Life actually CAN get better. I'm the proof.

Hello you,

I'm a young woman in my mid 20's and I have been battling depression ever since I was a kid until around three years ago.

I've lived a isolated, depressed suicidal life for a very very long time. I couldn't barely talk to people, my social anxiety was destroying everything. I spend years almost entirely alone in my bedroom self harming and feeling dead.

I was also on this forum a couple of years (ago), talking about my depression and social anxiety. Everything changed when a man fell out of the sky right in front of me, and we fell in love. It was difficult, because of my social anxiety. It took me months before I even allowed him to hug me. I never even kissed anyone or hold hands. I pushed him away at first , because my depression didn't allow me to love or feel loved. It wasn't an easy ride. I almost chickened out a couple of times, thinking I would all mess it up anyway.

We are now more than 3.5 years into a relationship, and expecting a little baby girl.

What I wanted to let you guys know with this post, is that it actually can get better even if you don't believe in it anymore. Because of my lover, I got to get out of my comfort zone and started making friends. I don't suddenly have a bunch of new people, but I made two real friends which is a lot for me. And believe me, I never thought I would actually get friends in my entire life.

Please guys, don't let your heads hang down. I know it's difficult. I've been here. I've been on this forum crying and wanting to overdose while typing through my tears. I've battled suicidal thoughts for over 10 years! I'm not saying my life is all fireworks and butterflies now, but I have learned to cope with negative emotions. And I am still here! And who else is reading this, YOU are still here too. No matter how life has pushed you on the ground, you are not buried yet. Please, don't give up hope. Sometimes, something unexpected happens and everything changes. Life is odd, full of surprises.

Your story isn't finished yet.

I wish you all the best.

Thank you so much for your beautiful and meaningful post!



And so so happy to learn that you are expecting!



I wish you joy and every happiness with your upcoming baby girl!

I second that. Thank you for sharing your story. Best wishes for your continued happiness and congratulations on the baby.

While I applaud the sentiment, there's one problem...

"Everything changed when a man fell out of the sky right in front of me, and we fell in love."

So, all I have to do is wait for a fantastic woman to fall out of the sky and devote her life to me? Well, that's not going to happen, and not only because women don't doggedly pursue men in our society.

I understand and did not mean to upset. What I mean with it, is that meeting a special person can change your view on the world. This does not have to be a love interest but can also be a friend or someone else special. The ability to connect with someone is so powerful for the mental health. I wish you all the best.