[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Something tells me I need to watch out for adding harmful doomsday thinking to a situation that's difficult enough. So I'm trying to keep track of my thoughts & make sure they are helpful to me.

That a great idea.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Singer47

When more and more become well again after being affected with the virus, the virus will find less and less "good soil" to grow in. The chances to get it will not be so high as now. Some of us (the risk group) will not be 100 % safe until we can be vaccinated in one to one and a half year from now


It is also important to understand that not everybody in the risk group will die of it. (I don't want to take the chance). It's OK that we from time to time lose hope ... So it is to be human!

That a great attitude to have.

[3rd rock]

I feel sad and dispirited because of the views of my union rep on the topic of addicts and addiction. His views are very cruel; I don't really want to go into greater detail except to say I see his posts on Facebook openly deriding people with addictions in our community. As I have had problems with addiction I can't help but feel as though he lacks empathy for his own brothers. I feel like he is unknowingly putting me down. There are others as well in our union who have addiction problems. He is putting them down as well.

[zapatoes]

Wanted to study today and just feel like sleeping.

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear @3rd rock, I think your union rep is addicted to criticizing others, maybe because of someone in their own life (parent, sibling, self, etc.). And they feel the need to fight this demon in their own life by becoming a self-appointed policeman. I could be way off. Just something to consider. And maybe this person is to be pittied for being trapped in such a cruel & negative viewpoint, which we are free from, thank goodness.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I feel sad and dispirited because of the views of my union rep on the topic of addicts and addiction. His views are very cruel; I don't really want to go into greater detail except to say I see his posts on Facebook openly deriding people with addictions in our community. As I have had problems with addiction I can't help but feel as though he lacks empathy for his own brothers. I feel like he is unknowingly putting me down. There are others as well in our union who have addiction problems. He is putting them down as well.

That's a pretty disappointing attitude for soneone who has assumed the position of being an advocate. (I am assuming that being a union rep is a role of advocating on behalf of his union co-workers.) He probably shouldn't be in that position. This is the unfortunate side of facebook, where people use it to engage in this kind of antagonistic posturing.

I understand the hurt. I am facebook friends with a few people (family connections) who post memes that aggressively disparage those who differ from them politically, which includes me. These are persons who would be very gracious toward me, when we are together in social situations. Yet they think it's just fine to spew out this ugliness - and it does get ugly - on social media. I almost want to call them on how disrespectful they are being, but instead I just refuse to even engage in this stuff. Some people aren't really capable of being educated. They take stances that are simplistic and based on being unwilling to think and understand the complexities of the human condition. It's a kind of mental laziness.

[Fuzzybear]

Hugs and respect to all

[Fuzzybear]

Originally Posted by Rose76

That's a pretty disappointing attitude for soneone who has assumed the position of being an advocate. (I am assuming that being a union rep is a role of advocating on behalf of his union co-workers.) He probably shouldn't be in that position. This is the unfortunate side of facebook, where people use it to engage in this kind of antagonistic posturing.

I understand the hurt. I am facebook friends with a few people (family connections) who post memes that aggressively disparage those who differ from them politically, which includes me. These are persons who would be very gracious toward me, when we are together in social situations. Yet they think it's just fine to spew out this ugliness - and it does get ugly - on social media. I almost want to call them on how disrespectful they are being, but instead I just refuse to even engage in this stuff. Some people aren't really capable of being educated. They take stances that are simplistic and based on being unwilling to think and understand the complexities of the human condition. It's a kind of mental laziness.

[3rd rock]

@Rose76 @Breaking Dawn Thank you for your kind words.

I'm having much difficulty working on my writing right now. My books seem all unworthy of working on, especially given the terrible sales for my titles. Some of my published books are having zero sales altogether. I'm making barely a hundred dollars a month right now, which works out to less than 85 cents an hour. It's very hard to see myself ever achieving anything more when I've been working like this for years.

I had to call in sick for work on Thursday. I went to bed at my usual time on Wednesday night, but couldn't sleep. I gave up trying at around 3 am, and wound up not being able to get to sleep until 6. I regret having to call in sick because I don't want to miss a single day, I want to be reliable for my employer.

