[bpktvikesfan]

Hi, I have been a member for several years and have always utilized the bipolar boards, My bipolar for most of the years was my biggest issue, trying to maintain balance,etc...but i do suffer from gad and ptsd and ofcourse with my bipolar i have depression. The reason i am writing is for a very long time i am have trouble doing anything...no matter how much self talk and rationalizing i try I cant accomplish anything. It takes me days to convince myself to shower, with self talking all day trying to convince myself...i need excersise but for the life of me i cant take a walk. I will go so far as get dressed and putting my tennis shoes on but i seem to stop myself. this behavior affects the most minor of things to major things it is like I am frozen from fear of stupid things, i mean what is gonna hurt me to shower, it makes me feel better and its simple but i just cant do it...the shower is just one example. I guess i dont know if this is an anxiety thing or a depression thing. I dont feel sad. I smile and laugh, but i dont find joy in anything. I have no hobbies, no friends and stay home all of the time. my family is all i have, i dont do social media. I may be vommiting info here but i am hoping i have addressed enough symptoms to lead me to the right support boards. I also have intrusive thoughts about death and dying and until two years ago had suicidal ideations my entire life. I hope this is helpful to any of you and that maybe you could guide me to the right spot.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm sorry you are struggling so much. It sounds like a lot of the stuff you are having problems with are depression or bipolar depression. You said you have utilized the bipolar boards in the past, did you find that helpful? Perhaps you could do that again? HUGS Kit

[bpcyclist]

I am also sorry you are struggling. I sometimes also have a very difficult time getting the most basic things done. Keeping the apartment relatively clean. Taking my meds. They help me, but sometimes I don' really want to take them. Keeping commitments, of which I have, like, almost none. I still don't really want to keep even those few. I hate washing my hands--it goes back to an old thing where washing hands too much was a very bad thing. A struggle. And the thing I am by worst at--keeping in touch with the very few people still in my life. So, you are not alone. Other people have similar issues. I hope you find some support here. Like Kit suggested, maybe post about this on the bipolar board and see what comes up.

Hang in there! Sending you positive vibes.

[Skeezyks]

Just in case you haven't already worked this out for yourself, my suggestion would be to pick a forum you think you'd like to post about this in & then private message one of the forum moderators. Tell them what you want to say in your post & ask if the forum you've selected would be appropriate or, if not, which forum would be. The moderators are going to be in the best position to recommend where to post.