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TW because this is very dark.
It’s a strange thing because obviously I come on websites like this, I go to therapy, I try to get help when I need it but at the end of the day I really don’t want to get better. I love being able to do the self destructive things. I don’t want to get better. I think a part of me feels like I don’t really have depression unless I do take my life. And I feel like I’m just making excuses and being lazy until I do. Not getting better helps me feel better about how bad I am at living. At least I have depression as an excuse. |
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I wouldn't know what to do if I got better.
honestly, I would be so lost and so stuck (probably more lost and stuck than I am now, and I know that sounds weird) but: their is no plan in place. this is now my life. |
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I have been suffering for years, since a child
back when life was just a game so I never really have anything to fall back on. it's ashame they don't tell you how difficult life can get |
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