[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Doing better today.

I am happy for you, hugs.

[Deilla]

I was stressing today after taking my cat to the vet. I was worried about other appointments and doing PT exercises. But I'm relaxing now. I think I will make myself some hot chocolate.

[3rd rock]

I called in sick to work today. I'll go in tomorrow but I think I'll call in sick on Monday. I hate my job and I hate my life.

[Deilla]

I slept a fairly normal schedule today. I'll get a little more sleep later this morning. But for now I think I will relax with a game.

[Breaking Dawn]

I am doing ok. And I appreciate all of you.

[Mountaindewed]

I don’t really know what happened last night. A bunch of **** just hit me at one time. Covid, still not being able to return to work. I feel a lot better today though. At least mentally. I did delete my therapists email address so no matter what happens I can’t email her. I felt like I was becoming too needy and I just didn’t like what was happening.

[July131990]

Actually having a pretty good day so far. Sleeping much better than I have in months .getting the hang of driving , lost about 3 pounds . First time in a long time I'm actually pretty happy

[will19]

I haven't been posting on here for a little while. I have not been sleeping well lately because of blowing my nose for most of the night. I'm so tired in the day and have a headache.

Yesterday I inquired with my apartment manager about a new lease that should be coming up next month. I had signed a one-year lease a year ago. I was told, because of the COVID-19 situation, no leases will be issued and my rent is not going up for now. I guess it's good news for now.

Been busy at work lately, but not as much today. That's fine. I'm having a three-day weekend coming up. I've had only one day off since Jan. 1st, including not having a long weekend until now. Looking forward to a little time off. But I get the feeling it will fly by.

[Breaking Dawn]

One day at a time. We will get there!

[Deilla]

I had a decent day. I went out and got my hair done. It was a nice treat!

[will19]

Usual Saturday for me. I felt like I worked very hard with domestic stuff this morning. I'm still not used to the new routine - of shopping in the early morning. I used to go to the bank and then go shopping around 12:30 or 1 PM. I miss all of that. And I miss the way things were before this crisis (lockdown) happened.

And now I feel letdown and depressed.

[puzzclar]

I'm very concerned. I got the new med but I don't know how to get t to address the issue. The issue is I want to start the new med when safety measures are in place. Ie having my dad around. I'm indecisive about calling crisis number to be able to have clear direction on how to stop the other med. Pdoc hinted about doing a couple of days of decreased dose or stopping all together.

And my anxiety is mounting. I'm anxious about this change. I've had too many switches before gone wrong. I don't want to switch but I know the consequences of infertility.

I should just call. And end the anxiety that way. But at the same time I am balancing everything. I don't want to take more time off.

[Deilla]

I'm feeling excited and maybe a bit anxious. I found a new park I want to visit. Just nervous about getting out there. I'm sort of familiar with the area. So that helps. I'm trying to get out more.

[Breaking Dawn]

I've been doing a few things that I had put off, which feels encouraging. Crossing my fingers to continue this.

[will19]

Was busy this morning with laundry and some small shopping. My sister called and it went OK. She still hopes that I will move to where she is. Took a 2 and hour bike ride this afternoon. A place where I like to ride in is still closed. It's nice to see restaurants that have opened up for the first time in a while.

I don't have any plans for tonight. I don't have to work tomorrow. Last night I saw a documentary that was well done but the subject matter was upsetting. I don't have any idea of a movie that I would like to see tonight if I want to watch one.

I've got to make a change. I want to be a kinder person, but where I am and facing what I am it's difficult to feel anything but anxiety and hopeless. I want to feel like I did something good in my life. I feel like I wasted my life and there's no more chances. Depressed.

[Deilla]

I feel pretty good today. I want to get out again. Maybe wash my car today and go to the park.

[Yzen]

I can't seem to live my life the way I want to -- which is one source of my sadness. What I do and who I am seems disconnected.

[MissUdy]

I had a big meltdown yesterday and feel extra empty today. My throat hurts from screaming and the palms of my hands are bruised from hitting the floor. I wanted to run away but the person I live with dragged me back inside when I went to my car, and that only made me worse. I haven’t slept and I can’t dream and I can’t feel. I don’t know what to do.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by MissUdy

I had a big meltdown yesterday and feel extra empty today. My throat hurts from screaming and the palms of my hands are bruised from hitting the floor. I wanted to run away but the person I live with dragged me back inside when I went to my car, and that only made me worse. I haven’t slept and I can’t dream and I can’t feel. I don’t know what to do.

Can you call the police?