[Rose76]

I'm very depressed. I wish I was never born.

[puzzclar]

Im confused. I wish this virus didn't happen, stupid pigs!! And one moment I feel my sore throat the next I don't. Why is life so troublesome?

[Rose76]

I'm just mad about a lot of things and toward anyone and everyone. Don't have interest in doing anything.

[Rose76]

I thought after years of dealing with depression that I was bound to be getting better at it. But I'm in agony now with very severe emotional troubles. I would rather be dead than be in this state. But I tell myself that these emotional storms don't last, no matter how horrible they seem. Yesterday I was a angry and intensely irritable. Today I am depressed and remorseful. In 2003, a pdoc who saw me kind of like this, told me I was bipolar. Bipolar meds never helped me.

I barely can take care of my S.O. I blamed him for how I was feeling. But I know that's just me being angry and wanting a target for my anger. So now I feel like the scum of the earth. This COVID thing added to the stress I was already barely managing, and I went off the deep end.

I was terrible to my S.O. yesterday. We have a long history of being two very damaged people in a very troubled relationship. But we've managed to keep loving each other, or at least rediscovering mutual love, despite all the awfulness of what we each went through repeatedly. He's dying now, of lung cancer. When I met him, he seemed to be dying of alcoholism and what goes with that. I was surviving, despite living a life of extreme risk taking.

Now I have to get him to bed.

[puzzclar]

@Rose76 my heart goes out to you. I wish you the best. It's not easy when someone close to us dies, or is in the process of dying.

I have been trying to sleep for an hour and half. And still not tired. I don't know what, scratch that, I do know the cause. It's called going stir-crazy and discovering the past. I just can't seem to relax tonight.

I feel fine!


Happy Easter to those who celebrate Easter!


I wish those who don't celebrate Easter a joyful and peaceful day!

[will19]

Yesterday I felt like I went all out with shopping, cleaning, and the laundry. I had completed it all by 12:15 PM. After lunch I felt very tired and took a "cat" nap around 1:15. After that I did my "odds and ends" laundry (rags and stuff) and replaced a light bulb for the tail light of my car (which I dreaded to do, but it went better than I thought). People who had been walking along where I parked were very helpful in seeing if the tail light was working. It did! I watched a pretty good movie last night on YouTube.

This morning, nothing much so far, and nothing planned. I felt depressed this morning before getting out of bed, but felt better after breakfast. While I was in bed, I got annoyed by people making some noise outside (I live in an apartment, so that figures) and was hearing what sounded like weed trimming in the distance. When these things happen, I long for the day when I could move to the boonies. I got out of bed a bit latter than I do on Saturdays, but that's alright since I didn't have anything planned.

As of now I'm finishing up with coffee. Just recently I decided to switch to caffeine after drinking decaf for so long. I seem to like the rich taste of it better. I hope I don't get too loopy.

I feel tired today. Am trying to take the corona crisis as best I can, but sometimes it only becomes too much!

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really depressed again

[Sunflower123]

I thought I was handling everything pretty well and then the tornado hit my town. Prolonged power outage. 37 degrees. It’s almost too much. I’m down today.

[Turtle_Rider]

Frustrated. I'm kind of losing my hope..

It is almost a month... to isolate ourselves inside this house of full trouble. There is a fight every day and I can't stand it anymore. They fought twice when I had video-call meeting with my coworkers. My coworkers were shocked and I ashamed.

Ever since I turned 18, I want out to somewhere peaceful. I always wish and dream for a new start.... a new life in a new place where no one from my past can (or at least, barely able to) reach me. When I heard about this exchange program, I was thrilled because I could fulfill it. I felt like I can do it! But why Covid19? The plan might be postponed or worse, ruined. Next year is my last chance since my age reaches the maximum limit for the program. And yet I still get no improvement since February thanks to Covid19. Everything is closing down, not accepting anything. And yet, we're getting older.

I'm not sure if I could do it... I don't want to give up, because I have sacrificed a lot of things. Maybe I should stop running, but how do I turn back and face them? They don't want to listen, only screaming.