[giddykitty]

Not a very eventful day.

Woke up early but took a nap. Made and ate lunch, but it wasn't enough for dinner...but I wanted to go visit the kitties and watch Lucifer on Netflix, so I did. Then had to scrounge together something for dinner. Hopefully it won't make me sick cuz it was leftovers. I feel ok at the moment. I really hope we can get pizza tomorrow and at my favorite place! I'm crazy craving it!!

Mood: okay

[Yzen]

My headaches are back. After not having many for weeks, I had one each of the last 3 days. My anxiety was bad on Wednesday afternoon, so maybe that caused the headaches.

I'm going to try to have a calm weekend and accomplish a few things.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I'm all set to return to work. My first shift next week will be Tuesday. I'm so nervous I could freak out at any moment. I've got to keep drinking coffee. Part of me thinks they're going to just fire me instantaneously for being off for almost 10 months, but the other part of me knows that's stupid. The union rep is coming by on Wednesday, which I'll be working as well, so I can see him for the first time since I last worked. I feel like I'm in an intense state of fear, like survival mode when everything else but adrenaline shuts down or something. It'll be fine.

I hope everything goes well. Sending supportive vibes for your return to work.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm doing pretty good. Thank you. I'm wishing the best for all of you!

I have a good life. I should quit complaining.

I made flatbread today. It tastes great. Lemon trees by the apartment building next door were too high up for me to reach so I had to go to the market to get them. I didn’t want to freak people out inside by pulling the branches down. Also the lemons looked a lot more spherical than the spherical ones you get at the market, even tho I checked and they are indeed lemon trees, idk.

Perhaps I should have made tortillas instead of flatbread. I want to use queso fresco cheese and black beans and sweet potatoes on the flatbread with a dash of lime and chili (chile y limon) and also lime juice... hopefully the flatbread doesn’t overpower it. I’d love to open a restaurant one day... I want to be a celebrity chef.

I realized I’m not a nice person. I don’t understand why some things are considered rude and mean. I think perhaps they are just antisocial. But people see it as mean. So I guess I’m not a nice person. I feel like depression is twisting my personality apart. My father was like me, I guess I got it from him.

[lotusblossom19]

Feels like I'm sinking. Every day it's a struggle just to do the simplest things.

[leomama]

Originally Posted by lotusblossom19

Feels like I'm sinking. Every day it's a struggle just to do the simplest things.

I can relate. Did something happen?

[Buffy01]

My emotions is going up and down.

[lotusblossom19]

Originally Posted by leomama

I can relate. Did something happen?

Psychological abuse, not feeling safe enough to talk to anyone about how I really feel inside

[leomama]

Originally Posted by lotusblossom19

Psychological abuse, not feeling safe enough to talk to anyone about how I really feel inside

From a parent or partner?

[will19]

It was a pretty good day today, even though the weekend was pretty dull. Last night I saw a good movie. It was something kind of different from what I have been watching before. It was a movie I had never heard of but the preview sounded like something I wanted to see. I was not disappointed this time.

I was very busy in the morning with some light errands (getting things that I forgot to get yesterday) and a little cleaning. My sister called and we had a pretty good talk. My friend wanted to visit me but decided not to because the weather was appearing to be bad. I took a long bike ride today in the cloudy, brisk, and little bit of a rainy day.

Later on I made brownies for desert. I had not had it in a long time. I read a review online about that particular brownie mix that was supposed to be the best. I felt like it didn't come out as good as it was described. I guess I may have over baked it (the edges were practically burnt) and the batter may have spread out a little too much which made the brownies thin.

[skyhawksoars]

Today is a positive flow. The corona virus situation is exacerbating anxiety a bit, so, to tend the fear, I did a little EFT tapping and am going to focus on rest. I have had insomnia for decades and getting rest is my number one focus.

[lotusblossom19]

Originally Posted by leomama

From a parent or partner?

multiple relatives, including a parent

Today was normal. I had my pole dance class which was fun. I’m sore and bruised but I feel great. I think it could be good therapy for me.

I didn’t go over my notes for work at all this weekend. I was really tired. I think I’ll go to bed now and wake up early to do it. i don’t think it will be hard. in my new job you have to be sharp. I love it.

I vacuumed my room which makes me feel good.

I’m unhappy with myself and how immature I am. Even though my friend was like 60 and I was in my early 20s I should have been more mature. I do not think it was sustainable tho. I am growing up.

[leomama]

Originally Posted by the walls

Today was normal. I had my pole dance class which was fun. I’m sore and bruised but I feel great. I think it could be good therapy for me.


I didn’t go over my notes for work at all this weekend. I was really tired. I think I’ll go to bed now and wake up early to do it. i don’t think it will be hard. in my new job you have to be sharp. I love it.


I vacuumed my room which makes me feel good.


I’m unhappy with myself and how immature I am. Even though my friend was like 60 and I was in my early 20s I should have been more mature. I do not think it was sustainable tho. I am growing up.

Your friend?

[3rd rock]

Although February 2020 was the worst month ever for my print book sales in terms of units sold, due to changes in pricing structure I still made about twice as much as I did in February 2019. I guess it's a mixed result, but I'm still making very little money. Still, that makes both January and February of this year that my income increased over the same periods last year. If nothing else, that's progress.

My job is a joke

[3rd rock]

I can't go to work tomorrow, but I have no choice. I have no options.

[Yzen]

so sad right now. what is going on with me?

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm ok right now. And wishing you all good health & no sadness.