[88Butterfly88]

My anxiety is causing depression today, it's like I am beginning to get depressed about being anxious so often.

[3rd rock]

I think I've finally realized why my books don't sell. It's because my stories are boring, poorly written, and basically unreadable. Too bad I can't write any other way.

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear @3rd rock, You have to write! You know that! There are readers who want your kind of writing. And you're growing & learning all the time. Please keep writing. I feel you are meant to do that. God bless you!

emotionally empty.

I am about to start another week with absolutely nothing going on, and it really sucks

plus side today is that as yet I've not been in severe physical pain, and it makes so much diffrence when you can start the day and not scream in agony

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I think I've finally realized why my books don't sell. It's because my stories are boring, poorly written, and basically unreadable. Too bad I can't write any other way.

what are your stories about?

[shovelhead]

I remember being happy & having hope, at one point, consistently. Feels like 100 years ago. I don't think its ever going to come back.

[3rd rock]

Originally Posted by raging vortex

what are your stories about?

Mostly they are literary fiction, stories about people who are struggling to find their way in life or have difficult relationships. I also write some war stories.

Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Dear @3rd rock, You have to write! You know that! There are readers who want your kind of writing. And you're growing & learning all the time. Please keep writing. I feel you are meant to do that. God bless you!

Thank you for your encouragement.

[will19]

Back to work after a very busy weekend. Very slow and it's going to be that way for a very long time, it looks like. It can even look like I'll be in "cruise control" with my job until I retire. The contract is supposed to end either by this September or December. The contract has gone to another company; but we don't know if any of us will be hired by that company. It feels like the company I work for now is going to just bleed itself out.

[will19]

Slow boring day at work again, though the morning was just fairly busy. I got upset this afternoon when I was walking by the security area; and as I was walking by, I had my hand in my pocket. Just a habit of mine, I guess, that I don't realize that I do. The woman guard saw me and said, "guys who put their hands in their pockets do it because they want to be taller". I don't know why she would say that to me. I'm not a real tall guy, but I'm not short either. Some people have said that I was short and it hurts me. I'm confused about that woman because she can be very nice to me and has helped me when I was in a crisis. But sometimes she'll say a joke that can be hurtful.

[3rd rock]

I had to get up at 5 this morning. I'm very tired. Seeing as I'm not the napping type, I'll have to wait until the sun sets after 9 tonight to get some sleep.

[will19]

I got through this week OK. I called my sister this morning to wish her a Happy Birthday. She didn't answer when I called. It was at 9:30 her time when I called and she was sleeping in bed. She called me tonight at 7:15.

When I'm at work, I keep on asking myself why am I doing it. I know I should be very thankful, and I am. But it gets very hard to be at work and not much going on everyday. I don't feel good about myself when it's like that. There are hardly anyone there.

[Breaking Dawn]

Isn't life fun?

[Rose76]

I had a good day.

[Rose76]

Originally Posted by will19

Slow boring day at work again, though the morning was just fairly busy. I got upset this afternoon when I was walking by the security area; and as I was walking by, I had my hand in my pocket. Just a habit of mine, I guess, that I don't realize that I do. The woman guard saw me and said, "guys who put their hands in their pockets do it because they want to be taller". I don't know why she would say that to me. I'm not a real tall guy, but I'm not short either. Some people have said that I was short and it hurts me. I'm confused about that woman because she can be very nice to me and has helped me when I was in a crisis. But sometimes she'll say a joke that can be hurtful.

My guess is that she's not all that nice. I suspect she knew she was being hurtful. Mean people sometimes act very nice. I think they get others to drop their guard. Then theh go in with the knife.

Here's a response yoj can make to throw her off: after her making that ridiculous statement, you look deep into her eyes and say, "You can believe that, if you want." Then you keep walking to where you were headed. If she acts real frustrated, then her game is revealed and short-circuited. You get to be the calm one. Her plan was to arouse turmoil in your soul. She meant for you to feel defensive about your height . . . to feel all confused . . . and she succeeded.

Either she's really stupid, or she's got a mean streak. Minimize the attention you pay to her.

[will19]

For the first time in a while I didn't do any cleaning. I had too much going on for that. I went shopping at 8:15. I prefer the way it used to be when I would go
shopping after lunch. I have switched that routine because, as of now in the early afternoon, there would be a long line to get into the store. I don't have that problem around 8AM.

In the mid-morning I had a personal-business meeting. It went pretty well. I have this afternoon to clean, but I don't feel like it. It's very hot and humid right now. Nothing much for the rest of the day.

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by 3rd rock

I think I've finally realized why my books don't sell. It's because my stories are boring, poorly written, and basically unreadable. Too bad I can't write any other way.

Keep writing and sending it to different agency somewhere someone will like your stories. Don't give up.

[Buffy01]

I been feeling really down, sad, depressed today. I have lots of positive vibes around me from salt lamp, crystal necklace.

[will19]

I was busy in the morning, but things slowed down a lot to a crawl in the afternoon. I'll be watching a movie for tonight and I hope it's going to be good. I'm not in a good mood tonight. I'm getting a feeling that my friend is upset with me.

over the weekend I have been trying to sort out my cds- getting rid of old ones I no longer want

today I came across a cd of the fun lovin criminals given to me by my brother dan before he passed away. wow, so many memories attached to that album, not all good, either.

feeling worthless and like their's not really any point. mentally and emotionallyh, really struggling. so I through a couple of cds out. big deal, it's hardly going to change the world- and I have so many other problems to contend with

[will19]

A little bit better day today than yesterday. Spoke to my sister today and it went OK. Took a 2 and half hour bike ride today. Was very hot outside today. Feeling tired because of the heat.