[Breaking Dawn]

I'm very sorry, @3rd rock & @Turtle_Rider, that you are feeling so sad this morning. I hope something nice happens today to lift your spirits. Please take care. We care about you.

[Yzen]

Decided not to share

[puzzclar]

I'm not depressed, I'm not anxious. I'm inspired by what I have thought of today. It gives me hope. My mental illness does not have to exist if I don't let it stay. I choose what I do. I'm in charge.

The above gives me power for the first time in 15 years. And yet it was a 10 second decision. But one that I need to practice every day. I will win, and my reward is a new life that was changed and refined into a diamond!!

[will19]

A much better day at work today than yesterday. It took a while to get my computer back and running again. I was with an IT guy and it seemed like he solved the problem in under 5 minutes. But it took so long because he kept on getting interrupted. So many were seeing and calling him. I got the computer finally running by 12:30.

I get the feeling that, whomever put that program together, may not have his or her job much longer. There were so many that had the problem like I had. I even heard that there were about 200 people backed up waiting to get someone on the help desk. Also some have said that they got someone when they waited for nine hours! And then it was not much help. CRAZY!

[Rose76]

Yesterday, I got ticked off at my deceased boyfriend's kids. It escalated, and now I'm kind of depressed about it.

I got to snap out of that and pack. Tomorrow I fly on the plane bringing my bf's body back East. I think I'll be alright.

[gary290]

Originally Posted by Rose76

Yesterday, I got ticked off at my deceased boyfriend's kids. It escalated, and now I'm kind of depressed about it.

I got to snap out of that and pack. Tomorrow I fly on the plane bringing my bf's body back East. I think I'll be alright.

That’s a lot to go through. I’m so sorry Rose.

[3rd rock]

My supervisor is bullying me. I had to leave work early after an incident because I was too afraid of an emotional outburst, not necessarily angry, but I was beginning to fight back tears. I'm going to file a grievance over this, although I'm not sure when. Possibly tomorrow. I'm not going into work tomorrow either. I feel like crying. I still have the beginnings of tears in my eyes, but I feel a little better now that I'm at home.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm sorry, @3rd rock. Take care.

[will19]

Today was the first whole day of having my computer at work functioning. A slow day at work, but at least I'm happy that the anxiety of not having my computer to work is done with.

I had a talk with a Financial Advisor later this afternoon. He was pretty sobering to me in talking about my financial future. He told me of a plan that he thinks might work for me. There was something about that guy I didn't like. So I don't think I will go with him.

Felt depressed after leaving work. Maybe it was because of the talk I had with the Financial Advisor. Also there were helicopters circling around where I live. They are there just in case there's any trouble with the "peaceful" protesters.

[3rd rock]

I think I'll go in to work tomorrow anyways. I only have to get through the day and then I have three days off. I don't know if the supervisor who is bullying me will escalate his bullying tomorrow. I am afraid he'll use the excuse to force me into a sit-down meeting in order to intimidate me and threaten me with discipline for having replied to his statements yesterday in the private talk. It's the anxiety this possibility produces that makes it hard. I have no choice because I need this job and can't find another, not right now.

[will19]

Was busy today, which was nice, and it was a good day emotionally at work. But this morning, when I was awake in bed before getting up, I felt depressed and anxious for my future. I got thinking; where am I going and how will my life end? Will I physically be able to make a move to another part of the country in a few years from now like I want to?

Lately I feel like my friend is depressing me more than making me feel better. He's all that I got, but I wish someone else would come along. I know that I have been saying that for quite a while.

[Breaking Dawn]

I had a fairly productive day yesterday, so I'm hoping today will be like that. I need to conjure up my motivation.

[WanderingCat]

I am falling into the habit of going to sleep at around 2 am, then I wake up at 10 am and I always end up having an unproductive morning. Afternoons are a little bit better, but it's incredible how I never get anything done after 8 pm. I am not even sure how I end up going to sleep so late, I need to work on better sleep hygiene. A few hours ago I ended up crying and I still have no idea why I was crying.

[will19]

Busy in the morning and everything is done. Feeling some tension at where I live because of demonstrators nearby. There were some helicopters circling around; and I'm so sick of them. This has gone on every day! Now I can hear chanting in the distance with my windows opened. I wish this thing would come to an end.

[Rose76]

My sister and my niece are taking such good care of me. Grief becomes so much more bearable when someone who knows you well tries to love you through it. I'm not depressed right now. Without them I most likely would be.

[MimiBhaduri0]

Originally Posted by Rose76

My sister and my niece are taking such good care of me. Grief becomes so much more bearable when someone who knows you well tries to love you through it. I'm not depressed right now. Without them I most likely would be.

I am happy that you are feeling better.

I have had a bad weekend.

yesterday I had memories of trauma and a panic attack, and today I have nothing that needs doing so basically another wasted weekend.

blah

[Rose76]

I'm at my sister's. She picked me up at the airport on Fri. I was so grateful that my sister was looking after me so nicely, as I recover from my boyfriend's death on Sunday.

Last evening I took a long, luxurious soak in my sister's jacuzzi style tub. It has water jets long the inside of it. She started knocking on the door. When I got out she was furious. She accused me of being in the bathroom so I could use drugs. This was beyong crazy. I never expected this. I don't know what made my sister so mad. She may have been drinking, but she didn't seem drunk. She has abrupt personality and mood changes when she drinks. She went from not talking to me to demanding answers from me. It was bizarre.

I thought maybe she was mad that I wasn't out in time to join the family for dinner. I told her that was rude of me and I humbly apologized. She just got madder.

I think I've got to find a cheap motel room near the train that will take me to NYC. I need to book a flight back to New Mexico.

I trusted her . . . and she went Cujo on me last nite. She's done this Cujo thing before. I will not stay here being in fear of her next Cujo fit. I have no other family around here who could take me in.

[will19]

Originally Posted by Rose76

I'm at my sister's. She picked me up at the airport on Fri. I was so grateful that my sister was looking after me so nicely, as I recover from my boyfriend's death on Sunday.

Last evening I took a long, luxurious soak in my sister's jacuzzi style tub. It has water jets long the inside of it. She started knocking on the door. When I got out she was furious. She accused me of being in the bathroom so I could use drugs. This was beyong crazy. I never expected this. I don't know what made my sister so mad. She may have been drinking, but she didn't seem drunk. She has abrupt personality and mood changes when she drinks. She went from not talking to me to demanding answers from me. It was bizarre.

I thought maybe she was mad that I wasn't out in time to join the family for dinner. I told her that was rude of me and I humbly apologized. She just got madder.

I think I've got to find a cheap motel room near the train that will take me to NYC. I need to book a flight back to New Mexico.

I trusted her . . . and she went Cujo on me last nite. She's done this Cujo thing before. I will not stay here being in fear of her next Cujo fit. I have no other family around here who could take me in.

Oh goodness, I'm so sorry to hear that. People's moods can be so strange sometimes. And also, so sorry to hear of your boyfriend's passing. You had done and went through so much with him.

[Breaking Dawn]

Best wishes to all of you! And me too.