to start the day off right...

Originally Posted by will19

Not much of an exciting weekend, even though I was busy both days. Today I put my weights together and packed them in my car. Someone at where I work wants to buy it. Unfortunately I was not able to put my bench in the car, since it doesn't fit. The buyer, I guess, doesn't really care if he gets the bench or not. But I wanted to get rid of it. This is kind of sad that after some 25 years, those weights are going to be out of my life. And it's all because of my neighbor having to complain about it.

I went for a three hour bike ride today.

Another dull weekend is about to come to an end. I dread going to work on Mondays, but I don't know why? I like my job. It seems like it's at work where I really have a social life. I guess that's the way it is for some people.

Are you ok? Hugs.