[Breaking Dawn]

Doing the best I can.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m worried about my depression and ending up IP due to medication. Not anything immediately though. I’m just worried. Probably for nothing. Can they put you completely in seclusion from other patients if you have medical issues?

[Deilla]

I'm a bit worried this morning. My cat spent the night with the vet. She may have a procedure done in the morning. I'll be happy to get her back.

[T4bbyCat]

Suddenly just a few days left to move, with massive work still left to do. Plus job woes. Doesn't help the #$!+ depression.

[Breaking Dawn]

Feeling some apprehension (need to go out there today) but otherwise ok.

[songbird2213]

Down again today - I continuously fail at nurturing my husband.
Also just took the PC Depression Test and scored for severe depression. Now I feel worse.

[Mountaindewed]

Despite the fact I’ve been in a dark room all day with the curtains shut and rain pouring outside, I feel pretty good today. My self esteem is good. I am just very tired from lack of sleep.

[Sunflower123]

I’m having a really rough day. I hope it gets better.

[Turtle_Rider]

I just learned I dodged a bullet from three years ago. This gives me a little hope. I'm thinking that maybe my current rejected application is a blessing in disguise. But it barely makes me happy. What's the blessing of pandemic?
Yesterday, I read about what they have made in the past six years. I feel so pathetic. I have nothing good to compared with of except graduating. I couldn't even finish my projects from 6 years ago. I'm just a big mouth loser.

[Deilla]

I'm tired and sad this morning.

[The_Bear]

Felt down as soon as I woke up - a recurring pattern these days.

Work was OK. I was working next to one of my American colleagues today who is always super lively (and a bit bonkers too, to be honest). I chatted to him a bit and we went for lunch together, which was quite nice. I'm trying to be as sociable as I can at the minute, although it can be an effort these days. I think my colleagues have noticed that I'm much more withdrawn than I used to be.

While I was at work I got an email from my UK friend who I used to work with in Beijing before he moved back. He also has bad depression and we've been emailing regularly and swapping news and support. It's great to have someone like that who I can really open up to - I'm so grateful to have him as a friend.

I was still pretty down by the time I got home, but I managed to persuade myself to have a workout which I was pleased about. Packed my bag for the work trip tomorrow to Tianjin, watched the UK news (pretty much all about Covid) then went to bed.

It wasn't a bad day all-in-all, and as usual, evening was the best part. My day always starts off super-low and gradually improves throughout. Then things seem to reset overnight and I'm miserable again the next morning.

[Fuzzybear]

I am very grateful to those unique souls, both here and elsewhere, who I am in communication with

[Sunflower123]

Doing better today.

[Mountaindewed]

I’m depressed about everything today. I’m in bed right now. I take after my old man who’d spend hours a day in bed because of depression.

@The_Bear: I have the same pattern too! Miserable in the morning, improving in the evening, repeat. Wha?

[Fuzzybear]

I also experience a pattern of being miserable in the mornings, and an improvement in the evenings

[codyrobi613]

I'm not doing good today. I've been unfocused and unmotivated she about a week, anxious too. The past couple days I've been feeling more empty and irritable. I've taken 4 naps in the past two days also, I normally don't take any

[will19]

Very bad day today for me. All day at work not one thing came (packages & mail) and nothing went out. It was like that all day. I think that's a record for the most low in a day. It can't get any lower than today in a single day. I call it a "no-hitter". And then there was a misunderstanding that happened with a co-worker, in which I made an honest mistake that I should have known better.

[Mountaindewed]

I’ve been depressed for a couple days and it’s getting to be pretty noticeable. I’m lying down now in the middle of the afternoon but my mom is making me set my alarm clock to get up at 5 because yesterday I went to lie down at 2PM and I didn’t get out of bed until 6:30 this morning. I have this tingly type of pain in my chest right now kinda like when your foot falls asleep. So it’s not like it’s just depression. It’s just mostly. And I got this odd text message from an unknown caller that made me pretty uneasy.

[Deilla]

Saw my GP today. She gave me some medicine to help me lose weight. I was pretty hopeful about it. It's a daily injection. Unfortunately, my insurance doesn't cover it. So now I'm sad. I'm very disappointed. We talked about weight loss surgery. That's not an option either because of my mental health. Surgery worsens depression.